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batam day1

2012-01-23T12:27:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Super excited about this- having my lappy over at Batam. A hotel called Goodway Hotel. The place doesn’t seem half as bad as others =) Reached Batam at 1520 (batam time which is 1620 Singapore time) and was welcomed by our uncle. We checked in around later to Goodway Hotel and our cousins and aunt were waiting for us. The first program of the day was my maid having fellowship with her people and then we children went to the pool.

And then went out to having our dinner at the same place as last years’ (fyi, my family have been coming over to Batam to visit my uncle for countless years). Not to say that dinner was bad, it was actually quite fulfilling. And it cost like $10++ per person?

It was pretty smart to get bee hoon though. And that’s my cute cousin Haiqal behind the steamboat. Heard that he has quite good grades =D kudos for u!

There were fireworks, and i was thinking about you all the time. Really.

We came back and was lead to the gym as suggested by mom. And in the end we played table tennis. It was pretty nice to be able to work out my body and sweat it out abit. Though i could do less for stinky.

Yup nothing much to add le, it’s only the first day. Much more to expect.

Thanks dad for making Milo for us! We appreciate it much~

Now all sleeping le, i guess i better turn in soon, lest they nag at me xD

Life has been a lot of adventure ever since you came on board. I was lucky u did…

J & J

2012-01-21T22:24:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Went to watch Jack and Jill today. It was pretty good, typical Adam Sandler Film =D
Learnt a lot about accepting others, especially people close to you, who they are and not judge them by their past, or from our experiences.

Sneezy day again for me. Spaming my tissues like no tomorrow though i need save a lot tomorrow and enjoying my time with lappy.

Money has become of an issue to me. I wonder… Already committed myself to spend as little as i can in camp and use the money for better purposes =D

1 man bomberman

2012-01-15T22:31:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Today is the National Life Saving Day (the one which i was referring to the previous post).

Alright so even though how much i enjoyed staying overnight at Dhas’ place which i really did i had to set my alarm at 0500 and wake up for this shit just because i remembered that i needed to wear longs (i brought berms over nia). So after my morning instant porridge i had to rush to cab back home about 0545, and to my suprise okay maybe not so much the cab fare costs $21+++ I had to pay by NETS =( Oh well, i went home too a quick wash up before heading off to EXPO via public transport. SMRT didn’t fail me this time though.

I manage to reach the place on time… and this was what i saw:My

Yeah i know right? Supeeeeeeer empty despite being there on time!

By the way that’s Bunry in pink and SHORTS in the last pic. like wth?!?

My station number was I26:

And my equipment that were issued are:

That’s lil anne (the mannequin)!

And so there was a morning shift and afternoon shift. Morning was pretty much poly nurses students =) And afternoon was open category, where anybody could just walk in to participate. Had many many other pictures that i took with my colleagues, but i shalln’t post it here, refer to my facebook page for more pictures =)

Skip to lunch (in-house):

If only our cookhouse could be that good everyday =( oh and there was this milo trunk thingy there…

And during the break time (between morning and afternoon shift aka lunch break) i saw this cute birdie~

I thought it was in no.1 hairstyle. So i called it the Tekong bird =P

Some weird pictures for the day~

And every good event we must always end off with a mega group photo!!!

Nice right? Well it was a very fruitful day being able to teach people how to save lives in the future, basically giving them more confidence to carry out task that feared by them…

Tomorrow would be the start of P010! I’m not the SI, sheesh who needs that anyways, and i’m ready!

ah woo ah woo ah woo!

Nights~

Overknight

2012-01-15T01:28:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Am posting this from Dhaslie’s house =) Hmmm not bad sia~

Here’s a pic…

That’s my com on a mahjong table now! Hee hee.

Oh man, i realized when i place an emoticon aka combing : and ) i’ll get with all those white background thingy That is soooo not what i want lor! Grrr angst much

BACKTRACK~~~~~~~~

What i did today:
Boring day today because mostly at home in the morning and playing games, then mom asked me to buy breakies for her and sis so i got…

It’s Fried Fish Bee Hoon (for sis), Wan Ton Mee (for mom), and Char Kway Teow + Chee Kway (for me). Yeah sinful food much.

After that it was pretty smooth sailing till about 1400 when dad called and requested me to bring the pineapple tarts which they prepared the whole of yesterday and this morning down to church @ Queenstown because it slipped their mind. I was like waaaa duuu **** in my head of course =P So i cabbed down - - - - - - - -- - - - - - -- - - - - - > it costed…

No not $4.98, but $7+++. I was just amazed at how the meter fare changed to 22 cents every time it jumped? Lols ttm =D Anyways i got compensation from dad =)=)

Blah blah blah laters…

Went downstairs for dinner>>>

Had laksa w/o hum (cockles, i meant cockles) while Bal had bar chor mee. Lols majiam food report siol~ ah here…

Just a small small pic for you to see nia =)

After that we went to woodlands there and bought some drinks over, and here we are… (look at top of the post if you don’t know what i meant).

Goodness me, tomorrow i have NLSD (national life saving day for the non-medic ppl) @ Expo, and i have to be there at 0715? OMG what’s more, Abu told me need to wear longs when i only brought berms? GG TTM >.< !

Alright, gonna arrange how i’m gonna get there tomorrow then sleep ler~

Today was a good day, a fresh start, a new chapter in this book of life. I hope thru trials and events each day each unique day, we’ll learn new aspects and grow from it. To grow and always strive to become better people.

Good Nights

Break for the 4th or 2nd last

2012-01-10T01:37:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Wa it seems like forever again since my last post. Hmm it’s already the new year, and i really need to set my new year’s resolution right.
Alright 1st is to get new resolutions

hey is that an emoticon? so cute!

Tomorrow would be a relaxed day (i hope) back at camp. Just some light admin work and we’re done for the day. I’m actually very proud of our team.

On a brighter note, i’ll prolly be blogging more often from now onwards. Keeping my mind of stuffs, stuff which i don’t need like this link here –> Stuffz

Till next time~ imma happy man

2011-01-22T22:56:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

I've negelected you and i thought i could give my all to somebody else... sigh...

I really hate ONR, compared to the ONS =/

I guess it's my luck. What should i do? Why do i still keep persuing this even when the clouds are so grey? I shouldn't be this obsessed. Paul control yourself...

Just... just. So not fair...

oil.Fire

2010-11-13T00:17:00.003+08:00

Dear blog

I want a simple life... please.

Don't do this anymore... I'll just need to be a lil more selfish.

Signing out

Day of learning

2010-11-01T20:03:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

As usual, we're having one of those days where you think that the sun won't set and the torment would just be forever =.="
Well just another day of teaching and educating us hands-on with equipment that would help us for our sergeanthood, or so i've heard xD

Hmmm... having this very weird feeling. After book in like abit moodless le. I know why, subconsicously... The root reason. But it's human nature to avoid problems no? Ha ha. Sigh... Argh a moment to grasp, grasped... Man why is it so hard to forget certain incidents while others can be lost in a batting of an eye =\

As my 2ic mentioned, sometimes you're forced to do something. And when you have no choice, why not make the best out of it and not waste your time? Wahaha...
Wonder what is gonna happen this sunday =)

Signing out

secondth of fields

2010-10-29T23:29:00.003+08:00

Dear blog

I've just completed my first run of field camps... A 4 days 2 nights of complete non-urbanisation lifestyle. Where bathing is unheard of and water is like gold. Actually we're like not doing the original plan of 5 days and 4 nights de. Luckily we got the "easier" route out. Ha ha. Since now we're the 3G army, we need to live up to the standard of the "soft" approach~ Yar many army meanings... Lazy to spell out. Ha ha.

During the last night in the jungle (yes we slept on the jungle bed), most of us had the opportunity to reflect upon ourselves, goals and purpose. 4am it rained... Somewhat it was pretty symbolic. For me it's like a reminder that no matter how strong we are, we are always subjected to the stronger unstoppable forces of nature. Then again, how we cope with it is as equally important. I was deployed in the middle of our harbour... And i saw how the different sections and section mates reacted to situations such as work as when it rained, who did what and what was the results. Some pepople would complain and do nothing, some just sit around people, and some people would make things happen and know what are the priorities. Ha ha. Well at least i didn't get very wet xD I think a ground sheet at that point of time would suffice me and my partners' sleeping space.

Yup. The sian part is about my phone~ Not exactly my phone lar, it's my sim card. Somehow, it failed me the last minute when it was time to book in. I couldn't change my sim card for a new one in time and had to just book in with a handphone that can't do no shit o.o Oh well, once i book out sure will go remedy this situation de =)

Now, it's time to sleep! Tired tired from all that jungle warfare. Ha ha... nights all...

Overall i still miss my phone. Miss the way i can msg people with ease to let them know how much they are missed...

Signing out

Blogging

2010-10-26T11:17:00.003+08:00

Dear blog

Sorry to have neglected you so long xD
Ha ha... Well there's like another "blog" for me to entertain whilst in SCS. Ha ha kinda like a daily review. Except that i can't reveal much stuff here. So what the heck =\

Hmmm SCS is feeling more and more self-run(ed). Everything that we do, we need to plan in advance and have force prep. Ha ha anyways i think i ran better today in 2.4km =)

Sigh...
Regretted not being on time. Lol. The past is the past.

To remain like this is tormenting. I wonder why i do. Was it because of you?

Signing out

2010-10-13T10:21:00.003+08:00

Dear blog

It's sorry

The conversation of the pencil and eraser =) Can be found on my facebook profile!

Hmmm as the days go by, i'm molded more and more into something. What? Just feel like i'm changing as the days go by. Ha ha, as i look back, i won't react in this manner previously but now i do. Yeah some good and some bad =X

IPPT Cat test wasn't that good i guess. Main highlight was my 2.4km. Manage to par off with my previous timing. The thing is relative to everybody else in my platoon, i'm kinda like the last few guys. Really got me worried whether i can tahan these period of the course anot =/

Good thing is that we're given more freedom (as mentioned before) and we're observed for initiative. Ha ha. I think for me, surviving this would be a miracle. But why stop there? I wanna be the very best like no one ever was.... lalala

First and foremost, rest is needed. Much needed for everybody here to adjust to a commander's life. I wonder how the other people in different vocation are doing? Are they more rough up then us? Ha who knows? Maybe when we gather again lurh. Looking forward for this book out to rest~

Signing out

terror

2010-10-12T21:58:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

Have you ever met people whom you think you've met before but just like they seem like somebody you once knew with characteristic habits?
Then, there are also people who would mean the same things but say different words? Ha ha...

I miss Dragon trainings. Now in SCS as we continue to strive to attain the leadership behaviour (not a standard, because i believe we all have it in us, just whether we want to exhibit or bother to show it), i've learnt that BMT actually really and undoubtly is our, at least my, most enjoyable and fun moments of my 5 months in NS...

Nowadays time is a factor. And this factor is forcing me to sleep lurh...
I don't wanna do collective training!!!
Need to get a silver at least o.O" and to think that less than half a year ago, my dream was to just pass IPPT xD lmao =DDDDD

Blogging feels a lil restrictive though because there are some guidelines (hidden). I'll just try my best to use this as a healthy and legal channel for my thoughts and feelings =)

Signing out

Day1

2010-10-11T21:54:00.003+08:00

Dear blog

Whooo today is my 1st day of enlistment to SCS =)
Ha ha everything seems pretty as expected and quite nice wor :P

Well we're issued laptops already and expected to study from it. The pace here is pretty nice and they have like expectations for us to meet lo. Ha ha. Can't say much too :S

Bleah even though i'm at mainland, doesn't feels like it. Still feel kinda isolate away~
Missing the people. Yeah i really do.

Signing out

stucked

2010-09-15T16:38:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

Yo mama's so fat, when she jumped for joy... SHE GOT STUCKED!!!
Hahaha =D

Ice-breaker line :P LMAO. Just came back from some medical check for command school, fortunately i'm fit for it :) Meaning that i stand a chance to enter command school (OCS/SISPEC). Then again, do i want to get into command school, really? On the other hand, other people has sign on for SAF as their career and i want to, as a MDES doing medical. Hmmm but they didn't contact me leh >.< Argh was i like left out? Well i went to enquire them thru email. Hopefully able to sign the contract~

Tomorrow would be our last route march... 16km!!! The so-called hardest or last hurdle to overcome before seeing the lights of POP. I'm personally excited that BMT is finally gonna end, at the same time afraid of what the future would hold. Ha ha, standard ba.

Policeman har? I guess i can always consider that :) Got the impression that they're quite slack in some ways. Who doesn't want to enjoy the most out of life? Gotto love it man :)
But too bad those days aren't mine yet.

I want to be rich!!!

Signing out

faithedful

2010-09-14T15:05:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

Got news that we would be returning our UMPC (if you haven't known, it's our personal mini-laptop issued to us by SAF) this coming Thurs. That's like 48 more hours with internet usage! Rawrz, what would i do without you webby =X

So much for that... It has already been the third SOC attempt, and i still haven't passed it or near the passing timing (or successfully completed the stations). 1st was 22min, 2nd 14min, and the latest was 9min. Okay lurh, at least i'm improving~ Now i'm left with Low Rope to overcome!!! Had a lil accident with the ramp station as well, fell and landed my rifle mussel on my toe >.< ouch.

I wonder what will be our punishment this week for the SOL? Oh yeah it's 17 days more to POP!!! Yeah, the day that we were looking forward to since 3rd June :) Just tahan only right? We're left with 16km route march... har games day wasn't that good, my company didn't do well lo :x

Hmmm yesterday night was cool. Our section, being the best section in the whole company, had its rewards by going to sbl-it's a place where sergeants go to for some food. It's a cafeteria, a real cafeteria in tekong :) I had fish and chips while the others had like chicken chop with rice, hor fun etc etc... Overall rating 3.5/5. Food quality and serving timing could have been better. But who's to complain in tekong xD

Time to go speed training ler. Then hopefully nothing strainous afterwards... sheesh these few weeks have been tiring in tekong =(

Live life with no regrets~

cherishing friends...

Signing out

shirtless

2010-09-10T23:14:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

I’m actually quite tired… Argh, so confinement is pushed to next week instead =X Oh well, at least we have the longer weekend to hang out :)

Next movie to watch is resident evil!!! Rawrz… i need movies!

Simplicity.

Signing out

{_}

2010-09-02T15:27:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

I don't even know where to begin with. Everything happened too fast and too much! Argh~

Let me try this slowly then...
Good points :)

All my high key events are over (no more outfield!!!)
POP is at Marina Bay Floating platform (pioneer batch)
POP is only about 29 days away
Expressed interest in signing on as MDES in Navy or Infantry

Bad points :(

Forgot to bring "My Defining Moment" essay, and as a result got punished: Guard duty later on and late book out this week
Serving my charges for misfiring during field camp next week onwards, meaning that i do not enjoy the 3 days of weekend off
IPPT results are dependent on the latest results, not the best you got so far (but so far i've been only improving)
Prep talk by PC, LT Yi Ting and OC was quite demoralising for all of us as a platoon, not only me

Aiya so many things to worry about, like why do i worry about punishments? Is it because they are tough? No i believe that i can tahan in tekong for 2 weeks. Just that the reasons behind these punishments are not worthy enough for my logical processing to accept it. Rawrz. Then suddenly everybody seem to be in their own worlds and quite busy with their stuff.

Dinner would come early to be because of guard duty. Seems like i'm not doing prowling tonight. Hopefully it'll be a more slack one, body seems to be aching all over =.=

So i'll book out this week like saturday evening, then booking back in on sunday evening. All the way till the next following week, i'll be at tekong. Ha ha. And i only have 4 more book-outs? Hopefully this weekend, it'll be something worthwhile. *thinks*

Perspective
Just yesterday, i overheard my section mate talking to his friend. He said that the sergeant ranks are there for a reason- whenever we say "yes sergeant" or "yes sir", we're paying respects to the ranks not the person. And whenever they punish us, it's because of their rank, not because of their person as a whole. So with this mindset, i've learnt that it's easier to overlook certain "cruel" actions done by some commanders. Grrr although still irritated but at least that's a source of peace.

Ahhhh 12 hours here i come~

Signing out

SIT test

2010-08-26T21:22:00.003+08:00

Dear blog

Last high-key event finally over!!! Weeee~

Overall SIT test compared to field camp? I think neither is tougher actually. SIT test thoroughly calculate one's leadership potential. Our last peer appraisal form says it all- factors were success (ability to lead efficiently and responsibly), stress tolerance (ability to produce high standard result even under high stress), and friendliness (likelihood of somebody to be your friend whom you can trust). I wonder what my other 12 teammates place my ranking as o.O"

Sick of combat rations and not bathing =.="

I noticed there are some people that i would categorise them as the neutralizers. Meaning that their behaviour somehow would neutralize the event in terms of enthusiasm. Like when everybody is supposed to be chionging for something, that person would sdlepak and slack. And when everybody else is resting, this person would somehow garang and volunteer for alot of things. Sheesh~ Apparantly there's such a person in my company. Oh well, we learn in SIT test that we're all in a team and we have to work together instead of blaming each other or on others. Instead of just blaming why not start working solutions?

Guess that covers what i learnt in SIT test =)

Powder has integrated into my daily life. And i'm beginning to adapt more and more into NS life. BMT feels like home now, and i love my life as a soldier. Oh no, am i being physco-ed? Ha ha. Sometimes i wish life was simple and yet i miss the complications i could get in life. Probably more like complications as in interesting events rather than responsibilities and problems =X There goes another irony which i do not want to go into.

Proactiveness is something i learnt along the way in SIT test. Nobody is gonna volunteer (much) to carry the store items (equipments that must be carried around constantly when moving one station to another during SIT test. So just do it, be the one who carry it instead of waiting for somebody else to carry it cause it'll be tiring and would fatigue you out.

Anyways lights out now le. I need to go sleep. I'll call and communicate more tomorrow. Need the rest for IPPT, if can't pass then must RT >.< Jia youz to all the yet-to-pass dragons!

Signing out

Tired

2010-08-21T16:01:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Why why why...

Signing out

aman

2010-08-20T21:57:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

Three high-key events have finally come to a pass- HG throwing, field camp and live range. Amongst which i would rather eat bull's testicles than to go for field camp again =P
After these, somehow i feel that i'm now more of a soldier to the nation, equipped with the skills, knowledge and a lil bit of experience to defend the nation if need be.

The forth and final high-key event would commence next week tuesday. Our SIT test. Even though it's just 3D2N, i believe that it'll be the toughest among them all. Ha ha, but it'll be the determining factor to choose the different path of army life, whether you'll be taking officership, being a specialist or just another man.
For me, i'm thinking of signing on in the infantry as a MDES. Hopefully able to get in to either the medical or ammunition sector.

This 2 weekend here at tekong allowed me to think quite abit. And i realised that pacing is really important in our daily lives. There'll be times when we need to dash that final 200m to squeeze every ounce of your blood to break your limits. And then there are times where you need to plan step by step, distance by distance what are the energy (maximum effort) you're gonna put in till that "checkpoint". Or maybe i'm thinking too much.
To pace or not to pace.

Surges of feelings keep rushing up my mind each time i wander my sight off the green horizons. It's so irritating, specially when i need to focus.

What am i doing now? I'm waiting to return arms. Need to wait for the other half of the company who went to range today (live range was split to two days, my was the 1st), then send arms together. Oh well, lights are off in my bunk now and many people are resting. Because fyi we slept at 0210 yesterday after our range and woke up at 0430 to help the other half of the company going for range. Two hours of rest nia >.< where got enough!!!

I'm sorry. I broke my promise on the 20th. It's something out of my hands, i'd really like to see you now, please. Thoughts, behaviour and attitudes coming to my mind and i'm trying to process them. How would you react in situations...

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Lemongrass smells nice
and so do you...

Signing out

Br0ken

2010-08-18T11:42:00.003+08:00

Dear blog

Broken

In the moonlight
Your face it glows
Like a thousand diamonds
I suppose
And your hair flows like
The ocean breeze
Not a million fights
Could make me hate you
You’re invincible
Yeah, It’s true
It’s in your eyes
Where I find peace

Chorus:
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
Let’s light up the town, scream out loud!
Is it broken?
Can we work it out?
I can see in your eyes
You’re ready to break
Don’t look away.

So here we are now
In a place where
The sun blended
With the ocean thin.
So thin, we stand
Across from each other
Together we’ll wonder
If we will last these days
If I asked you to stay
Would you tell me
You would be mine?

And time
Is all I ask for
Time
I just need one more day
And time
You’ve been crying too long
Time
And your tears wrote this song
Stay

In the moonlight
Your face it glows

Coyline

2010-08-15T13:45:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

Life has never been so much more appreciated!
Our six days field camp ended its last day at coyline (which is today) to wash up and pack up the equipments, store items, clothing etc... I wouldn't want it any other way~

The last 5 days have been very memoriable and i believed that i'm beginning to get closer with my platoon as a whole and individual buddies in my section.

Less about the camp then. Combat ration was interesting >.< But you wouldn't want to have it any where near the laterine =P

I miss alot of people during camp, really. Time flies and... oh crap, i ran out of body soap! Need to go buy le. Wonder where sia, small matter small matter.

Need rest now!!!

Signing out

501th post

2010-08-08T00:05:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

I just noticed from my Dashboard that i missed my 500th post the previous entry. So i shall celebrate my 501th post instead!!!
Happy 501th post!!!

Ha ha. Somebody is quite emo i think because there's a certain flight from China to Singapore not long ago. This is the first time i'm still awake at tekong after 12mm. Woooo guard duty, why so suay kana guard duty =(

It's hard to cheer somebody up, not to say make somebody happy.
I have this thought, if there's 2 person whom are close to you, they are drowning in the open waters and all you have is 1 life bouy. What would you do?
I'll throw the life bouy to that person who needs it and i'll jump down to save the other who needs me more. That's my answer.

So please stop struggling off me, don't take me as a burden to your weight but as a support. No matter how much you shake off, i'm still gonna get back to you.

Signing out

Silence

2010-08-07T01:33:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Does silence covers it all? I don’t know. Maybe that’s how it should be? Maybe. Maybe i’m not good enough. Maybe. I don’t know what to do at times and i got plenty of demerit because of that. Sigh~

Fairy tales. They don’t happen anymore, not in my life anyways. This week, i hope i’ll be able to pass it thru.

It takes alot of courage to send a sms. Not to mention a handful without expecting a reply. What’s the next step? I want that but it’s not showing.

Signing out

hATErd

2010-08-05T22:04:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

Communication was lost since the 2nd day. I doubt there's technical difficulties, but then again there's no motivation or no need to. Sigh.

Inception

How i wish i can place on e right now into another's head. Or at least if i can't, to mine.

The day didn't end as well as i thought. I got caught for not locking my UMPC properly =.=" It's not that i didn't lock, just no time to. I just placed the lock and forgot to scramble the number. SIANZ!!! Now like from Saturday 1845 to Monday 0800 i'm stuck at tekong for some stupid shit. Not to mention field camp (with the commencement a 8km route march) the next day and booking on monday.
Basically it sucks. I just want to relax during the weekends and it's taken away from me. So now i have 22 hours from friday-saturday, and ~12hours from book out to book in timing on monday. Which adds up to 34hours of my weekends, this is lesser than the normal book out hours of ~48hours. SIANZ!!! In comparison to somebody without guard duty... they would have about 70 hours. So like WTF FML =.="

Nothing in my life seems to be working. Is it just me? I think so according to you...

Signing out

0 X E

2010-08-05T10:25:00.002+08:00

Dear Blog

Today was the start of our route march with a rest- meaning that our route march that exceeds the distance of 4km. And we "marched" for 6km, dividing it equally 3km to and fro with RHC as the midpoint and resting point. OC returned to company line and i guess the standard has increased to another level to prepare us for field camp.

Sigh, BMT feels so technically stressful. We're required to carry out task with a relatively high level of physical strength, endurance and to exhibit leadership qualities at the same time. argh...
Yesterday's EI talk kinda motivated me to sign on and consider NS as a career. It's not that bad right? Hmmmm :S

Right now, most of us need to have better uniform (clothes) management. Febreeze seems to be using up faster than during PTP period. Well blogging is like my only way now to type out my thoughts. Ha ha, lazy to write with a pen le, now it's the technology generation!!!

Photo-taking~

Signing out

THud

2010-08-04T14:27:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

Today was a relatively slack day (not that the day is over) for a BMT day. Oh wait there's IPPT later =.=" The previous one was just last wednesday. Tiredness and soreness to be expected!!!

Morning was just the promegrante lessons. Ha ha. Then afternoon 2 activities before and after lunch were rather simple practical tests on our rifle... I managed to pass all pretty well ^^ Previously i couldn't load in time >.<

Just checked that i'm gonna book out this weekend instead for three days, 1 day on Monday extra due to national day off :) But i think i'll still leave it on the 20th of August. They say it's better late then never, but i think sometimes somethings are better late. I know i'm not ready for anything dramatic yet. Whatever~

Strainous week this week afterall. There are new expectations now. A higher level of discipline and conduct. At least i bought new stuff from e-mart just now to supply the need for my clothes :) I think i'll try to find ways to enjoy my book out this weekend before my 6D5N at tekong forest without any book out also.

Signing out

2010-08-03T20:48:00.001+08:00

Common 5ense

2010-08-02T22:09:00.003+08:00

Dear blog

Sushi tastes better better with Wasabi...

Realised that understanding is the most hardest element to comprehend. Consist of 2 parties, giving and receiving signals. This reminds me of my cell signaling when i was doing my biotechnology. The only problem arise when the cell is cancerous or the cell receiver/transmitter is faulty. When a single cell is cancerous, who is to blame? The cell's DNA? The NK cells that is supposed to eliminate cancerous cells? There's no answer to it because every cell would have a 100% chance to be cancerous. It's just how on the molecular (DNA) level, cellular level, tissue/organ level cope with it to constantly correct it no matter how many times it occur. Once a corrective system chooses to "fail", and not do it's job, the cell would eventually become cancerous and all would be lost. Then the next cure? It'll be waiting the cell to grow to at least a tissue size and then use chemotherapy to kill that area of cells. Some good cells would be lost, but it'll be for a better good.

Too much naggy is not good. I'm going off~
IFC is stressful on the body in the combat fitness manner (not physical fitness).

Time would heal and i'm considering the theory of time dilation... Stay tune till i reach the speed of light >.<

Phone wasn't on. Sigh, would the number change? Would the feeling still be the same? I don't want to think too much. I don't want to be hurt, i just want to enjoy the times. It's selfish. And i think nobody would even bother so much about this space of my life once you're gone... When you're gone.

Signing out

Till Faith draws us close again

2010-08-01T18:35:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

~ 20th August ~

Wait for me… I’ll be there… I promise

Misses you lots.

Signing out

the dusk of book out

2010-07-30T19:34:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

Haven't been able to connect to internet properly for the whole day till now. I think it's because i placed it on standby mode for convenience sake. Ha ha, well all's well? Hmmm i don't know yet =X

Let's see here, our dinner was partially screwed (or so i thought) until we were the first to get the food. You see, we were suppose to take the leftovers catered from another company, but then we got there pretty early and we manage to take the food before them :) Hee hee. I'd say that Friday dinner are pretty good, a farewell meal perhaps?

RT has been slack so far. I bathed 30mins ago and was facebook-ing at bunk ever since~ The rest are leisurely spending their time playing some games or sports. Slack. RT = Slack? And the reason for this RT was that we brought food over. So the punishment is basically time off and we must be retained till 8am the next morning? LOL kinda dumb to me. I rather do 100 push ups.

Sigh, it's difficult.

Signing out

Taken for grunted

2010-07-29T21:45:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

Things in life are often taken for granted when you don't feel the pain in losing them.

Well that's it for philosophical thoughts. Back to real life, NS life!!!
Our platoon got the best performance as a whole. 55% passes compared to the overall company of 44%. Meaning that we hit above the average bar. I did contribute to it okays?
Hmm maybe i'll jot down some of my results here on my blog so i can keep track of my progressiveness =)

Woooo~ Saturday. I wonder what's gonna happen. Oh yeah i'm booking out on that day due to RT~ But then i'm sure the rest of the day would be an awesome one! Hopefully things would incur in my favour >.< Still the world is not controlled by me =/

Thankfully the new recruits are pretty nice people to talk to and i helped them a lil to get themselves adjusted in terms of their identification numbers etc.

Brrr my legs are freezing under the fans :S
Kenneth asked me what do we normally wear, i told him it's either half-naked or underwear (seriously). He giggled and remembered the time when he was in army as well. Ha ha. Life in army is not easy, and they say our honeymoon period is going to end in a day's time.

Signing out

After bloons

2010-07-28T21:35:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

Section mates are all starting to wile their time away with games. Not to say a bad thing :P

New recruits are coming to our company to see how well our company can manage with maximum capacity of recruits. I think our commanders would be able to do well with the numbers.

Anyways i got RT (remedial training) this week. Just got informed only =.= The rest would book out at 1630 on friday while i'll be at tekong till Saturday afternoon. Argh i hate the feeling of staying back. And it's over a packet of cashew nuts? Sigh... Got detained over simple stuff is so ridiculous =/ Nooooooo~ i still need my time out ya knows :(

Alright IFC is pretty heavy and i have to cramp many many things in my not so big mind ~.~

Signing out

SOU

2010-07-28T18:31:00.003+08:00

Dear blog

Everybody here now is hot about OneManga closing down. Heard it's cause of some higher-ups don't like the idea of people using their manga and distributing it o.O? What's the big deal and how can you deal with such piracy? They'll be bound to be other sites and other sources. Oh what the hell~

Hmmm guess i'll return the UMPC only till after BMT phase? Not sure yet. But if that's the case i'll have much time to blog ^^ Then i would be able to blog out my thoughts and feelings here. Maybe quite openly :P

To my dearest friend. Don't be sad or burdened. Just smile and it'll be over =) Be happy that it happened, learn from it and move on! There are friends who are always loyal to you, and i am one of them :)

Oh this post... I learnt something new today. We all need to have SOU, Sense Of Urgency, in army life in our daily life. Yup =)

Signing out

slacks

2010-07-28T12:15:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

I've got a feeling that today would be the slackest day any recruit can ask in his entire BMT (+PTP) life. Basically it has been resting and more resting ever since after our morning IPPT. So okay, waking up at 0445 is no joke (i used to be awake at this timing and will have my rest just before dusk).

Lunch was pretty good as i could finish up the entire plate. Something rare for me :P Aiya need to replenish energy lost from IPPT also mah, and need eat more to strengthen immune system since we run just now in the rain. Lalalala~ We're singing in the rain...

Oh back to IFC, which stands for Individual Field Craft. So many things to learn and memorise, yeah we're the thinking soldier generation 3G. Quiz of 22 question just blew me off =.= I need to put on my student cap again o.O

L is for the way you Look at me...

Sianz, back to studies. NS life is not as difficult as you think. It's much harder. In a way where we use our brains and our body.

Signing out

IPPT 28.7

2010-07-28T11:03:00.003+08:00

Dear blog

As usual, i'm blogging from the most inward table of my bunk in between amy and CK's bed. Today i just finished the third one which commence the end of PTP, okay lah, maybe the last week of PTP :) These 8 weeks have been a true joy and enjoyable training session for all of us. And i believe each and everyone of us has improved physically, mentally as well as working together as a team now (at least better than before) *remembers 2LT Harris heart to heart talk with Platoon 1*

Oh man, i'm hungry. Yeah energy usage for IPPT is rather high but i was prepared with carbo loading the day before and had an energy filling breakfast. By the way there are four results u can get from IPPT, either a Pass, Silver, Gold or simply fail.

Lunch time is at hand. I'll be signing off for now. Will be blogging later after lunch!!! There's still IFC stuff to learn :S Oh bother, at least there's laptop to use right? Don't complain!!!

Nice to see smses from people you love. Who doesn't?

Signing out

For IPPT

2010-07-27T21:35:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

It's 9:38 on my laptop. Yeah it feels weird to start blogging again, dunno blog about what sia. Everybody in the bunk are like settling down and getting ready to rest. I'm going to sleep soon lurh, need to have enough energy for the upcoming IPPT in the morning at 0600!!! So i'll need to be up by 0500?!? Sigh so early... Welcoming back my eyebagz~

Hopefully i can get a pass this time. Jia youz for SBJ and 2.4km!!! We'll be using computerised system now for IPPT stations. It's beginning to become harder >.<

I so wanna book out and go out with the people i lurve <3

Signing out

After 400,000cm

2010-07-27T09:46:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

Today commence the last of our 400,000cm route march. Sigh the next would be 600,000cm lurh~ (look at the increase in number...) As usual tired and shagged.

Oh we're playing facebook and viwawa at camp. Wow, at least for this week =)

Signing out

Life of an NSman?

2010-07-26T18:55:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

Yeah i'm blogging from Tekong. Wow, they just issued us our UMPC (an abbreviation for Ultra Mobile Personal Computer), basically a small laptop that is their property. Well, they have its ups and downs, but for us mainly ups...
We can now surf online, not whenever we want and not as often, but what more can you ask for when it's supposedly to be torture? weeee~ And of course we need to maintain it, the charging port area and clean every last inch of the laptop holding...

Sigh... Everything is going up and down. Yeah i can be feeling happy a day and be upset the same evening. Furthermore my best friend is facing problems, i wonder how could i help him?

Planning for something big, something different, something original!!! Would you appreciate it? Would someone else? Hee hee, just random thoughts. I think if i have free time in NS, why not blog out? Much more convenient and faster too than handwritten~

Alrights need to get busy lurh. Chaoz~

Signing out

feelings

2010-05-27T04:33:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

I started blogging again cause i’m thinking that i’m too much for anybody to handle. I realised that i can’t argue with people that i love (includes my parents). I just can’t. I’ll just end up in tears, i’ll hate myself for not being clear to bring across a point.

Sigh, i missed the Artica night out with Denny >.<” And he told me that i should have come cause not much talking was done. Grrr, well maybe next time can go Play instead =X

Eye bags +10%!!! noooooooo~

I… i… i need.

Signing out

same old stupid thing

2010-05-24T03:29:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

I haven’t been blogging because i didn’t see the need to. People close to me are getting updated thru just me communicating with them directly. But… i just couldn’t take it anymore.

Sigh… Why am i being avoided and pushed away?
i bet you didn’t know how much i felt whenever i see pictures. No not old pictures, but new ones. Memories are being developed now even as we speak (or read).

How do i continue this?

Oh.

I got a new haircut by my bro Kenneth… How does it look? It’s suppose to be a “transition” between that of NS. Oh well :P

Mom bought me green tea. Not just any green tea but Organics green tea. The thing is that it comes in the raw steamed form. And i don’t have a net-thingy pot to brew it. Grrr, i’ll just stick with my $5+ lipton green tea 1st. Heard from bro that green tea helps you to lose weight! Hey no harm trying eh?

NS in roughly 2 more weeks. I have so many things to do and catch up, i wonder if i’ll have enough time? Exercise + Socialise!!!

Okay lar, blogging my heart out (and my thoughts) do work to a certain extent~ I guess i just missed the closeness that we had and shared. Ahhhh need to let go… I’ll probably get drunk over green tea, my heart aches.

i missed you

Signing out

Misses

2010-04-19T03:28:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Oh well. Now what am i thinking??? Ha ha…

I’m so gonna miss you =3 Ahhh, have to wait till you return yeah! It has been pleasurable these past few moments. Engraving this silent unto the sword that you wielded…

Hmmm so who is willingly to accompany me then =( Ha ha. Ah there’s the Megazip!!! Have no fear, Paul Aw is hear. Kinda. It’s getting late lurh, tomorrow the plane flies before noon. Wanting to be present, yet… Ah the heart still puzzles me :)

Signing out

3:15am

2010-04-18T03:17:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Weee ~ Back to bloggin’

Have to get warmed up first yeah? So pardon lots for my lousy blogging skills in this entry =X Dang it! I need to sleep and wake up at 8am tomorrow!!! Stupid morning shift =X Grrrrrr…

Ha ha. Aiyo so many pics need to upload also leh =/ Okay lar, slowly by slowly eh?

Cushman? LMAO xD

Signing out

Lost

2010-03-29T03:57:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

It has been forever since i last blogged! Ha ha. I’m sure nobody will read this post anytime soon since they’ve all got their own lives and my blog is currently pronounced dead =X Hmmm is not that lor! I just wanna change to another blog skin. Somehow this doesn’t feel like me anymore. I’m lost…

On the other hand. Single life doesn’t seem half as bad (yeah i’m a big meanie). Hopefully the rain would stop pouring and i’ll step out into a sunshine =)

Rawrz stupid dragonica disk (free, given by a CD store guy)!!! Can’t even work on my Dell com. Or is it my lousy com? Argh >.< I don’t know. Ha ha just wanna play games with people. At least i’ll stay connected =) Connected…

Signing out

51@N

2010-02-10T15:22:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Yes, i’m uberly worn out and sian-ed. These few days rather tired, think i’m getting old le >.<

Yesterday presentation was a so-so one. I had +30 more slides compared to my partner, although i didn’t know how well he did. I just did my best, and that is all that matters! Wore black full suit and i hate wearing longs (sleeve and pants). Memorising the slides weren’t difficult, the annoying part is the look in the person accessing me and my supervisor. It’s the “do you know what you’re saying” look. *ahbish* slap their faces left and right!!! Of course i know what i’m saying =.= The Q&A portion was a mix between easy and difficult questions altogether, and certain questions even beyond my syllabus lor! He’s a chemist, i’m a biologist. So far apart!

Now i’m just slacking in the lab, waiting for sup to come and later will be doing night shift at Smoosh. As well as considering a steamboat gathering for Smoosh mates on Friday. But it’s like 2300 at Bugis!!! So far and so late wor. Hmmm but if the rest are going, then i’ll definitely go as well :)

Jia youz for the people doing reports (including me)

Signing out

as you wish

2010-02-09T02:50:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Okay lah, i’m a really die hard fan of Yiruma >.<

So what do you feel from listening this wonderful piece from him??? I too wish that i can play somewhat like this in the near future… *looks to a distance*

I feel this song. Is like a guy, looking out thru the window to his love whom he has lost somehow through an incident. He just gazes across the fields all over to meet in contact with her eyes. Then when they do meet, they remember all the troubles they faced and the difficulties that they had to undergo. But then why you ask??? What happened, and how… I don’t know, this song didn’t had the answer just emotions to me. Oh sheesh, and it ends off with just a turned glace and moving on with their own life >.<

Emo stuff =X LOL.

On a brighter or not so bright actually side, i got my pay which was $95 and i think it’s one of the least amongst us. Ha ha. But it doesn’t matter, as i’m studying and working at the same time mah, study would come 1st =) The not so nice thing is that i had to bank in all (or my dad insisted), and i just got $30 out of it =.=” Argh, don’t want to think about negative stuff. Just accept things… I can’t do no shit with $30!!!

Nevertheless, there’s obviously the natural tendency to treat myself with good food :) Arun and I went to eat at Superdog just near my Smoosh outlet :) The food there was awesome and i never had the chance to try these kind before! Ha ha. And Superdog Rules!!! =)

Hmmm Merlin came over to my area today to try to settle the cat documentary thingy. Well, it didn’t went to well but at least we got the rough idea of what we want and what i had to expect. Thanks Merlin for that awesome “Opportunity” you gave me =) Would appreciate it much much! Hopefully we’ll settle our music stuff soon eh? Man, i need some more guitar training >.<

Sometimes, don’t you wish that somebody would approach you? Don’t you wish that somebody would be dependent on you and vice versa? And some other times, when you see a friend gets so fed up with his own life and you know you can’t do much about it because he’ll put on a mask in front of you, in front of everybody else, no not else, even himself. The silent cries can be heard by another. The spirit breaker was felt by another as well. If there’s even a slight chance to help you, i would. And so here i say to you to jia youz in your life and never give up what you dream of, even if not, put in 100% in whatever you do as well! I know it’s difficult because i face it too, at times…

Depending on others for help doesn’t mean or make you useless. When nobody talks to you or ask for your help, then you are. I feel that way sometimes. I choose not to and think of my future, the future in which i have control over.

Planning to go to some secluded area soon. Need a good shout and something to vent my frustrations as well. Jia youz to whoever is out there too!

Signing out

be3n awhil3

2010-02-05T03:15:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

It has been awhile since i blog. And i just decided to shaft this post up the blog to clean away the dust *blows the thick layers* Ha ha. Been very busy, and am still very busy.

Updates…

I got into the job Smoosh and am currently very hectic juggling part time work, school work and final year project. Becoming a superman le!

Sickness and fatigue follows me like chocolate and milk. Sure you can have dark chocolate, but there’s bound to be some milk. Sighz…

Then again. Life seems great me being busy and finally having some people to talk to? Ha ha. A 1 year silent friend, a month plus close darling, 2 good guy work mates that share our laugher (but not our bloodshed) together. Whew, what more can i ask for? Oh, good NS buddy for soon to come? Hee hee.

Oh my, i have a test tomorrow at 12 =X I still haven’t slept. Gosh, i need to sleep le. This will be it. Till i have time away from my reports, presentations and more reports :)

Love all of ya!

Signing out

headache

2010-01-27T01:31:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Yes Honey, i have a headache… >.<

It’s probably due to my lack of sleep and the stress i’m receiving from school itself…

The site of injury poked by that NS personal to draw my blood just recovered only yesterday! It was blue black all the way from CMPB till home sia! Awwww so pain that time…

So let’s see what has happened? Argh, brain hurts just to think of it. Sometimes, thinking what you’re thinking would give me a horrible headache and heartache as well.

As wiki quotes…

“Friendship is the cooperative and supportive relationship between people. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem,affection, and respect along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behaviour, such as the exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviours. Yet for some, the practical execution of friendship is little more than the trust that someone will not harm them.”

So from here, there are generally two reasons why people would want to make friends.

To enjoy each other’s company.

To prevent the other party from hurting.

It always seems like the third choice, that i’m a friend so that i won’t be an enemy… sigh… At least there’s a converging trait- stubbornness xD Ha ha… Yeah i’m sure it’s that =)

I don’t take panadol. That’s final. Ah i’m working tomorrow… Gosh, i need rest. I need to chiong this semester!!!

Signing out

almost0ver

2010-01-25T02:16:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Ha ha, now i’m trying out this new way of fitting pictures to my entries =) True enough, it may seem distracting, but i hope it’ll be much more fun(ner) to read! Oh about the picture, heh heh. I wanna have one of these inside my future house wor. It’ll be so grand (piano) placed smack right in the middle of the living room. Whenever i feel the urge or inspiration, i’ll just fiddle a few notes =)

Ah, about the gig! It’s finally over!!! Yay =) 2 months of hard work all paid off in the White Night Gala event as White Night Gala Choir?!? Like we have a name and status you know!!! Ha ha. Oh well… I’ll have to make do with these pictures i took with my handphone bah. Didn’t took the opportunity to take pics on the stage though =X But the girls did! Ha ha. So this gala event thingy is actually an event for Bone Marrow Foundation fundraising. And we (choir and string ensemble) are the entertainment. Hmmm being an entertainment and being the centre of attention is 2 totally different things you know :P Did i mention that there were professional male ballad dancers- Chinese and Phinoys =)

Overall the experience was rather enriching and an honour to be singing with the Singers :) That includes my conductor Mr Ong. It’s the feeling where people whom you’re used to being in a high authority and now singing with the same status as you!!! hee hee, nice feeling… The bad thing was, i was late for the rehearsals on thurs and an hour late for the actual performance on fri!!! Like OMG >.< I have valid reasons okay! Friday was due to my supervisor being draggy and all =.= Don’t get me started on him… Then the last good thing was Mr Greg Chen treated us supper! Woooo, so happy! It was at cuppage plaza and we had champagne leh :P and some snacks, all covered by Mr Greg Chen :) *All hails*

Just a random picture from church members… Justin, Chong Hao and Mark =) Ah, read the wordings if you want to :)

Hmmm need to help mom promote her home-backed pineapple tarts…

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Hopefully she’ll have some sales :)

Argh, it’s getting late and i still don’t have an anti-virus software. Oh well =P Tomorrow is my NS medical check up, and i’m reaching there earlier- 11am. Praying that it wont be much of a hassle. Alrights, getting tired… zzz.. time to hit the haystacks… nights all

Signing out

rushed.

2010-01-21T01:30:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Today was a hectic day for me, not because i did anything. But because i thought there was something but wasn’t. In the morning, i could afford to slack and reach school a bit later, like 10mins later? Dr Subra came in and we proceeded with separation on the chromatotron. By the way, a chromatotron looks something like this…

Yup. Like that. I had to dissolve my sample in a solvent first, then prepare another solvent for the run, prepare increasing polarity solvents and also the fraction round bottom flask (12 of them). Did everything and went over to the room with this machine. Seemed alright at first, till something went wrong with the separation. Guess what? The solvent that i used to dissolve my sample was wrong! Like OMG =.=” A poor separation would occur if something like that happen. Nevertheless, we continued on with the fractions. The colour of the fraction would determine any compounds present though which is yellowish in colour. After that, i was instructed to do TLC (thin layer chromatography) to check the components of the fractions collected. True enough, the separation was not that good but there was a certain degree of separation somewhat =X
After doing all those crazy stuff till 2pm (way pass my lunch time, and my stomach was growling), i finally rushed down to grab a plate of chicken rice and gobble it down my throat >.< Took the lift back up and continued the procedures, TLC remember?
Then from 3pm to 4pm, there was a SOLID talk on David, the founder of Udders ice cream. His journey was a thoughtful one, i was pondering over his lessons that he enforced. Hmmmm? It’s good to know what you aim for eh?
4pm. I chiong back to lab to finish up the stuff – transfer and combine the different fractions, washed up and left around 530pm cause i thought i had training for Smoosh. I smsed Andrew that i’ll be late, then 5mins later, he called come to say that i do not need to attend today’s training because there were overwhelming responses today =.= Like so ARGH! I rushed so many stuff and had to compromise certain procedures and ended up like that… Had nothing else to do, so i phoned back home for dinner lor. Took a slow stroll back home =)

Woots. Such a tiresome day. Oh not to mention the gig rehearsals tomorrow and actually performance on friday. Item check: print medical report. A whole long list of stuff-to-do and i’ve yet to start on anything. Dam screwed… ARGH!

I need somebody to hug. Nevermind, i’ll go sleep first. Sigh, money no enough. I’ll probably ask my parents for it again =X Till next time we meet, night night!

Signing out

it’s 1:52am

2010-01-19T02:13:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

It’s 1:52 AM on my laptop clock now (and yes by the time i finish blogging this post it’ll 5mins plus or so). Oh my gosh, i feel so drained out just now after the jab for whatever reasons…

Went back to DoTA 2 rounds, and of course took up a lot of my precious time. Hmmm, i should be more responsible now eh? Need to prioritise my attention to the important fields of my life. I’m a man with deep thinking- i think about the different case scenarios, what i perceive of your thoughts and how would it change my life (or not). Knowing someone for a long period of time or knowing them thoroughly has its ups and downs. As an optimist, we prefer to focus our attention to what are the good points :)

I realised that i’m very emotional and voided when its way pass my bedtime fyi i haven’t been sleeping well for the past 8 months don’t ask me why. Because sometimes why isn’t the correct question =P

Oh yeah, some photos that i shot… i always take random wacky photos. But i don’t really see anybody else taking similar “genre” of photos =| Guess i’m the weird one here o.o

That’s Walter’s butt with our new song- Till There Was You…

This is the company i’m gonna be working in. Under andrew lor :) Hee hee. Juice bar wor! But a lot of pre-requisites that i need to accomplish, first of is the typhoid jab (which i’ve taken it just now) and second is some NEA course that i need to attend for food safety? Oh bother… Ha ha. I’m already an expert in hygiene =)

And that is my official Letter of Employment, duh! Ha ha. So cool! And it’s my first time officially finding a job, a part time job and getting into one =) weee~ Happy happy! But then hur, the pay is only $5/h nia. Oh well, it’s my passion, and not to mention nice people there i’ve met so far like Jasper, Vivian (master), and others lah! Ha ha!

I’m beginning to slack in my blog language le. But it doesn’t matter right? The use of simple words to convey the message across is better than sophisticated sayings :) Argh! Need to cut finger nails and cut hair… And oh no!!! Need to pay $20.10 for the Sentosa tix tomorrow! Argh, how how how >.<

Signing out

Nooooo

2010-01-18T20:51:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

I got my typhoid vaccine just now! It’s at the clinic just downstairs my house, and that single jab costs me $30! W00ts, so expensive sia! Luckily for me Smoosh would be covering the costs incurred :) Oh wait i still have to attend a NEA training… Awww Jasper is going there tomorrow, but i can’t as i have school and only will be free after 6pm >.< Andrew had to arrange another time for me on wednesday 3-7pm instead. Feels so pai seh wor…

Yeah, that’s me with the jab there on my left arm (mirrored imaged).

Like OMG, i just clicked “overwrite” on my phone photos and i have to re-transfer 700+ pics back from my phone to my com =.= argh, so difficult de!!!

Feeling kinda dizzy now after the jab. Don’t know why. May be cranky, so watch out!

Money money money… damit, i’m short of money =(

Signing out

zzz!

2010-01-15T11:22:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Sheesh, tiredness is catching up to me again. Argh, seems like i continuously keep losing this tug of war within myself. Do i look strong?

Went for Smoosh POS job training yesterday. Although at first i thought it’ll be a walk in the park, the park seemed much bigger than it seems? Ha ha. Ended up with a lot of things to memorise lor. Sheesh, computers =.=”

The day before wasn’t a very good day either. Got said by by my supervisor, what i’m hearing is he saying i’m useless, i’m good for nothing, and i’m disposable… Yeah like whatever! Then just yesterday i finished up my workload all in anticipation for that barrage of non-self confidence, and he showed up for… 15mins just to instruct us on what we need to do. Really you know, i rather be supervised by some other people like Ms Nilar or Ms Cherine Tan. At least they don’t pull you down and has eyes (that works) which sees hardworking when they actually meet one… *bitch slaps arrogant people*

Then again. I have to count my blessings eh? I’m really lucky. Just do to have somebody to confide in :) heh heh. And recently, i feel my karma is getting radically unstable. I wonder why? Oh well, i’ll leave that case to another time. Right now, i have lessons later (on top of my lab work) and meeting my VE kakis for some celebration :P Oh lazy to add pics for now…

It’s nice to have friends, somewhat, again =)

Signing out

interview

2010-01-12T19:53:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Okay lar, this is quite a post that is kinda overdued =) It happened last Saturday, where i had my job training for Smoosh. It’s not really a job training exactly, just preparing us what to expect during working hours. The location was somewhat near Lavender MRT, and i supposedly needed to meet denny there but i was late =P He proceeded there first and shortly i arrived. The room was pretty small lor. Had to squeeze somewhere 16 people in total >.<

Yeah that’s the room size! Hee hee. The 2 tables and other equipments with all of us inside just barely fill the room to its brim. Not to mention that faulty door! Rawrz, a bloody stubborn one. Refuses to close when opened, and refuses to open when closed. Ha ha. We were paired up into four groups of 3-5 people. My group was Jasper (O level grad), Denny (yr2 NYP), Vivian (experienced auntie) and me (a nobody). The whole process was fun, taking turns and helping each other out. Hygiene and healthy (nutrition) was at the utmost priority for Smoosh. Apparently the “nobody” got shortlisted, and Denny didn’t got in :P I wonder why xD Oops :p yeah i feel sad for him. LOL.

Anyways i went to Raffles Hospital for the first time the following day…

Ha ha… yeah the hospital was really high class! Seems like some hotel lor. Have suites even! Ha ha. And of course, it’s freakin’ expensive =) So i took the opportunity to take pictures there :)

Ha ha… Gonna buy stuff from Denny’s personal selling. Hope that it’s worthwhile wor =)

Signing out

haha

2010-01-08T14:11:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

An interesting joke (dirty) i came across over the web :P

Girl: "Forgive me father for I have sinned."
Priest: "What have you done my child?"
Girl: "I called a man a son of a bitch."
Priest: "Why did you call him a son of a bitch?"
Girl: "Because he touched my hand."
Priest: "Like this?" (As he touches her hand)
Girl: "Yes father."
Priest: "Thats no reason to call a man a son of a bitch."
Girl: "Then he touched my breast."
Priest: "Like this?" (as he touched her breast)
Girl: "Yes father."
Priest: "Thats no reason to call him a son of a bitch."
Girl: "Then he took off my clothes, father."
Priest: "Like this?" (as he takes off her clothes)
Girl: "Yes father."
Priest: "Thats no reason to call him a son of a bitch."
Girl: "Then he stuck his you know what into my you know where."
Priest: "Like this?" (as he stuck his you know what into her you know where)
Girl: "Yes father."
Priest: "Thats no reason to call him a son of a bitch."
Girl: "Then he pumped me fast and furious..."
The priest pumps her fast and says "Thats no reason to call him a son of a bitch."
Girl: "YES FATHER, YES FATHER, YES FATHER!!!"
Priest: (after a few minutes): "Ahh... Thats no reason to call him a son of a bitch."
Girl: "But father he had AIDS!"
Priest: "THAT SON OF A BITCH

OH!

2010-01-08T10:26:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Went to 2 Open Houses (OH) yesterday wor!!! Ha ha, really tiring but fun =)

First of course is my own poly, NYP. I had to perform anyways :) VE did 2 performances at the library cafe (sucks big time) at 1200 and 1330. The first slot audience was a lot sia (sacarsm) and we didn’t do very well with our three songs i feel- Dravidian (tamil dance), Angel (inspirational) and Voice Dance (free spirit). We replaced Angel with Every Breath You Take, a classical oldies =) I prefer that also. Ah, Arun came to watch us, and recorded the 2nd slot only. Cause i told him it was 1230 for the first one. Hee hee, sorry alot =P

Then Arun and I proceeded to NP OH, his polytechnic. To view his wonderful poly life (i think). At least NP feels so much livelier than NYP for some odd reason, maybe the crowd? Hmmm i visited his department which was nursing and beside it was their life science. Being a nosey brat, i just wandered off there. And i was like OMG at their participants involvement level. Let’s see here…

I saw how ice-creams were made.
I tried frozen biscuits (fun after effects, look out for movie also!).
Wanted to do henna, but student crowd too much to handle.
Saw a fish tank with vacuum pressure on top so that we could touch the fishes from somewhat the bottom area.
Touched baby bamboo sharks (i think that is what they are called, and very nice feeling too), starfishes and got my hands wet!
Saw rodents and some G-force guinea pigs :)

Yeah, a lot right? Not to mention the “free lunch”, popsicle stick and 2 sausages! Oooo, i’m being to love NP cause of their free food during OH! Rawrz. Aiyo their infrastructure also nice nice de =X Well too late to regret now! Hee hee, i’ll do the best with whatever i have always.

After the tours, me and Arun decided to catch the block buster movie Sherlock Holmes (how do you actually pronounce “Holmes” without the “l”?) @ Plaza Sing. Rather intriguing movie i must say. Sherlock has unexplainable analytical and deduction skills. An idol perhaps? Ha ha. It was worth the money and i strongly recommend this film if you wanna enjoy a action-packed intellectual movie!

Awww, school’s boring… Haven’t had breakfast either. Argh, low blood sugar levels =X I feel so gluttonish and lazy. Oh my, i don’t wanna be a glutton >.< Okay 20 laps of swimming for me (when i’m free). Ha ha.

Signing out

xiuzzz

2010-01-03T01:20:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

This entry would account for my 31st Dec 09 and 2nd Jan 10. Today’s sermon by Pastor Derek has proven that a new year doesn’t simply mean a change of calender, nor does it come with a barrage of fireworks. Instead a change of viewpoint (cliche) and self-awareness of “carried over characteristics”, whether were there any that shouldn’t be brought over, or any that should be carried over =) I totally understand and didn’t fall asleep, for once ;p

Then the obvious question… How’s my new year then? Ha ha. With that greater understanding and knowledge, i pursued matters that matters (puny).

Met Arun @ Somerset MRT to get to Cinne. It was dinner time, fortunately for us, there weren’t much rowdy mobsters to push us over whatsoever. Just a few people pushing out to get to a rock/heavy band performance just outside cinne. I tried to appreciate that kind of music, however my ears and stomach betrayed me…

Ordered this for dinner. Some beef soup set meal. Costs $5 plus. Forgotten le, cause didn’t take note of the price, just wanna enjoy good food =) Argh, Arun doesn’t go for pork, beef or mutton. He just eats chicken and fish for protein intake (wow at self-control).

Dessert was this. Guess which 1 is mine? Ha ha. *hint mines guava*

Afterwards, we got a call from Malcolm. Supposedly meeting him and shin. Due to whatever unknown reasons hidden by Malcolm, i doubt we will ever know. I think that he’s pretty rich and overly socialable? Ha ha. Who am i to judge right?

We spent time at Mac along Tanglin road. Can’t remember the exact location since i’ve only been there once. It says SIT!

Some good photos that we took from his expensive camera his dad bought for him (talking about Malcolm here).

1st Jan? Nothing much lor. Pretty much slacked at home xD till around night time where we sent Xiu Hui off le. Think for 6 months? Ha ha, so our VE peeps Alum9 went to make a farewell album for her. Took CY and ET alot of effort, as can be seen. Argh, the photos of the album with CY. So i’ll settle that another time =) Right now… enjoying life! Ha ha…

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I still remembered you. A question was posed, i got stunned. But i chose you. I see you through those eyes =)

Signing out

x’mas bowling night…

2009-12-27T17:07:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Promised i’ll blog the pics didn’t i? Ha ha. Okay lah, i know it’s kinda late for X’mas pics (2days ago). But then it’s always better late then never right?

Hmmm trying out a function called Photo Album from Windows Live Writer, i wonder how would it turn out? Enjoy anyways =D

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eve 2 x’mas

2009-12-25T19:14:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

3 days ever since my last blog entry =) Ho ho ho! Merry X’mas. Tis the season to be jolly yeah? The love dude, feel the love!!!

Went to watch Alvin & the Chipmunks 2 yesterday with Ben, Andrew, Denny, Arun and me =) The more the merrier. w00ts~ The show wasn’t as fantastic as the 1st show. Theodore was still undisputedly cute + adorable. “There’s no ‘I’ in team, but there’s 1 in ‘Alvin’!!!” Ha ha. The female version of chipmunks (known as chipettes) are kinda lameo if u ask me. After living 20 years on Earth, you’ve seen most of the common plot and label them as boring xD

So that was my X’mas eve day out. And for today, i blame my alarm clock (again) for waking me up late and Arun was waiting for me as usual at somerset control station. Joe had invited us to have a X’mas lunch? But since Arun had to run by 2pm, we met up slightly earlier (abit). Hee hee. Sorry for being late though! Ah, Boon Siong chose the Soup Restaurant as he recommended the sweet potato leaves. And so we did! It was a chinese style restaurant, with chinese style uniform as expected. There were that vegetable dish, claypot tofu, somsui chicken and lotus braise pork soup. Totally awesome generally. Arun didn’t eat much though >.< Rawrz, next time must force him to eat even though he have another lunch appointment whatsoever. Muahaha xD

Ever felt that the days seemed so much brighter, sky seemed so much bluer and the nights so much calmer? Yeah… it’s a nice feeling =)

And here are the pictures!!!

The X’mas card for somebody special =D

Pictures taken outside of Plaza Sing, some sort of Christian depiction of X’mas if i’m not mistaken…

Utensils of the Soup Restaurant!!!

Vases display along the shelves of the Soup Restaurant =)

Oh i’m going to X’mas bowling soon lers! Dad would be bringing us (me and siblings) to this yearly bowl thingy xD Ha ha… Will update more soon again =)

This year X’mas, i wished for you. I wished for your heart. I saw a shooting star. And even though how far it may seem, i’ll get it. I’ll get it for you, because you light up my life in the darkest time…

Signing out

mysky

2009-12-22T21:40:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

To the one who keeps looking at my blog over 20 times a day… Thanks for making the choice and initiative to do so :) love you =D

Don’t hesitate no more. Don’t complicate things. I’m yours… … …

Am rushing thru the overall report for my FYP. Okay lar, just doing whatever that i can hor? Do my best =D Hmmm, then i came across your FB profile and your status. Felt bad for not talking to you. Yet i don’t want to talk to you directly on msn yet :P Need to finish work 1st right? You say de :) Ha ha… Hope this years X’mas and eve would be a blast. I know it would, with you.

Knowing each other, understanding each other’s feeling is of the utmost importance… I know. And i want to know more =)

Signing out

haha

2009-12-22T01:47:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Joke: Condom Complaint
A man was carrying 2 babies, one in each arm while waiting for a train. Along came this woman and seeing the 2 cute babies started asking the man, "Aren't they cute, what are their names?"
The man gave the lady an angry look and replied, "I don't know". The lady then asked again, "Are they both boys or girls or either of each?" The man looking angrier and replied, "I don't know!" The woman then started to scold the man, "What kind of a father are you?"
The man replied, "I am not their father, I am just a condom salesman and these are 2 complaints that I am taking back to my company!"

Ha ha. That was random and funny :) Had a very special day today! I shall not forget =) Smiles… hehe… Yeah but now tired le, can’t really post properly. Need rest, need food, need exercise, need need need… LOL. Sleep well all! Nights

Signing out

u’re my honme

2009-12-21T13:58:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Remembering that Sunday that we had… You’re where i should be. Even as i get angry, feel jealous or even become agitated. I’ll come back to home. I’ll come back to you. That’s a ~~promise~~ commitment i made ever since i met you.

So i’m back here again! Presentation wasn’t that all bad. I started by mumbling a few words and finally the “Good Morning” came to! Ha ha. My assessor was Dr Phoon but my sup, Dr Subra, was there as well. I didn’t prepare that well, overall presentation was so-so but Dr Phoon’s question threw me off quite a bit. Had difficulty answering a few wor. Hope it’s alright >.< Right now, i wanna watch movies!!! But i’m tied down financially =( Rawrz, that Saturday =.= Can’t believe i spent $35 for a $28 meal (i choose the cheap meal cause i didn’t want to pay a lot, but in the end everybody shared the cost still =.=) sianz a lot…

Foot is killing me!!! I wasn’t made for leather shoes that’s for sure. And i hadn’t had my lunch yet, like yesterday! Somebody still treated some other person MacDonalds hor!!! Like wa laoz … Ok ok count your blessings, at least i got a hot dog *ahem*

Amor de li Alma

Signing out

tie-yet

2009-12-21T00:43:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

I am totally stress out…
Physically
Mentally
but not emotionally…

Life can sometimes be so unfair? Yet it somehow manages to balances the amount of true goodness with its true wickedness! Erywa is everything that they believe in, everything goes back to Erywa and Erywa provides the temporary energy.

On another note, after reading Evolution. I came to the conclusion that anybody that believes in evolution believes that there’s not afterlife, and there’s no soul (unless you presume when the sperm and the egg interact, the by-product is called soul).

Tomorrow would be my first major presentation on my FYP project. Argh, nervous zuey zuey (alot in hokkien). I’ve got 23 slides to prepare and present over, yet i feel that my script is too short, or rather i don’t have a proper script at all. Everything is in my head. That’s the problem. Everything is in my head. And i can’t get things out of my head the way i want them to come out!!! What a mess =.= That’s why people still need black and white, or hard copy organizer (instead of an electronic one).

Welcomed joe back today from his overseas trip :) Had supper with him and got a lift back. Thanks joe!!! Some more he bought me goodies! Yay goodies!!!

Feeling loved? Not feeling loved? How do you know when a friend loves you? (take note that the word “when” is read in a quick staccato manner) Oh well, i’m still an acquaintance right? Hopefully one day, i can walk on the streets without a worry, roam at night without fear or talk to you without feeling guilty. That’s it. Period. .

Signing out

2009-12-20T14:13:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Woooo! This is sweet :) It’s been sometime ever since i got a X’mas card (electronic or harcopy) from somebody :) Hee hee. X’mas as they say is all about giving right? I don’t know what to give him leh. Maybe a hug? Hmmm i’ll be always ready to give him a hug anyways… And thanks for the song too! +1 addition to my song bank xD Yeah i’m very song deprived! Lol.

Signing out

heart race

2009-12-18T02:15:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Les Voix 09 is finally over. Yeah a few weeks outdated post xD But i still have to pull myself to fill an entry here =X This cardboard thingy quite nice eh i feel!

Being family-like. VE always manages to celebrate everybody’s birthday. Including the ex-Prez, Winnie Kang!!! Each muffin has something on, it spells “HAPPY BIRTHDAY WINNIE KANG <3” The last symbol is a love shape. They were totally delicious! Talk about good presentation and awesome taste :) And obviously i took the M&M chip muffin! Yay… Nice but sinful foods >.<

No I’m not a pervert. Just during work time, there was this Malay guy sitting opposite me, and i couldn’t help it but to take his butt pic xD It’s Fuge! Go figure. No offense to anybody with that kind of butt too =P By now, i have a realization that i totally detest fats, including the ones within my body…

Last weekend end kinda met a few people. One of them is Chung An, my 15year old friend who is somewhat overly-hyper eh? Well it’s nice to get to know more new friends right? Open up the social circle and experience more scenarios :P

During church, saw this turtle imprinted on my cell mate, it’s simple adorable!!! Huge head and small body, basically kinda like myself i think xD Eh but i’m not slow hor!!!

Then last Sunday went to the Botanic Gardens for a pot luck picnic organised by a friend Rion :) Rather far for me, but i still relied on my handy bus guide to detour me around.

The Tangling Entrance. Somewhat a mirror-image in the centre.

I was early, so i took pics to pass the time =D Here can see the balls :P

And yes, being early does entitle you to cam whoreing :)

Currenly reading a $.80 book about evolution. Has interesting facts about it =)

Zi lian #2

The Sundial garden. It drizzled slightly so we took this shelter first to gather Rion’s thoughts and the people arrival etc.

That’s Rion looking at the map diligently. The makings of a good organiser :)

That’s shin on the extreme left. Think he’s emo-ing or something arh?

Last but not least, the mat that we sat upon. Look very much like happy tree friends but they don’t think so. Rawrz…

Oooo… today had an awesome day =) *giggles* Anyways tomorrow will be watching Avatar with Sky. Hope the show is nice =D

Signing out

stalker

2009-12-09T13:58:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Ha ha… I’ve been told that this song is a stalker song. Lolx, we’ve been singing this for quite some time le! Since before the start of the year xD I’ll be watching you!!! Ha ha… feels kinda nostalgic where i was actually stalking somebody for a long period of time. Now i look back, and i think… Maybe i should have done something instead?

Every Breath You Take

Every breath you take
And every move you make
Every bond you break, every step you take
I'll be watching you
Every single day
And every word you say
Every game you play, every night you stay
I'll be watching you
Oh, can't you see
You belong to me?
How my poor heart aches
With every step you take
Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake, every claim you stake
I'll be watching you
Since you've gone I've been lost without a trace
I dream at night, I can only see your face
I look around, but it's you I can't replace
I feel so cold, and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby please,
Oh, can't you see
You belong to me?
How my poor heart aches
With every step you take
Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake, every claim you stake
I'll be watching you
Every move you make, every step you take
I'll be watching you
I'll be watching you

zombie

2009-12-09T03:05:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Went to catch Zombieland at The Cathay in the evening.

A rather thrilling, romantic with a pinch of humour here and there. Sometimes it gets so gory and scary till it becomes funny to watch xD Loved the movie =)

After that went walking along town that road to near 313. Visited QuiznosSub, an expensive imitation of Subway. Ha ha… Chatted quite a bit and finally understood and my doubts/suspicions got cleared. What do friends do? I’m sure they’ll want the best for each other! Ha ha. Do you agree with this statement: Being single is much better; You can’t always get what you want. Both i’d to agree to a certain (small) extend. Cause, i’d rather be attached (certain aspects are hard to explain) and if i couldn’t get what i want, i’ll either have to tolerate, revise my wants or pursue stubbornly for that goal (again it varies case to case).

What if i still had those… No i’m not gonna ruin anything. Not anymore, not even a chance. Period. Seeks out a hug. Am i defying gravity? I’ll never know… yet i…

Defying Gravity

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!
It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!
I'm through accepting limits
''cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And never bring me down!
bring me down!
ohh ohhh ohhhh!

concert’s moon

2009-12-06T02:58:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

These few weeks have been stressful for me as well as the VE peeps. But particularly me (world always revolves around oneself). The good thing is that my test and concert is finally over, and the not so good part is that i’ve 2 major projects that i’ve yet to finish which must be submitted this week! Like SHINGZ!!!

So what to do when one attempts to increase the growth of his grey hair (or technically it’s white hair)? Learn to dwell on the good things in life. Analyze previous successful experiences and extract what was it that made it successful. Hmmm so i’m gonna think about the joy of the concert that we just had =)

This is the concert banner! Most people said that the design looks very hand-drawn. What do you think?

The first half of the concert. Everybody looking pretty and smart! Including our conductor Mr Ong =) Hmmm is the banner bit too low?

Our Emcees! Hee hee. Ann and Walter! They articulate very well i guess. Although Walter sounded bit niang at times.

Our Alum9 (pronounced same with alumni) batch! Friends forever!!! Can count the 9 people there! So happy for all the be gathered too. It’s the last time we’ll be performing like this. I’m no#9. Don’t ask why :P

After concert there was a compulsory debrief at E315. Prez gave us each a hand made rose with a chocolate on top of it. How sweet! Uhm mines pink though =.= RAWRZ… Thoughts that counts eh? Ahhh it was Winnie’s birthday celebration as well. PD bought muffins and had icing/m&m on each muffin to form a letter that reads “HAPPY BIRTHDAY WINNIE KANG”. I helped arranging the muffins! Though the word “BIRTHDAY” was a lil hard to squeeze in the space >.<

That’s Ben, Nic, Me and CY! Hee hee. Again, don’t ask me why i do random stuff. I just do =)

And we also tried to do a jump shot. I’d have to blame the camera for this xD

After the debrief, we decided to catch a movie. Okay lah, it was actually more of CY’s idea to watch New Moon. Since i had nobody else to watch with, why not? Even though it’s pretty late. Hence we got $7.20 tickets due to PAssion card from Pauline and Winnie, at 2345 timeslot. So *yawns* Nic treated us some food, okay, ALOT of food xD Thanks Nic!!! We manage to get in the cinema after 10mins the show has elapsed.

The picture is dam big o.O Anywhos, i kinda really like this movie as certain parts i could relate to. I really wonder how Jacob must have felt, used and treated unfairly? Bella feels so emotionally packed in New Moon. Well it’s a good show for me =) I specially love the part where she rushed all the way back to save Edward from exposing himself to the humans. It was so impactful >.< Ha ha, another thing is that the werewolves are all so hunky xD Their human form is just a berms! Ha ha… Probably will be catching Zombieland or Couple Retreat next with him. Hmmm which one ne >.< Comedy or Romance…

Back to reality. I have tons of work for 2 major project that i’ve yet to finish. *nags at myself* I need to do this fast!!! Oh a picnic is coming soon :) Awesome!!! Hee hee. I believe in more to come!

Signing out

bioprocess

2009-12-04T10:26:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Yeah i’m blogging for the sake of blogging… on a side note, each time i come across the word “sake” it very much reminds me of “sakae”… I’m now in my school laboratory (no surprise) @ block Q level 6. ARGH, having my bioprocess tech test later at noon. Hate it man. So stressful yeah, specially for people who hate the feeling of taking a paper feeling lost. That’s prolly my driving factor for studying- so that i won’t feel lost…
On a brighter note *looks at the blazing sun* there’s only 4.5 worth of lecture notes to read on and memorise in 100mins from now. So that’ll divide around 22mins per lecture >.< Should be more than enough for me…

Bioprocess technology, the genes, is about the planning and organising work done before the construction of a plant, expansion of a plant or changing of the plant products. And we have to study process synthesis and process analysis for the coming test.

LOL, not to waste any more time. I’ll go mug le… catch you all later! And all the best for tonight’s concert =D

Signing out

relax LAH!

2009-12-04T03:05:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Today we had our full-dress rehearsals! Not too shabby though (considering the amount of work we put in). Although i’m pretty much excited about the concert, i still don’t feel the “uhmph” to go the extra mile for it. I don’t want to pull anybody down either, just that i feel that i’m just a different sort of music person… I’m not your typical vocalist and pianist
All was boring till after dismissal, not that being dismissed is looked forward to, it was an invitation to sing with the Singers! Simple name eh? ~~They’re~~ or rather we will be singing on a charity event with the president of Singapore in it!!! Wow, talk about exposure… It’s 8 songs for around 1 & half month. Think should be able to make it arh?

As i type, i feel that my choice of words, my vocabulary is slowly decreasing. Oh sheesh >.< It’s becoming harder and more difficult to bring a point across due to this limitation. So what to do? Read more books lo!!!

BTW this is a quite old pic. But i still kinda like the look of it :) Brings back memories yeah? That’s what old pictures do to you!!! Hence… RELAX LAH!!!

We will do good =) I will do awesome for my test. And i will try to make the best our of everything that i have right now. Cherishing what is presently available and work for a better future. Start something, be it big or small, mostly small.

Somebody told me a few days ago that my dream came true. That what i’ve been waiting for has been fulfilled. Ha ha. I don’t think so. It’s not what i wanted not what i’d expected and definitely not what i can achieve. If you believe, you’ll achieve!!! Okay, i shall stop rambling over the repeated words >.< Missing people always. Want to touch and be touched by somebody.

Had a strong urge to hug just now whilst during rehearsals. Think that was a withdrawl symptom or something =.= Shoooo!!!!

Signing out

lanlanlan

2009-12-02T02:25:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Wow. Today had an expensive day xD Been awhile since i spent so much money in a day without feeling the pain of it, not whilst spending it anyways xD Went to pizza hut with denny to have our lunch since he was free yeah? Didn’t actually know why he suddenly asked me out, but it was like finally =X So we had our $5.90 student meal- i had baked rice while he got the pizza. Both chicken!!! Chatted awhile to catch up on him, seems he has that cheerful face there. Ha ha. Anyways then later went to Goodspeed lan cafe to wile our time playing L4D2 and Team Fortress2. Weeee nice games :) Both were rather new to me, so i had to noob my way out of it >.< Team Fortress2 was not bad actually, cool weapons and fighting system. Ha ha. Hopefully can hang out more often, LOL those close to me would know why. Ha ha…

Concert falls this friday!!! ARGH!!! And i don’t think i’m really prepared this year this time round. Songs to memorise with all the dynamics >.< So totally OMG for me… This time doesn’t seem too stressful also. Maybe i’m used to it already? Nah… think it’s the repertoire. Let’s see here. Seems like only Shin and his friend is coming. That’s 2 person. And that’s it… LOL doesn’t matter eh?

Waaa… there’s still my Bioprocess test on friday + Biosensor report submission next wk + Bioprocess report submission next week as well!!!! Oh my… I’m gonna be uber super ultra mega busy this week. AHHHHHHHH. Need chicken, deer and duck essence liaoz…

Ha ha… Today, was a nice day. I smiled. Okay, crapped too much… Ha ha ha ha =D Hope this not gonna bite me in the back >.< Need to sleep le!!!

Signing out

dell

2009-11-30T02:17:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Weeee! Got a new lappy le =) It’s Dell brand =) So happy (in some ways)! I’ve been figuring out this com since i bought it @ Sitex last friday… Thanks to LX didi for pei me to Sim Lim sq to check out notebook specs and Kel for pei me on the 1st day of Sitex to check out the place!

Argh, been so busy registering, checking out new products and functions, and transferring all my stuff from old Satellite com to my Inspirion14 :)

Many things on my mind. Guess that what makes life exciting? I just finished synchronising Windows Live Writer. Been addicted to that for blogging =X So yeah here i am!!!

Concert is coming the following week with intensive practice. Friends all seemed so far away even though i try my best to spend time with them >.<

Live your life as if today is the last day on Earth;
Plan your life as if not…

Make sense? Ha ha. Something that i think i’ll follow consciously awhile.

Been trying to invite people to concert too >.< Apparently a lot of people can’t make it. sigh… Life goes on xD

I want to make a road out of a dead end. Is it possible? Just use a spoon and start diggin eh?

Pictures will be uploaded soon :) haha. Oh still haven’t settled my phone->PC synchronization =.=” Troublesome lots!!! Got to sleep soon le, eye bags weigh a ton.

Keeping you in my thoughts always…

Signing out

thinks…

2009-11-22T18:27:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Paul needs to think this alot…

Am going to work soon! Went to AFA yesterday to meet Victor and his friend. Both hardcore anime peeps. Ha ha liked his d-graymen wallet though :) Then went to say hi to Andrew at his iknow booth, yeah i knew. CCTV and anti-virus software. First time this combination of goods. The crowd was not pushy nor was the environment hot. Probably because i went there 8 plus? Ha ha.

Many ways I'd show i care. Many places I'd go just be there. Many things I'd do to express how much i miss. Many words I'd say and these ain’t the least…

Gained +1 experienced and leveled up!!! You are now level 19, learnt “independency”, requires a sacrificial pawn upon casting…

Love RPG games <3 LoveD

Signing out

lappy =(

2009-11-19T00:46:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Today didn’t had school (or FYP, for that matter) as supervisor was on leave. Yay!!! Ha ha. But still had to come back for lunch-time performance @ NYP library. Had certain issues/problems though –> everything was delayed by 25mins cause as far as i know, piano ensemble came late. Mr Ong had to reach somewhere (far) else by 1330 and we were still waiting for our turn at 1250. Last the music was not there at all, everybody seemed to be rushing, breathing so high, not focused, and kinda freaked out =.=” Okay enough of that, i guess VE needs more experience? Ha ha i already had a few years of it le…

Number 2 event: Went to repair laptop (or suppose to). Rushed back home after quick lunch with xiu hui, cai yun, kah hong and ben. Yeah BEN!!! haha. He got free time till 2pm from his NS stuff. Managed to get home around 1415 to see my dad waiting to fetch me to Toshiba Data Dynamics Pte Ltd, somewhere near Aljunied. Got my laptop, changed my clothes, and chiong down! Got there with my darling lappy and went with the procedures. After quotations from the Philippine female assistant, both me and my dad got shocked… The price was $481.50!!! LIKE WHAT??? Ha ha. We rejected the service as there’s an upcoming IT fair. Now currently scouting for laptops/notebooks. Anybody has recommendations?

Location 3: Dinner @ Toa Payoh “staff” food court. Happens to be located just below HDB hub and is closed during lunch hours for HDB staffs only. OMG the food there is reasonable and delicious! Ha ha, yeah biased =X I recommend the beef noodle stall and rojak =)

And then later went out with Loong xian and Rion. Ha ha… enjoyed their company though :) Love to meet friends to just go out and chill =) hehe. Tomorrow need go back school ler!!! OK ok , sleep liaoz… nights all!

Signing out

2012

2009-11-15T18:04:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Bought renoma singlet last week and wore them like these 2 days! Ha ha. Can say is my first set of singlet =)

Saturday was 2012. Show’s graphic was pretty intense. And i loved the part where meteorites fell from the sky. Ha ha. A must catch show! Portrays a lot of appreciating the humankind thingy. Watched it with a pretty huge group of friends though :P

At least had fun watching movies with people =D Hmmm life as a student is pretty stressful in terms of what i can do (and what i can’t). Hopefully these limitations would be lifted a tad lighter. Many things happening at the same time. And i know i’m not ready yet. I tried, but it’s just not ready, maybe never will again.

Swimming has become a past time for me again. Went to swim at YCK with PD, Nic and Grace. The need and urge to exercise i guess =P And here’s something i do when i was uber bored at lab xD…

Ha ha… yeah randoms me xD

Signing out

paranormal

2009-11-14T03:47:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Just caught paranormal activity with Ben and Andrew kors and Denny. Okay, to tell you the truth. Just by posting this entry gives me the creeps from the movies >.< I’m sure this is the part where most of the viewers were looking 50% of the movie time. Noticing any subtle changes and/or noises. Problem was, there were this group of phinoys (not that i’m against them) who kept chit chatting and LOL (literally –.-). Alright, about the show, don’t want to spoil the show too much, so it’s a story of a couple whom the wife is haunted by a demon. Hee hee, the rest of the effects and plot you can go and watch =) Whoosh, enough of this already >.< *feeling timid*

Ha ha! Finally found somebody that complements my bag. Lolx… it’s somewhat a negative effect sia. I was so astonished when i first noticed it =) Ha ha. Fated. Fated xD Nice spending time with him too, Lol! Or is it i seldom spend time with anybody at all? Ha ha xD

Lol just random pic with my 干弟 :) He’s the guy with the compliment bag too. Ha ha. Eh i look nice right? Of course, both look dam handsome =)

It was nice hearing a forgotten voice. Ha ha, seems everything is well for him.

Signing out

day out with VE!

2009-11-08T04:05:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Early morning woke up 0840 to prepare for today’s trip :) It’s an outing planned out by me to walk the southern ridges and cycle at ECP! So talk less and more pics eh? Here here here =)

Just walked out of house and got inspiration to take pictures :P Can see the glaring soon wor!

Breakfast at Tiong Bahru MRT’s kopitiam.

Nic’s nice stream-lined hair!!!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S. ?

We went to Hord park after the Alexandra Arch and walk walk there awhile before heading off to Kent Ridge.

Workout playground found near the tunnel of ECP.

Cai yun’s mom ook after the bike!

Those birds dun fly far –.-

Er???

Wow! Mr and Mrs smith =P

Loll! I thought it look kinda disgusting at first :P

But who cares hygiene?

Argh! Long time never go see movie. I wan a few movies sia >.<

Hope i can take a peak at you, soon.

Signing out

memories

2009-11-06T00:28:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Rainy days again. Took this pic while i was travelling on bus 13. Fortunately no racist chinese auntie were present =D

Rainy days always brings back memories. Now am talking to new-found friend, Keith, and got a sudden onset of mood swing. Ha ha. It always feels good and relieving to talk to somebody your heart’s out. Hopefully can meet up soon!

Went with andrew to visit E. Excel today for a talk. A rather interesting company to join. Or actually it’s somewhat related to my field of studies- biotechnology. The founder, Dr Chan, has a PhD in microbiology. Interesting :) It’s a MLM though, so i’ll consider my steps carefully!

If you only knew what i wished… … … maybe i’ll have sympathy?

Signing out

H-alone-ween

2009-11-02T12:21:00.000+08:00

Dear blog

This year, as last year (same with all the previous years), had a bored dead weekend. It's probably once somebody has tasted the forbidden fruit, that their eyes would awaken and start being kiasu-like. I wonder where was that single person life that i'd enjoyed during my childhood? With nobody to follow or lead, nobody to complain or comment, nobody to praise or put me down, nobody to smile or frown, nobody to accompany or leave out and nobody to love or hate. Hmmm feels like a song is coming out right? ... i want nobody, nobody but you, i want gnaw body, gnaw body butt chew xD

Let's see here. Currently in school and i'm wearing (what i think) a very obscenely coloured jeans. Feels so feminine lor! Ha ha, should go hunt me if you dunno :)

Till then, i'll be playing browser games when i'm free... ikariam, lordsgame and tribalwars xD

Peace out yo'all

Signing out

meatball cloudy

2009-10-30T02:54:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Went to catch this show just this Tuesday with Adriel (since it was the only animated comedy show). We watched it at iluma, and it was my first time there, and my last time there wearing a single layer tee. It’s so freaking cold! And the ceilings on storey one are high, making it feel even much colder. But i had fun, it was a Tuesday =P Know a few more friendly people such as Jeff and Han. Thought Han is a china name no? It’s actually a popular English name, or so I've heard. I going to cycle at ECP later on at night (fri) with another group of friends! whoo hooo, 1st time meeting so many people consecutively sia! And trying to up my social life a lil so as not to feel so “distracted”.

Am in charge of organizing a walk-walk outing on 7/11 for VE peeps. The venues seek were TreeTop walk (went there thrice), Henderson Waves (cause Pauline suggested the southern ridges) or just hang out at ECP (argh, ain’t i’m doing that tomorrow?). Talking about that, i still haven’t found the route to ECP from home. Argh, overnight cycling. Hope the company there is accommodating to me >.<

I want to love this one and only life i have and make the best out of it!!!

Let’s see,what pic should i put here? Ahhhhh just random pics :) As always!

Nice ma? I design de. For the coming sec1 wannabes this sat :) From 2 Thess 5:16-22. Go read it if you own a bible:)

Ah, last Sat had dinner at Sam Lo’s house. Her cooking was superb! Not to mention the taste of her cooked food! Ha ha xD Btw the middle dish is beef and apples =)

That’s me in the lift :) Ha ha. It’s taken in such a way it makes me look slimmer :P works right? Ha ha!

Piece of Ethanol art work done by yours sincerely :) Guess what i was trying to portray.

1st time drinking Koi Cafe. And it was Adriel’s treat on large drinks =) Weee $5 each you know! Notice the queue no =)

Yeah, iluma cinema ticket has an extra flap on top. Don’t know for what also, maybe looks more valuable like this? Yeah, the show was okay, maybe abit too short?

Last but not least. I promised my friend I'll advertise this… Those are hand-made flowers done by him (obviously). $5 each he says xD But the raw materials are just MacDonald's napkins and some acrylic colors. So you wanna get one? Ha ha. I might :P

Oh i lied, i still wanna post a last picture ;)

Nothing spoils my day!!!

Ha ha… Alrights, gonna prepare for a long Friday :P Have a pleasant time guys :)

Signing out

to0 little…

2009-10-26T03:58:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

Just posting a pic on myself :P UPDATE……..

Besides there’s too little time nowadays. Today was fun at Newton :) Chatted with new friends. Ha ha. Then so so for everything. Will update when i have the time (when i do really have it).

Argh. Okay i’m ending here. Useless piece of junk. I wonder why people cannot accept that there’s somebody who really really likes them =.=

Not thinking about this. Shooooooo!!!

Signing out

school reopen

2009-10-19T01:49:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

School’s reopening for the poly students! Yay :) Can see people again ler. Ha ha, sound so bad yeah, sms-ed Kenneh and told him that finally i can suffer with people >=) hee hee.

Oh, and happy 19th birthday to Denny, a distant person from me. Ha ha… But still remembered his name and birthday, so yeah =D

Love is powerful. It always protects and shelters :) And love transcend time… cheem hor? Lol… Need to sleep soon le lar! I still have my FYP going on (9am-6pm). OMG! There’s also additional lessons =.= Need to print out the time table! ARGH…. haha stress!

wished i could do more. But simplicity would speak the loudest here…

Signing out

go that distance

2009-10-18T00:21:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

As promised the pictures. Taken by my pathetic (in comparison with Afzal and Nick’s) camera, from phone of course :P By the way, we met rather late huh? Think it’ll be better for the pictures if could meet like just after dinner. So here are the pics I've taken at Henderson waves and we ventured inside abit too. Dark and creepy bah…

The underside of the 70++m bridge (varies along the bridge).

1st stair way up the bridge.

1st signboard we encountered.

Caught Nick’s camera flash. Bright as day, and You Are Here *points*

Henderson, Duh.

Artistic picture from the start of the bridge.

The side of the bridge. That’s why they call it Henderson Waves.

When we’re at 78m above sea level. Took them legs :)

Both lying to rest awhile and appreciate the bridge and the sky. Stars filled that night. The picnic guy is Nick and the sexy pose is Afzal.

Last pic in this blog will be this. The Terrace Gardens. Looks really nice and a cooling breeze at the top as well! Those two checking out their time-table. LMAO!

And end this blog with this song Go The Distance. Meaningful words for achievers-wannabes (hey that’s everyone right?). Lucas Grabeel because i love his voice :)

Peace out yo! Got into one of the first 100 sign ups to receive $10 discount and free limited edition T-shirt for ONE camp at the end of the year. Exciting sia!!!

Ha ha… I've decided! To be happy. Doesn’t mean I'll smile. To be cheerful. Doesn’t mean I'll joke around. They say good things don’t last, that’s because when we’re around good things, time flies.

Starlight star bright
First star i see tonight
I wish i may, i wish i might
I wish for my wish to be true tonight…

When you’re happy i’m happy. When you’re sad i want to make you happy. When you’re angry i want to be the one to vent the anger on. Just… just don’t ignore me.

Signing out

some body to watch over me

2009-10-15T01:27:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

There’s a saying old, say that love is blind. Seek and ye shall know, search and ye shall find…

Gonna get my time-table from school later on today. It’s 2 electives, bioinformatics, FYP and IAP for this semester. Really a lot to cope, really. I was informed that my bioinformatics (repeated module) lecture actually clashed with one of the elective lecture as well. The best way out would be to discuss with the bioinformatics lecturers (notice the “s”) and arrange a separate time slot for a 1 to 1. Oh… what a drag =.=

Now after some word-searching. The idea that i had was impact! Would you step into the lives of others and leave your footprint on them? So much so that when others see them, they see you in them. That’s that kind of impact i’d wish to leave to all my dearest friends. A common question that lead me to this thought was, what will you be remembered off and by whom? Sometimes, you actually influence people that you don’t even know! I do not want people to say “Paul is a good friend ya?” but rather “Paul is somebody special!” Ha ha.
Yeah wishful thinking on my part eh? No. It’s seen as a goal, a not-yet-achieved status.

Said that much. It’s obvious that i’ll be sad. When i do leave somebody, and then that person just push me aside. Ha ha. That’s that. Don’t want to go deeper then that :) Oh tomorrow will be meeting Nick and his malay friend to henderson waves??? Don’t know where is that o.o But hopefully it’ll bring my mind of things that i’ve been pondering awhile.

Nothing gonna change my love for you, you ought to know by now how much i love you…
Wanna say that line to somebody, somebody special. Love is liking that person, and liking the do’s as well as accepting the no’s. I believe that when you love somebody, there’ll be a time when both parties feelings would be on “equal importance”, and then sometimes you just want the best for the other party and abandon all your wants. Then accepting rejection (if that’s the best), or change of relationship (if that’s the best), or even being ignored forever (if that’s the best) will be possible for himpossible.

But Paul is still a stubborn and competitive dude. He doesn’t like to lose, especially people. He has, will be and continue to obtain this unique skill called, moving on.

Somebody challenged me once that after the honeymoon period i’ll just not “infatuates” as much as before. It’s not i don’t want, just it won’t be accepted and just regarded as rubbish. Paul doesn’t have the license to be sweet.

Signing out

如果…

2009-10-14T00:02:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Ain’t it true for twitters?

In our modern times. Busy is the word we are accustomed to. Busy is our attitude. And busy is our reply (more often is the lack of reply). Not to point fingers (or heads for that matter), but majority of my people-whom-i-know-their-name often have too much commitment and bad time management or no management at all. In the end, they’ll get in trouble with the people that they work with. Jack of all trades, but master of none. I’ll integrate that saying into this paragraph here. So the question is, being young and all, do we try to “expand” our social and technical (skills) circle as much as we can to our limits and last breathe, giving variety. Or just strive a focused and progressive goal all the way? I don’t know, different people have different answers.

BTW, guess what’s this!!! Ha ha =D

Gonna need to add humor to my boring life!!!

Presentations for the 3month FYP were held today. They have set a high standard. People like me doing the 6 months would have to think of novel tricks to fool the audience then :)

School officially reopens next week 19th Oct. Do you know that I've loads of module that i need to clear this semester? RAWRZ, worse still, 1 of my repeat module has the same lecture time slot as my electives. Argh, life keeps getting harder eh? The stress of my current FYP is tough enough le. Please… Somebody saaaaaaaaaaave me! No lah, just kidding. Probably need somebody or something to vent my frustration on o.o

What if… …then would you…?

Signing out

RAWR

2009-10-12T18:36:00.000+08:00

Dear blog

I had wanted to post something at first. Till i saw something. Something really sweet nobody had ever done (type) to me before. Oh my, i guess i've inherited the "kiasu" and "instant" urgings of Singapore...

Recently (okay lar, just now nia) finished a book called [On Speaking Well] by Peggy Noonan. This book is written in an interesting format. Not one of those Dummies book along the shelf. But in an almost autobiography manner of Peggy herself and her experience as a Speech Writter (job title in caps as now i really respect them). Even a anti-book person like me would be engross in that!

So here's something i've lifted from it (oops)...
[an eulogy to Diana]

Today is our chance to say thank you for the way you brightened our lives, even though God granted you but half a life. We will all feel cheated always that you were taken from us so young, and yet we must learn to be grateful that you came at all.
Only now that you are gone do we truly appreciate what we are without, and we want you to know that life without you is very, very difficult.
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Indeed, to sanctify your memory would be to miss out on the very core of your being- your wonderfully mischievous sense of humor, with a laugh that bent you double, your joy for life transmitted wherever you took your smile, and the sparkle in those unforgettable eyes, your boundless energy which you could barely contain.

Yeah rather beauty ain't it? In a way i'm deeply moved (i'm a sentimental and emotional person too you know!) by the words Earl Spencer used. Right now, suprisingly, i came with a heart of frustration and anger but left with peace and calmness. As said, i'll never be angry at you. Ha ha!

Going for choir le! Oh my... need to memorise scores =.= Argh! Ha ha... jia youz for me. I'll update on my school stuff on the next post.

P.S. Your english really good lor, i don't think i can ever blog like you, and the way you express your feelings/thoughts =)

Signing out

trust

2009-10-10T01:48:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Today was a long and gloomy day. I promised somebody before that I'll be strong. And so i will. Just shaving the tip of the iceberg in this post…

Chair for two? I supposed not. Why? Why am i the only one on that chair for two? It’s either the other person leaves without a word or doesn’t even come at all. It’s such a dark and cold night, and i’m always alone, just when i thought i found a warmth. (this is an analogy btw). Shall not go on further…

Went to meet up with Colin too. He stays quite a distance yeah, but since it’s like long long time meet once why not? This is the night view outside his house =)

As i was walking i saw those poles. Maybe i should have just banged my head against those poles. If i had the power to hold you back and grab you tight, I'd would. Paul feels powerless. Note to self: Bang head on hard pole if i even get the chance.

Hmmm let’s try another alternative. Maybe i should have just stand at the cross-roads? The traffic was rather heavy. If a car did crush me, I'll be followed on by a rampage of them so I'll feel no pain. A better alternative if you asked me.

ARGH, so many thoughts. But i just want to remember certain stuffs. I was proud you know. Was proud to have you. I thought you’ll change my life. You did, but not together as one. Now? I’m back to square one…

About the title: Trust
What does it means to you? For me, i feel that trust has different levels or types. There are trust in speech (believing what you say), trust in actions (having faith in what you do) and trust in thoughts (as written). And most of the time, we humans cannot control events that occur to us or maybe just to a certain extent our experiences. To you, i trusted wholly. But i guess it was misplaced. I trusted your feelings.

That hug… I didn’t know why i did it. It’s similar to the first time i gave it to you, except the thoughts in my head. Pervious was “wow” and yesterday was a “goodbye”

I never ever placed my feelings above people. That’s probably why i never got them. sigh… That’s why i looked strong. That’s why i smile and “laughed” about it. I know what works, i know that if i don’t take this seriously you’ll forget about me sooner than i can stop this trembling of mine…

As soon as you left, i ran home crying and screaming on my pillow. The voices were grim. The knot was torn. World was back shaking as it used to be. I lost you.

On a brighter note. I’ll get over the situation pretty quick as well. Things I've learnt over 5 + 1 times now =) Ha ha, i remembered something, you never said goodbye right? Then you better start something afresh. Ha ha. Oh wait, you won’t be reading my blog till like awhile. Oh well, when you do i hope you’ve cooled off and ready to just embrace me in a different way =) Friendship stays forever you know ;P

Lesson learnt: Sweet doesn’t equate to Love.

Signing out

quiet

2009-10-09T13:40:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

These few days have been rather quiet... I wonder what's going on?

Should i be nosey? Should i ask? Should i?

Lab is equally quiet... can i depend? I'm tired >.<

Signing out

Is it okay?

2009-10-07T22:49:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Will it be alright? Is it too much for me to ask? Is it okay if I'll call you mine?

And i can’t wait to see you again…

Signing out

alog blog clog

2009-10-07T13:48:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

I've nothing to blog about, just want to fill this space up :) Lest people find my blog dead =P
So in a cinema char shao bao and man tou went to watch a romantic video, but why only did char shao bao cried at the end?
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Because char shao bao has fillings (feelings) but man tou doesn't!!!

Okay, it's a lame one. Let me try something more intelligent...
Among bread and coffee, which is the noiser one?
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Bread. Because Bread(talk) and kopi(tiam)!!!

Ha ha ha xD And the "Ha ha ha" is there to just humour me, since nobody else does.

Updates on my FYP- I've finally finished my 3rd extraction and now in the process of grinding leaves to smaller bits so as to increase the surface area (basic chem stuff).

Why do i tell of lame jokes? 2 reasons, maybe either occurance or both occurance. 1st is that i'm not really smart in terms of street smartness, but i'm witty :P 2nd is that i want your attention =) Hee hee.

Argh, i'll talk more next time. Gonna be 2 soon le =X Till next time...

Signing out

NAFA wind orchestra

2009-09-30T03:29:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Got my Logbook le! Like finally! Yay =) It’s where i officially keep all my experiment details, results and protocols! Ha ha. So excited. It’s in the middle btw :P The sketch pad on the left was the make do book and i was just doing Sudoku whilst waiting the samples to dry =)

That’s the conical flask to hold my ethanol extract. It’s greenish cause i’m doing on the leaves! Hee hee. Not sure of the compounds i’m getting though. I’m doing it more efficiently now, the drying that is. Hopefully i can speed up faster so i can move on to more downstream processing.

Got really bored. That’s why the Sudoku and now this. Somebody complimented on my eyes. That’s really sweet :) Yeah guess what i’m staring at? Boredom fills the lab…

Went to NAFA Wild Nights Symphonic Wind Orchestra performance today. Got it for free cause had connections :) Thanks for the tix aj! Uhm, the conductor is some well-known guy called Richard Adams. Speaks in clear British and is flying off tonight. Wow, had a quick “hi” to him and was thoroughly impressed! The performance was excellent! Though the theater ought to be filled up!!! Lasted around an hour and a half.

Both of us. Oh, notice my new GI hair :P hee hee. It’s more cooling like his. Ha ha. Aj said that i looked like some NS guy! Ha ha. Maybe i do? Prolly too enthu for it. Ha ha.

All in all. Had a great night chatting and knowing more stuffs. And the world was spinning again. Lolx. People influence each other in many ways, and i’m happy to have met certain people who taught me important lessons in life.

1 thing i brought home from aj’s philosophical teachings is that all things happen for a reason, and things happen to prepare you for something bigger. Really awesome way of living. Brings hope and purpose too! Ha ha…

Smiles, because the sun rise to see that grin on your sweet face. If you were to tell me about you and left, without any closure, i’d prolly faint and never wake up. Ha ha. Yes please, an order of you :)

Signing out

uhm

2009-09-29T03:10:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Ha ha. Just uploading this pic for fun. And again, i’m blogging at such un-earthly hours =)

Going to a concert later on (tue) at night at NAFA. Got the free tix so why not? Hee hee. Hopefully it’ll be a fruitful night out =) I’ll be sure to enjoy it!

Loves all my friends! Hee hee. Must remember the lowly me when you all get high and famous yeah? Ha ha…

Signing out

in schul

2009-09-28T13:37:00.002+08:00

Dear blog

Yay, i'm blogging from school again. Nothing better to do lor. My lunch break is now defined as 1300-1400. So that's why i've free time till 2pm, which isn't very long.

Many things to blog about though, but i'll just leave the serious stuffs out =) FYP is a bore for me right now. Currently doing the 2nd time of extraction. Still have 2 more times to go. I figure it'll take like 3-4 days to fully extract the container finish. So x3 (cause i'm starting one now) it would add up to 9-12 working days more. That's like at least 2 more weeks! Rawrz... stress and boring. The previous post pic is all that i'm doing in lab...

How would you do certain stuffs. Let's say you wanna propose to this lovely lady you've dated for months. Do you say to her, "Honey, may we have a possibility to be divorced?" How about when out eating with somebody. Do you ask, "Hey, which food you wanna shit out later huh?" I hope those two lines are not familiar ;P What's the point i'm trying to bring out? No duh!?!

Been able to smile, it's nice. That somebody being in the outcast like me, actually got complimented on. Gonna need more insulin to tahan these sweetness! Ha ha.

Signing out

rage

2009-09-24T02:11:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Ha ha… it’s already so late at night and i’m still blogging. Well, had a long day due to FYP + VE practice. Yellow ribbon and concert coming soon so have to be more musically incline! Ha ha. Been the 2nd week of FYP le, feeling so fatigued! It’s like 9am-530pm every single day. And currently i’m doing no brainer job…

Here’s what i look like when i’m in my lab coat and ear muffles with goggles =) Scary eh?

This machines is my sore eye. But i have to face it during my whole FYP session at least till end of next week. Need to extract 2kg++ of leaves. RAWRZ!!! The round-bottom flask on the left can easily cost $500 each. Yes $500 each. Am just going to try to efficiently finish all my to-dos and hopefully can get a better grade for FYP/IAP! Oh results were out.
Got B for my Human Bio and D for my Proteomics. Ha ha, as expected though=P

Am happy… I should be. Wait, why did i use “should”? Is it a responsibility or a duty to be happy and carefree? Guess fate has no liking for me from the start. If i can turn back time… … … I’ll flood the WWW with the regrets i faced if I'd go on further. Ha ha. A mask. Is that what you do best? Putting on a smiley mask?

The world is relative. Laws are absolute. Law of attraction, heard of it before? It’s the famous F=ma equation.
Resultant Force is equal to the Mass of the Object times the Acceleration of the Object.

Maybe i have too much Mass? Am attracted to the reality of life. That certain relationship last for that brief moment where somebody thinks you’re useful, valuable or has potential to harm you, so you foster good relationship.

Rambling again. ha ha, i can go on forever. Blog space however limits me. Hee hee. Some say love is a higher level rojak of feelings. It can make you feel happy at times, angry at another and disappointed yet another occasion. It still shouldn’t be just a “feeling” nor a “responsibility”, or worse still a “one-way traffic”. So what should it be then? I’d say honor, acceptance, appreciation, teachable, thoughtful, sacrificial, patient, honest, trustworthy and integrity. Many more on the list, readers would just be lazy to read them =D

Till then… Gonna discover a life without certain love (there are different types you know). Hugs…

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ddream

2009-09-23T01:26:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Not gonna be a long post…

Dreamt about somebody yesterday. I’m sure everybody some point or another has a special somebody that they’ll dream off. I know. It was more of a cold dream, where i could almost felt the cold shoulder. Worse still, it as pictured around my area. Ha ha. That smile, it’s a fake smile. More of a “get-away-from-me” smile…

Some can relate, some might not. We all need attention, we all need love. I need something more.

Is it the same? The feeling when if you want that somebody to want you who does vs you don’t want that somebody to want you who doesn’t. Does it equate to happy feelings? I don’t know even though I've experienced both.

Realized that school for the non-attachment people are starting on 19th Oct i think? Ha ha. What a day. Oh results are out… But i’m gonna check on them tomorrow.

Sweet dreams, just wishing… threw a coin into an empty well, will you fill it?

Signing out

sentosa

2009-09-21T04:34:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Basically today i went to Sentosa with a bunch of “related” friends. Ha ha.

Met up with Walter and Jimmy at Harbourfront station around 1pm. Went to get some drinks and towel (due to demands of Joshua) and proceeded on to the tram.

Found Jimmy a firm person who has his tough and manly side whilst his gentle and affirmative (subjective) side as well. Ha ha. Oh the sandwiches that he made and brought along were excellent! Ate 2 sets of it =P

Ha ha. Those belongs to Walter, Jimmy and Me! Ha ha. Cool right?

Uhm, this was just taken with my HP cam. Ha ha, quality not so good. I was the tem camera-man for that day as well. Took a few pictures with Gerald (dunno spell correct ma) cam. So going clockwise from the middle left person is Gerald, Joshua, Ben, Melvin, Daniel, Walter, Jimmy, Bert, and Nin Nong (dunno spelling also). Oh well, there were others, just too many new people in one day. Abit hard to remember all those names eh? Oh, miao came late too! Ha ha.

Then as usual i rushed off to work after that =X Nothing much else…

Overall, even though i didn’t got myself wet or played volley ball in fervor, i somewhat enjoyed their company. It’s something that stands outside and something that i truly desire… A bonding!

And so, i feel so helpless. Knowing what’s wrong, identifying the problem, doesn’t at all help me one bit in solving it. I could relate and feel the same way but i can’t do a single thing…

Oh happy Malay New Year though… haha.

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happy birthday ben

2009-09-20T03:47:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Happy birthday Ben! (if the title isn’t obvious enough")

Ha ha. Well, that’s Ben in that pic there. Part of the VE Alum-9 group (there’s 9 people in our group duh). He’s the last one to turn 20 though :P NS seems fun for him, hopefully it’ll be for me too. I totally love my this group of friends, bonded with them over the years and have this strong passion for singing. Want us to be together forever! They are the reason why i… … … ha ha.

Upcoming events…
20th-21st Sep: Overnight Prayer
24th Sep: Marina Barrage with Nick and his girlfriends
4th Oct: Trekking with Nick and his friends
11th Oct: VE Sentosa Outing
8th Nov: Yellow Ribbon Project

Till then I've these nia. Hope to do more stuffs, not that i’m not tied down with FYP already. Ha ha. But just that i like to be more involved with friends! Hee hee. Oh my it’s gonna be 4am soon, have Sentosa appointment tomorrow to catch. Ha ha night all!

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Facebook link

2009-09-18T19:37:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

It has been awhile since i blogged due to the alarming stress levels accumulated from my FYP. Ha ha, just joking. It’s pretty no-brainer job these 2 weeks (around there). All i have to do is soak the leaves, and extract the compounds. And repeat for 4 times in total. The only thing is that, the solution is used is a pretty large amount. Oh well, i have Tuesday to rush that finish.

Concerning about my M’sia and Cruise trip. Here’s my facebook link to it.

Today rained so suddenly. It was blurry outside. But after the rain, things seemed much clearer. I’ll bring an umbrella next time!

All the best to my [close] friends taking prelims and O’s!!! May you all get good good grades to get to your desired tertiary institutes!

What is it like to miss somebody? Is it that angry feeling that you wanna repeat your actions to correct what you’ve done wrong? Or is it that yearning feeling that suddenly appears when that somebody disappears?

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abliss-ness

2009-09-14T12:30:00.000+08:00

Dear blog

Feeling kinda down. In ways more than one. Morning report for Final Year Project (FYP), yet have so much difficulties- My original superviser is away till thurs and i was assigned to another one for the time being (for 4 days). I'll only be seeing her at 1pm (very soon) and she's overseeing other students. Her instructions for me (over the phone which i initiated) was to find _____ & _____ (2 person whose name i couldn't decipher over the phone) and to observe what they are doing. Er yeah... I don't know anybody there and i'm asked to find 2 random people?!? Oh well, i have to tolerate this for another few days. Hopefully able to pick up some skills. And wait till my superviser returns... And pray that he'll be much gang ho with me.

What's up with fading away with time? Why does everybody thinks that they can pull it off? Physically away doesn't correspond to the emotional presence of a person you know...

How i wish a gal would just hold my hands, stare into my eyes and ask me an important question. What generation is this already? I'm sure initiating can be done from any gender as well... not only from the "manly" side.

Returned back from Genting/Cruise trip last Friday. Hadn't had time to post the pics here yet. Till i finish my facebook ones. Ha ha. Doing like 10 pics per upload? If lucky, i'd finish by wednesday =)

Off to lunch! All the best for my FYP!!!

Paul wants bonding...

Signing out

balance balance balance

2009-09-06T14:19:00.001+08:00

Dear blog

Hasn’t been much things to post. Hence the accumulation of dust on my blog. It’s a bright Sunday today. Oh, in I'll be away on family vacation from Tues (8/9) to Fri (11/9). It’s a genting trip as usual, but with a cruise return :) 1st time having this arrangement and i’m pretty excited about this.

Balance. Working 12 hours a day won’t get you anywhere i think. Come to think of it, this picture technically makes sense eh?

Don’t give too much and have that “i don’t expect anything from you”. We’re all humans after all.

What do you do if you woke up one morning, and you find that there is nobody beside you. Oh you live as per normal. Good things are easily missed when not with you…

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