Dear readers...

He he. This is my recent hair cut. A longer version of armani. Looks kind of cool, but doesn't have fringe! o.0

Anyways, this blog. I just want to ask why...

It was ok till that sms. Or rather the reply to that sms. I really don't know what you were thinking and what you think i thought while sending that message to you. Do you think that i'll purposely make you angry or agitated? I would never blame you, but i'm afraid i cant tolerant sometimes. Let me illustrate with laymen terms.

Response type
1. My =) intentions .... Your =) response [the best]
2. My =) intentions .... Your =/ response [it's okay for me]
3. My =) intentions .... Your >=( response [fine i can tolerate, but for how long]

Under normal circumstances i would have exploded. But each time response type 2 occurs (and it's frequent) is like someone pushing a double-edge blade slowly in my heart while i just willingly stand there not defending against myself. Response type 3 would be like pulling my heart out with all the vesicles and arteries still hanging inside me, just how long my heart can be pulled before it snaps away from my whole body? I don't know...

Now i'm just trying to be fair to myself, but i really scared that if i want to have "justice" for myself, you would be hurt. So i'm still trying to please you even if i think i was right. Please help me out here. I've told you from the start... Any relationship, is a 2 person thing. I can't, just simply can't, do it alone.

Signing out