Dear blog
I'm troubled for my Malaysia trip from Tue-Sun. This coming tuesday night suppose to leave le. And tomorrow i have a BBQ with VE peeps. And what do all this have in common?
Money = =" Something which i lack off.
M'sia trip, roughly need S$200, where $40 ticket already gotten. I just remembered i haven't asked my dad. So i don't know whether he'll sponsor me anot!!! Haiz... I rather just fork out to pay the tickets and tell them i'm not going =.="
Whatever... Gonna sms Benjamin and Rees later...
Signing out
27 February 2009
Dear blog
Nah, i'm lazy to upload a pic. It's taking too long anyways >_>
I've been rather fatigue recently with all the mugging and going out at the same time. Today's Business paper? I've officially screwed up 20marks worth of questions... Oh, Lord save me.
Accompanied Benjamin to Sentosa today to use his $19.50 islander membership card. While i had to pay a $3 entrance fee card that couldn't work when wet = =" We roughly went in about 1600, took the Sentosa Express in, got off at the beach stop. Okay, 1 thing to note, the monorail people there weird with their hand waving thing. Creeps me out ~_~ Took the tram to Siloso beach, Ben bought a $23 fake beach volleyball while i got a $5 frisbee that has a sentosa logo =) Weeee so we spent the late afternoon running around picking up each other's thrown frisbee. Got to admit, it was fun to get out in the sun finally. Oh, it was gonna rain actually =X After playing, we went back to vivo for dinner at Kopitiam. Both our meals were $4! Cool. Ha ha. Went back after that...
Anyways, i'm interested to sign up for islander membership as well. Anyone wanna pei me go Sentosa weekly with Ben as well ma? Frisbee, volleyball, cycling and skating are on the menu :)
Signing out
Nah, i'm lazy to upload a pic. It's taking too long anyways >_>
I've been rather fatigue recently with all the mugging and going out at the same time. Today's Business paper? I've officially screwed up 20marks worth of questions... Oh, Lord save me.
Accompanied Benjamin to Sentosa today to use his $19.50 islander membership card. While i had to pay a $3 entrance fee card that couldn't work when wet = =" We roughly went in about 1600, took the Sentosa Express in, got off at the beach stop. Okay, 1 thing to note, the monorail people there weird with their hand waving thing. Creeps me out ~_~ Took the tram to Siloso beach, Ben bought a $23 fake beach volleyball while i got a $5 frisbee that has a sentosa logo =) Weeee so we spent the late afternoon running around picking up each other's thrown frisbee. Got to admit, it was fun to get out in the sun finally. Oh, it was gonna rain actually =X After playing, we went back to vivo for dinner at Kopitiam. Both our meals were $4! Cool. Ha ha. Went back after that...
Anyways, i'm interested to sign up for islander membership as well. Anyone wanna pei me go Sentosa weekly with Ben as well ma? Frisbee, volleyball, cycling and skating are on the menu :)
Signing out
26 February 2009
... have nothing better to do lah!!! =.="25 February 2009
Dear blog
Recently didn't have much time to blog properly. Loads of stuffs happening and going on in my mind. So where shall i start?
Here then :) I just caught Slumdog Millionaire yesterday with Wesley at The Cathay. And we got all the way till K6 and K5 seats = =" Fortunately, our necks weren't strained. Ha ha. I loved the show very much! And for those who didn't watch this, you missed out a whole lot of romance, hatred and joy. Ha ha. The three characters were Jamal, Silm, and Latika. It's one of those setting in present but have flashbacks of the past sort of film. Loved 1 line in the movie when Jamal searched for Latika...
Jamal: Latika *Looks her in the eye* I really love you...
Latika: So what? You can't do anything about it. *Glancing away*
Latika's master storms in and demands a sandwich.
It's true isn't it? It's like no point. I love you. You love me. But in reality, we can't be together. This kinda came as a slap to my face. To remind me the sour edge of love.
Jamal: It's our destiny [to be together].
Ha ha. Such endings only happen in a 120min movie lah. Doesn't happen in real life at all. I love duets, and especially piano pieces... The two pairs of hand feeding in surges of emotion to a piece of song. Both complimenting each other at the same time. Wow...
Christine: Say you need me with you here and always.
Christine: Say you love me...
Raoul: ...you know i do.
Both: That's all i ask of you...
Christine: Promise me, that all you say is true...
Both: That's all i ask of you...
Signing out
Recently didn't have much time to blog properly. Loads of stuffs happening and going on in my mind. So where shall i start?
Here then :) I just caught Slumdog Millionaire yesterday with Wesley at The Cathay. And we got all the way till K6 and K5 seats = =" Fortunately, our necks weren't strained. Ha ha. I loved the show very much! And for those who didn't watch this, you missed out a whole lot of romance, hatred and joy. Ha ha. The three characters were Jamal, Silm, and Latika. It's one of those setting in present but have flashbacks of the past sort of film. Loved 1 line in the movie when Jamal searched for Latika...Jamal: Latika *Looks her in the eye* I really love you...
Latika: So what? You can't do anything about it. *Glancing away*
Latika's master storms in and demands a sandwich.
It's true isn't it? It's like no point. I love you. You love me. But in reality, we can't be together. This kinda came as a slap to my face. To remind me the sour edge of love.
Jamal: It's our destiny [to be together].
Ha ha. Such endings only happen in a 120min movie lah. Doesn't happen in real life at all. I love duets, and especially piano pieces... The two pairs of hand feeding in surges of emotion to a piece of song. Both complimenting each other at the same time. Wow...
Christine: Say you need me with you here and always.
Christine: Say you love me...
Raoul: ...you know i do.
Both: That's all i ask of you...
Christine: Promise me, that all you say is true...
Both: That's all i ask of you...
Signing out
24 February 2009
Dear blog
A fallen flower cannot be put back unto it's place. It'll only can get stepped on, crapped at and not even seen once... soon it'll just decompose and become but just of a faded memory to that tree...
Slumdog millionaire. I remembered. I remembered clearly asking Rees to watch it with me. Well, he said that it isn't his cup of tea or his liking. Ha ha, and it turn out that it won alot of award! Hopefully i can watch it tomorrow with another friend. A NUS friend. Ooooo yeah, my 2nd target local uni.
Oh, by tomorrow i meant Tue. Ha ha. Probably will go to Bishan stadium to play table tennis with dad. Haiz, i need friends... i guess that's why i'm acting the way i'm acting right now. Desperate and pathetic. I would grow out of this an another layer of mask would form on my face. I need it to face the world, to face the world, to face my world.
I hope. That things would change. And i might find my happiness again somewhere, somehow, somewhat, someone...
Signing out
A fallen flower cannot be put back unto it's place. It'll only can get stepped on, crapped at and not even seen once... soon it'll just decompose and become but just of a faded memory to that tree...
Slumdog millionaire. I remembered. I remembered clearly asking Rees to watch it with me. Well, he said that it isn't his cup of tea or his liking. Ha ha, and it turn out that it won alot of award! Hopefully i can watch it tomorrow with another friend. A NUS friend. Ooooo yeah, my 2nd target local uni.
Oh, by tomorrow i meant Tue. Ha ha. Probably will go to Bishan stadium to play table tennis with dad. Haiz, i need friends... i guess that's why i'm acting the way i'm acting right now. Desperate and pathetic. I would grow out of this an another layer of mask would form on my face. I need it to face the world, to face the world, to face my world.
I hope. That things would change. And i might find my happiness again somewhere, somehow, somewhat, someone...
Signing out
23 February 2009
I need to go do my deferment again... Already got the necessary documents. Probably will be going to CMPB mindef this coming Monday as will be away from Tue-Sunday to Malaysia. Ooooo boring.
Dear blog
As i've seen other people blogs. I'm kinda envious of them. Ha ha, Nick probably know what i'm talking about. Well, i'm also envious of him now... Whatever, I guess the Love Guru is meant to remain single right?
Sometimes, i feel that someone owes me so so so much... but then again i don't have any bargaining power. This person was also the first person to tell me to just enjoy the other presence and their good points. Rather than them as a responsibility or a burden.
Nah, this person owes me nothing...
Oh well. Life "back to usual" *reseted back 5 months before* Exams aren't doing too well. Mugged, or over-mugged, yesterday. Slept at 2 plus, woke up at 0830 to continue mugging.
As i've seen other people blogs. I'm kinda envious of them. Ha ha, Nick probably know what i'm talking about. Well, i'm also envious of him now... Whatever, I guess the Love Guru is meant to remain single right?
Sometimes, i feel that someone owes me so so so much... but then again i don't have any bargaining power. This person was also the first person to tell me to just enjoy the other presence and their good points. Rather than them as a responsibility or a burden.
Nah, this person owes me nothing...
Oh well. Life "back to usual" *reseted back 5 months before* Exams aren't doing too well. Mugged, or over-mugged, yesterday. Slept at 2 plus, woke up at 0830 to continue mugging.
You are beautiful, no matter what they say.
Words can't bring you down...
Words can't bring you down...
Signing out
Dear blog
This is to remind me. Never to become as obese as that (notice i never use fat cause fat is not an adjective, it's a noun). Ha ha, but i heard obese people have smooth skin yeah? Or, whatever = ="
Hmmm, today was tiresome. Not only cause of work but because of an sms i received. It was awkward, yet i was kinda waiting for it. I guess i'm waiting for someone to fall in my arms where i can grab hold and you just look me in the eyes, getting lost in its sparkles... w00ts fairy tales again >_>
SMACK BACK TO REALITY! OOPS THERE GOES GRAVITY....
Okay. I got to know some nice friends online. Really good friends yeah, that's over the last 3 and a half years. Woah, how time flies! Events come and go, how much have we grown? (we as in figurative speaking)...
EH WAIT, wth am i doing? I should be studying for Bioinformatics!!! OMG OMG OMG... Nothing seems to be getting in!!! Ahhhhhh *plays music* Somebody Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaavvvvveeee Me!!!!
Signing out
This is to remind me. Never to become as obese as that (notice i never use fat cause fat is not an adjective, it's a noun). Ha ha, but i heard obese people have smooth skin yeah? Or, whatever = ="Hmmm, today was tiresome. Not only cause of work but because of an sms i received. It was awkward, yet i was kinda waiting for it. I guess i'm waiting for someone to fall in my arms where i can grab hold and you just look me in the eyes, getting lost in its sparkles... w00ts fairy tales again >_>
SMACK BACK TO REALITY! OOPS THERE GOES GRAVITY....
Okay. I got to know some nice friends online. Really good friends yeah, that's over the last 3 and a half years. Woah, how time flies! Events come and go, how much have we grown? (we as in figurative speaking)...
EH WAIT, wth am i doing? I should be studying for Bioinformatics!!! OMG OMG OMG... Nothing seems to be getting in!!! Ahhhhhh *plays music* Somebody Saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaavvvvveeee Me!!!!
Signing out
21 February 2009
Dear blog
Yup however Good or Bad a situation, it'll change ~
Take home message...
Wow.
Yup wow. Today can be summed up as that. Went to church this afternoon for YES service preparation. And i God Dam =X Oops, i mean and i got damp by the rain. Ran from MRT station to the church. Drench with perspiration and rainwater. Ha ha.
Joke of the day...
Me: Hey do you know who's Abby (person in charge)?
Mark: Hmmm i'm not too sure also leh.
I go off to throw some stuffs and comes back.
Me: Hey have you found out who's abby? Is it a guy's or gal's name?
Mark: *stares in amazement*
Mark: *points to a bubbly gal*
Me: O_O||| Oops...
So I guess YES was a success. During the pre-service party, me and Mark was handling donuts. Hee hee, i think the oreo donut was the best =) Oh the people helping out were called/labelled as Befrienders! Yeah, and there were many eye candy... oops, can i say it in blog? Ha ha, think leave it as that =X
So i've befriended my cell mate's Baker friends. And Chong Hao's online gal friend. Hmmm, not bad! And i've signed up for iCamp happening on 16-19 March. The camp was targeted for the secondary school segment via the "For All Secondary School" printed on the brochre. HAHA. But i really need to be involved in a community, and not the wrong one... hee hee. *wink wink* Eh, my eye got problems...
Hmmm, alrights. Now program is to study for Bioinformatics. Jia you for the exam-peoples!!!
Eh eh eh, just had a thought. Sometimes, someone's aspect can be seen in different people. Let's say 3 people. Where one person together with this person would display joy, another would display the thinking, while the last would display the social life. Ha ha, just some examples. Probably it means, depending on who we hang out with, we tend to "cater" for this person and put on a slightly different attitudes, character and even values... soooooo becareful on who you hang out with kk?
Signing out
Yup however Good or Bad a situation, it'll change ~Take home message...
Wow.
Yup wow. Today can be summed up as that. Went to church this afternoon for YES service preparation. And i God Dam =X Oops, i mean and i got damp by the rain. Ran from MRT station to the church. Drench with perspiration and rainwater. Ha ha.
Joke of the day...
Me: Hey do you know who's Abby (person in charge)?
Mark: Hmmm i'm not too sure also leh.
I go off to throw some stuffs and comes back.
Me: Hey have you found out who's abby? Is it a guy's or gal's name?
Mark: *stares in amazement*
Mark: *points to a bubbly gal*
Me: O_O||| Oops...
So I guess YES was a success. During the pre-service party, me and Mark was handling donuts. Hee hee, i think the oreo donut was the best =) Oh the people helping out were called/labelled as Befrienders! Yeah, and there were many eye candy... oops, can i say it in blog? Ha ha, think leave it as that =X
So i've befriended my cell mate's Baker friends. And Chong Hao's online gal friend. Hmmm, not bad! And i've signed up for iCamp happening on 16-19 March. The camp was targeted for the secondary school segment via the "For All Secondary School" printed on the brochre. HAHA. But i really need to be involved in a community, and not the wrong one... hee hee. *wink wink* Eh, my eye got problems...
Hmmm, alrights. Now program is to study for Bioinformatics. Jia you for the exam-peoples!!!
Eh eh eh, just had a thought. Sometimes, someone's aspect can be seen in different people. Let's say 3 people. Where one person together with this person would display joy, another would display the thinking, while the last would display the social life. Ha ha, just some examples. Probably it means, depending on who we hang out with, we tend to "cater" for this person and put on a slightly different attitudes, character and even values... soooooo becareful on who you hang out with kk?
Signing out
20 February 2009
Dear blog
I feel like i've wasted an entire day at home. I was suppose to meet a friend at Prata House at 2145. But apparently, i feel rather weak and lazy. Ha ha. So i was stuck at home the whole day, practicing songs bah...
Yeah, practicing I believe, 花信, and trying my best with Gotto Go My Own Way. Yeah that last one from HSM2. Lolx... i find some words really speaking thru. Hee hee.
Tomorrow would be helping out in my church as a befriender as it's YES (Youth Evangelistic Serivce). And would be reporting at 1400. Oh man, wished the Circle line was up and running. That would cut my journey to Queenstown like by half >_>
~Wishing all those with papers still going on (like me) a pleasant and peaceful weekend for next week's paper!~
I LOVE YOU!!!
(random)
Signing out
I feel like i've wasted an entire day at home. I was suppose to meet a friend at Prata House at 2145. But apparently, i feel rather weak and lazy. Ha ha. So i was stuck at home the whole day, practicing songs bah...
Yeah, practicing I believe, 花信, and trying my best with Gotto Go My Own Way. Yeah that last one from HSM2. Lolx... i find some words really speaking thru. Hee hee.
Tomorrow would be helping out in my church as a befriender as it's YES (Youth Evangelistic Serivce). And would be reporting at 1400. Oh man, wished the Circle line was up and running. That would cut my journey to Queenstown like by half >_>
~Wishing all those with papers still going on (like me) a pleasant and peaceful weekend for next week's paper!~
I LOVE YOU!!!
(random)
Signing out
19 February 2009
Dear blog
I just remembered my friend's example. In life there's alot of should be's... or is it? I'm kinda tired of hearing this should be done like this, this should be done like that. Everyone is special and unique, and especially in relationships. I wont' place my foot down and set the "should-be" standards.
This world has never been fair from the start. People look out for themselves only; the survival of the fittest so to speak. I'm tired of fighting. I wanna rest in the arms of an angel, where i can find peace. I've never tried lying in the arms of someone else. I guess, since i'm the guy, i should be the one letting people do that and tolerate people eh?
Feelings. I don't know to follow or to ignore. I'm having a thousand and one thoughts right now. I do miss times, but i don't want it back, i just want it cherished.
I just remembered my friend's example. In life there's alot of should be's... or is it? I'm kinda tired of hearing this should be done like this, this should be done like that. Everyone is special and unique, and especially in relationships. I wont' place my foot down and set the "should-be" standards.
This world has never been fair from the start. People look out for themselves only; the survival of the fittest so to speak. I'm tired of fighting. I wanna rest in the arms of an angel, where i can find peace. I've never tried lying in the arms of someone else. I guess, since i'm the guy, i should be the one letting people do that and tolerate people eh?
Feelings. I don't know to follow or to ignore. I'm having a thousand and one thoughts right now. I do miss times, but i don't want it back, i just want it cherished.
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you. It's one in a million of having this feeling the way we did...
Signing out
Dear blog
Everyday's special. Everybody's special. Even you.
Hey. I feel like 24 hour has passed counting by the seconds man. Argh, today paper was overly prepared, yet i overlooked certain topics which might cause me 12% of the paper = =" Since genetics has always been my forte, i have utmost confidence in my abilities as a biologist. Ha ha. Sure pass!!!
Now then. To the serious stuffs. I haven't had dinner = =" No that's serious as i can't think straight without a full stomach. *someone shouts* then thick crooked lah! Oh what the heck = ="
Something that i've learnt! I've learnt to let go. But i'm afraid that i'm being unconcerning, or over-letting go. Have i? I thought that stuffs happen and i would just "let go"- know the issue but force not to care. 2 people in my life... those that i would call every night, in my past life.
Recently have been accompanying a friend, Benjamin. He's one person really in need of a friend. I've just accopanied him to the docs this afternoon and accompanied him for lunch as well. Seems like he had an overdose of painkillers and panadols. Hmmm dependency on drugs for relief, where have i encounter this before. Depression was probably his thing. He's currently well and resting although the tendency to vomit still persisted from last night. Argh, poor him... Benjamin, i wish you health and happiness... =)
Exams... What will this period of time produce? I hope it's nothing too serious... I need someone to treat me back how i would love someone.
I need to be love sometimes. A bearbear can't offer hugs all the time. He needs to be hugged...
Signing out
Everyday's special. Everybody's special. Even you.Hey. I feel like 24 hour has passed counting by the seconds man. Argh, today paper was overly prepared, yet i overlooked certain topics which might cause me 12% of the paper = =" Since genetics has always been my forte, i have utmost confidence in my abilities as a biologist. Ha ha. Sure pass!!!
Now then. To the serious stuffs. I haven't had dinner = =" No that's serious as i can't think straight without a full stomach. *someone shouts* then thick crooked lah! Oh what the heck = ="
Something that i've learnt! I've learnt to let go. But i'm afraid that i'm being unconcerning, or over-letting go. Have i? I thought that stuffs happen and i would just "let go"- know the issue but force not to care. 2 people in my life... those that i would call every night, in my past life.
Recently have been accompanying a friend, Benjamin. He's one person really in need of a friend. I've just accopanied him to the docs this afternoon and accompanied him for lunch as well. Seems like he had an overdose of painkillers and panadols. Hmmm dependency on drugs for relief, where have i encounter this before. Depression was probably his thing. He's currently well and resting although the tendency to vomit still persisted from last night. Argh, poor him... Benjamin, i wish you health and happiness... =)
Exams... What will this period of time produce? I hope it's nothing too serious... I need someone to treat me back how i would love someone.
I need to be love sometimes. A bearbear can't offer hugs all the time. He needs to be hugged...
Signing out
18 February 2009
Dear blog
Yes, GET UP!!! Ha ha. No matter what, life goes on...
Tomorrow would be the commencement of my papers. First up, Molecular Genetics. One of the more hated subjects in the history of Biotechnology. And here i am, staring at blogger.com don't know what the hell am i thinking = ="
I wished i could burn the notes up and drink it to memorise them. Ha ha, i told Rees also as his paper is on Friday. ARGH, i hate the stress, but i like the % weightage. This paper would constitude 20-30% of the total module marks, different from each modules. Revision has always been my weakness, so has managing time. Together, i'm doomed in my diploma. Fortunately, i'm smart and i do absorb rather efficiently.
Recently, i have the sudden craving for swimming. Come on~ Anyone up to it with me??? Hee hee. Yar! And i need to start thinking about healthy lifestyle = =" Okay, from March onwards, i resolute to lose >2kg per month! He hee...
This afternoon/evening was spent consoling a friend in need from a break-up. I hope everything will go well and you'll be strong! Just as i've been strong. With friends by my side of course =)
Signing out
Yes, GET UP!!! Ha ha. No matter what, life goes on...Tomorrow would be the commencement of my papers. First up, Molecular Genetics. One of the more hated subjects in the history of Biotechnology. And here i am, staring at blogger.com don't know what the hell am i thinking = ="
I wished i could burn the notes up and drink it to memorise them. Ha ha, i told Rees also as his paper is on Friday. ARGH, i hate the stress, but i like the % weightage. This paper would constitude 20-30% of the total module marks, different from each modules. Revision has always been my weakness, so has managing time. Together, i'm doomed in my diploma. Fortunately, i'm smart and i do absorb rather efficiently.
Recently, i have the sudden craving for swimming. Come on~ Anyone up to it with me??? Hee hee. Yar! And i need to start thinking about healthy lifestyle = =" Okay, from March onwards, i resolute to lose >2kg per month! He hee...
This afternoon/evening was spent consoling a friend in need from a break-up. I hope everything will go well and you'll be strong! Just as i've been strong. With friends by my side of course =)
Signing out
17 February 2009
Dear blog
Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Can't stress that enough...
Morning helped parents in stall since i was free. Got $10 allowance...
Met up with Ben to accompany him to ICA building to make new passport, his expired at 2003 = =" Then followed him to Bugis for a meal.
Took a bus to J8 to meet up with Joe for him to pass present to me. Oooo, that's nice! Ha ha.
Going to think less and do more. Chaoz....
Signing out
Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Can't stress that enough...Morning helped parents in stall since i was free. Got $10 allowance...
Met up with Ben to accompany him to ICA building to make new passport, his expired at 2003 = =" Then followed him to Bugis for a meal.
Took a bus to J8 to meet up with Joe for him to pass present to me. Oooo, that's nice! Ha ha.
Going to think less and do more. Chaoz....
Signing out
Dear blog
There's bound to be questions that will never be answered, cause they are the wrong questions to ask. I feel guilty, the guilt of hogging someone so close till they can't have air to breath. Letting go is one of life most important lessons yet i have to re-learn it each junction i meet upon.
And the friends around me are getting fewer. I should find someone new to focus my attention too. Can i have support from what's of left of my really close friends?
Someone who read my blog commented to me i use simple yet strong english words. Well, i blog what i think, so basically i'm a simple yet strong person yeah? Ha ha. Being strong is not good, it'll give away your weakness. I want to be totally vulnerable to someone close, where i can show all my weakness and flaws yet be accepted more than as a friend.
Lolx! Someone else offered to buy me a box of panadol! Oooo how sweet. Yeah, he just saw my msn nick and asked about me. While the person(s) i intend to impress upon didn't notice it. Ha ha. If someone really do buy a box of panadol, i'd treasure it as if it's a priceless diamond. Priceless edible diamond = ="
***** Yeah! I own at DoTA. Ha ha. It's really my source of enjoyment now *****
Eyes are really sore. Can i can some eye drop tear shed from a loved one? I feel like i'm balencing on a plank and i'm forced to lean towards the side where all my friends want me to think and feel while the other end is what i would justify what i could feel- Jealousy, hatred, regret and disappointment. Or i could go with- acceptance, independence, and freedom. Hey it's 4 vs 3, maybe i shold add 1 more- TRUST.
Okay, the more i think of it, the worst it gets. I'm gonna NOT THINK ABOUT IT ANYMORE. If there's any new things, just tell me, i'm willingly to accept truths.
I wonder what Joe is going to give me tomorrow. Hope it's something nice. ARGH, i need to help my parents tomorrow morning. So much for sleeping. Ahhhh need to rest le. Good nights!
Signing out
There's bound to be questions that will never be answered, cause they are the wrong questions to ask. I feel guilty, the guilt of hogging someone so close till they can't have air to breath. Letting go is one of life most important lessons yet i have to re-learn it each junction i meet upon.
And the friends around me are getting fewer. I should find someone new to focus my attention too. Can i have support from what's of left of my really close friends?
Someone who read my blog commented to me i use simple yet strong english words. Well, i blog what i think, so basically i'm a simple yet strong person yeah? Ha ha. Being strong is not good, it'll give away your weakness. I want to be totally vulnerable to someone close, where i can show all my weakness and flaws yet be accepted more than as a friend.
Lolx! Someone else offered to buy me a box of panadol! Oooo how sweet. Yeah, he just saw my msn nick and asked about me. While the person(s) i intend to impress upon didn't notice it. Ha ha. If someone really do buy a box of panadol, i'd treasure it as if it's a priceless diamond. Priceless edible diamond = ="
***** Yeah! I own at DoTA. Ha ha. It's really my source of enjoyment now *****
Eyes are really sore. Can i can some eye drop tear shed from a loved one? I feel like i'm balencing on a plank and i'm forced to lean towards the side where all my friends want me to think and feel while the other end is what i would justify what i could feel- Jealousy, hatred, regret and disappointment. Or i could go with- acceptance, independence, and freedom. Hey it's 4 vs 3, maybe i shold add 1 more- TRUST.
Okay, the more i think of it, the worst it gets. I'm gonna NOT THINK ABOUT IT ANYMORE. If there's any new things, just tell me, i'm willingly to accept truths.
I wonder what Joe is going to give me tomorrow. Hope it's something nice. ARGH, i need to help my parents tomorrow morning. So much for sleeping. Ahhhh need to rest le. Good nights!
Signing out
16 February 2009
Dear blog
Yes, nuff said. Do what you need to do to get your happiness!
Thanks for the talk!
To 瑞:
I know what to do. I always thought, i'll be the "temporary boyfriend" till u find another one. Lolx! I'm somewhat happy. Even though you treat me like anyone else, you're always my special friend (dog tag!). Don't forget that you have me.
I'm relieved. Finally the verdict has been sentenced. Even though it's life-long jail imprisonment, it beats waiting scared out of my pants at home, wondering what will happen next.
That valentine card i gave you. It still stands true kies? I want us to be closer friends still, cause it's hard to find someone like you again (okay, it's impossible, LMAO).
With that out of my mind. I can put my 100% into my modules. I just passed Molecular Genetics and Bioinformatics for sure =) Cause 70% of the marks have been made known.
Lolx. Although there's still traces of jealousy kindering within me. I just want to assure you, time would make everything go. You're still my no.1!!! Till i have someone else lah. Ha ha xD
Hee hee. To Nick, woah. Ha ha. Let's be good friends kk? Don't want to have cat fight here...
Signing out
Yes, nuff said. Do what you need to do to get your happiness!Thanks for the talk!
To 瑞:
I know what to do. I always thought, i'll be the "temporary boyfriend" till u find another one. Lolx! I'm somewhat happy. Even though you treat me like anyone else, you're always my special friend (dog tag!). Don't forget that you have me.
I'm relieved. Finally the verdict has been sentenced. Even though it's life-long jail imprisonment, it beats waiting scared out of my pants at home, wondering what will happen next.
That valentine card i gave you. It still stands true kies? I want us to be closer friends still, cause it's hard to find someone like you again (okay, it's impossible, LMAO).
With that out of my mind. I can put my 100% into my modules. I just passed Molecular Genetics and Bioinformatics for sure =) Cause 70% of the marks have been made known.
Lolx. Although there's still traces of jealousy kindering within me. I just want to assure you, time would make everything go. You're still my no.1!!! Till i have someone else lah. Ha ha xD
Hee hee. To Nick, woah. Ha ha. Let's be good friends kk? Don't want to have cat fight here...
Signing out
Dear blog
Come on Paul. You're much better than this... You know what you should do.
But human minds are so hard to comprehend?
Then, do what you must. We were never of the Earth anyways. Shouldn't get too attached to it. Cause you know one day you need to leave it all.
Alrights. I understand, but that 8 years i'm left to live with, i don't know how many times or how happy i can be.
Face it, you don't know anything about humans or any of their culture. You're an outcast.
Yes, an outcast.
An outcast it is...
I always wondered. Why was i the only one left out when school lecturers asked for groups to be formed. Why was i the only one left behind in my secondary school friends' birthday party. Why was i the only one left out from friends that i trust with my life with. Why doesn't anyone else think like me?
Why am i me? Do i like torture? Do i like to be tortured?
No. I still have this gentle burning flame within me. This just another phase of my life. I need someone who i can depend on don't say no Someone to lean don't move away Someone whom i can turn to don't avoid me Someone who smiles at me don't give a frown Someone that would lick an ice-cream cone together with me don't hold back.
Someone that i had, i thought.
Dad was right. Jealousy starts to kick in. I know why. But i can't stop it. I'll just have to bear with it myself, while you just ignore and think you know what's best.
Signing out
Come on Paul. You're much better than this... You know what you should do.
But human minds are so hard to comprehend?
Then, do what you must. We were never of the Earth anyways. Shouldn't get too attached to it. Cause you know one day you need to leave it all.
Alrights. I understand, but that 8 years i'm left to live with, i don't know how many times or how happy i can be.
Face it, you don't know anything about humans or any of their culture. You're an outcast.
Yes, an outcast.
An outcast it is...
I always wondered. Why was i the only one left out when school lecturers asked for groups to be formed. Why was i the only one left behind in my secondary school friends' birthday party. Why was i the only one left out from friends that i trust with my life with. Why doesn't anyone else think like me?
Why am i me? Do i like torture? Do i like to be tortured?
No. I still have this gentle burning flame within me. This just another phase of my life. I need someone who i can depend on don't say no Someone to lean don't move away Someone whom i can turn to don't avoid me Someone who smiles at me don't give a frown Someone that would lick an ice-cream cone together with me don't hold back.
Someone that i had, i thought.
Dad was right. Jealousy starts to kick in. I know why. But i can't stop it. I'll just have to bear with it myself, while you just ignore and think you know what's best.
Signing out
Dear blog....
There was something here last night. I said it cause i still love you.
Then i saved it as draft instead. I drafted it cause i don't want to hurt you.
I'll let facts speak by itself. Sooner or later you'll find out, or even better, find me again. Till then, i'll still think chocolates are better than some handphone strap.
Signing out with a tear
There was something here last night. I said it cause i still love you.
Then i saved it as draft instead. I drafted it cause i don't want to hurt you.
I'll let facts speak by itself. Sooner or later you'll find out, or even better, find me again. Till then, i'll still think chocolates are better than some handphone strap.
Signing out with a tear
15 February 2009
Dear blog
Aye! This is my 302th post le! Ha ha, forgot to mentioned that 2 post earlier that i've reached my 300 target =X Ha ha, anyways yay me :)
Sundays... i hate it. Lazying around and slacking. Staring at my laptop screen, yawning... *hahhhhemmms* and thinking of how to complete my reports = ="
Exams are this coming thurs, next monday and ends at the following thurs. Oh well, stress? Nah, i'm immuned to it. Hey, anybody out for a movie???
Signing out
Aye! This is my 302th post le! Ha ha, forgot to mentioned that 2 post earlier that i've reached my 300 target =X Ha ha, anyways yay me :)
Sundays... i hate it. Lazying around and slacking. Staring at my laptop screen, yawning... *hahhhhemmms* and thinking of how to complete my reports = ="
Exams are this coming thurs, next monday and ends at the following thurs. Oh well, stress? Nah, i'm immuned to it. Hey, anybody out for a movie???
Signing out
Dear Shin
I really wonder what happened today? Hmmm, what had got you into that thinking? Lolx. To a certain extent i feel so ditched? Ha ha. I don't want you to fade to nothing, cause you were there when i needed you! You're like my bro okay? The one that i couldn't have talking over the phone more than 10min about problems.
I'm really a bad mind changer. So here i am in this space. Hoping you'll find your true purpose in life? Take care yeah?
Valentine's day. I felt i had all the people close to me, yet they are not there at all at the same time! What chaos? What havoc! Is there, in my heart?
Signing out
I really wonder what happened today? Hmmm, what had got you into that thinking? Lolx. To a certain extent i feel so ditched? Ha ha. I don't want you to fade to nothing, cause you were there when i needed you! You're like my bro okay? The one that i couldn't have talking over the phone more than 10min about problems.
I'm really a bad mind changer. So here i am in this space. Hoping you'll find your true purpose in life? Take care yeah?
Valentine's day. I felt i had all the people close to me, yet they are not there at all at the same time! What chaos? What havoc! Is there, in my heart?
Signing out
14 February 2009
Dear blog
Yup. When you finally master this. All is nothing, and nothing is all =)
Valentine's day morning was tiring but fun! Had it out with my "valentine", Ha ha XD
Spent the night with Ben at esplanade. Lolx, single guys.... haha. They had a nice outdoor stage performance though.
Shalln't blog much, love is in the air. *Ahhhchew!*
Signing out
Yup. When you finally master this. All is nothing, and nothing is all =)Valentine's day morning was tiring but fun! Had it out with my "valentine", Ha ha XD
Spent the night with Ben at esplanade. Lolx, single guys.... haha. They had a nice outdoor stage performance though.
Shalln't blog much, love is in the air. *Ahhhchew!*
Signing out
Dear blog
Yeah we should all smile and laugh more!
>_>
Tomorrow's valentine and i'm pretty nervous about it. Shalln't explain more about it. I'll leave everything to nature's course. Ha ha. Hmmm and quite a few things to blog down as well.
1st was 小 ben came to visit NYP cause of his school stuffs. Ha ha. We went out after both of us finish our matters in school. Walked to AMK hub to have our lunch/dinner. He had braces on this monday only, so poor thing! I had the pleasure of seeing him struggle with his food, muahaha! Afterwards we got a drink from sweet talk, and even the common pearls are an obstacle for him. Oh well, too bad xD Then continue our walk to J8 where didn't do much as it was getting late. Then parted at the bus interchange. It has been like one year since i last saw him, and i still remember him saying that he'll treat us (our PLU click, haha) when he return back from his 12months make-over or something like that.
And then today! Valentine's day eve! I thought it'll suck, but apparently sucking wasn't allowed. Ha ha. Oops. Anyways, went over to SP to check out Harry. No check out Harry's production, which is his graded elective. I reached there early (notice the bold), and shin came searching for me on time around 1pm. Before Harry was another production called "Work-in-progress" and the story was somewhat appeal to my emotions. Those sympathetic, heart-aching emotions. Then was Harry's play, which was about a twist in Cinderalla. It was more audience focused and "understandable" compared to the cheem play before. But all in all, both of the play done was awesome. I and shin truly enjoyed and feel that the sweat and pain finding that T642 was worth the while.
Oh then... after the production went out with Shin. Ha ha, yeah, Rees got into Pes D xD Kinda expected that seeing that he's so mysterious and all. He'll need another check-up. Hmmm i wonder for mine though? Drats, i need to exercise more! As i was saying, went out with Shin. Along woodlands cruising around for his professional-look 0 degree glasses. Wasn't very fruitful so he decided to go home. Had some light snacks there and i stalked him home for awhile. Ha ha. Saw his younger bro as well, but not as cute as my lil bro =P Oh and i kinda got a V-day eve gift from him, so sweet right?
Want to know more about that gift? Well, you can say i was really needing that. And he was oh so willingly to give it to me. I was suprised at first! And i even pushed back. But he kept insisting! Being a manly man myself, i tried to refused with pride. In the end, i had to give in to my desires... ... ... and let him treat me macflurry =P
Hee heex. Tomorrow's gonna be fun i hope.
Wishing all my beloved ones a happy valentine's day! No matter where you are, what you do and how you feel, there's bond to be somebody that is looking at your blog/profile/email and wondering what you're doing...
Signing out
Yeah we should all smile and laugh more!>_>
Tomorrow's valentine and i'm pretty nervous about it. Shalln't explain more about it. I'll leave everything to nature's course. Ha ha. Hmmm and quite a few things to blog down as well.
1st was 小 ben came to visit NYP cause of his school stuffs. Ha ha. We went out after both of us finish our matters in school. Walked to AMK hub to have our lunch/dinner. He had braces on this monday only, so poor thing! I had the pleasure of seeing him struggle with his food, muahaha! Afterwards we got a drink from sweet talk, and even the common pearls are an obstacle for him. Oh well, too bad xD Then continue our walk to J8 where didn't do much as it was getting late. Then parted at the bus interchange. It has been like one year since i last saw him, and i still remember him saying that he'll treat us (our PLU click, haha) when he return back from his 12months make-over or something like that.
And then today! Valentine's day eve! I thought it'll suck, but apparently sucking wasn't allowed. Ha ha. Oops. Anyways, went over to SP to check out Harry. No check out Harry's production, which is his graded elective. I reached there early (notice the bold), and shin came searching for me on time around 1pm. Before Harry was another production called "Work-in-progress" and the story was somewhat appeal to my emotions. Those sympathetic, heart-aching emotions. Then was Harry's play, which was about a twist in Cinderalla. It was more audience focused and "understandable" compared to the cheem play before. But all in all, both of the play done was awesome. I and shin truly enjoyed and feel that the sweat and pain finding that T642 was worth the while.
Oh then... after the production went out with Shin. Ha ha, yeah, Rees got into Pes D xD Kinda expected that seeing that he's so mysterious and all. He'll need another check-up. Hmmm i wonder for mine though? Drats, i need to exercise more! As i was saying, went out with Shin. Along woodlands cruising around for his professional-look 0 degree glasses. Wasn't very fruitful so he decided to go home. Had some light snacks there and i stalked him home for awhile. Ha ha. Saw his younger bro as well, but not as cute as my lil bro =P Oh and i kinda got a V-day eve gift from him, so sweet right?
Want to know more about that gift? Well, you can say i was really needing that. And he was oh so willingly to give it to me. I was suprised at first! And i even pushed back. But he kept insisting! Being a manly man myself, i tried to refused with pride. In the end, i had to give in to my desires... ... ... and let him treat me macflurry =P
Hee heex. Tomorrow's gonna be fun i hope.
Wishing all my beloved ones a happy valentine's day! No matter where you are, what you do and how you feel, there's bond to be somebody that is looking at your blog/profile/email and wondering what you're doing...
Signing out
11 February 2009
Dear blog
Today was indeed dead boring...
But caught this show with Donovan. Ha ha. He's nice, treating me dinner at a sushi restaurant and the movie as well. Ha ha. Too bad he's attached =X Lol. Oh Underworld: Rise Of Lycans, it has a nice story. But i feel that the scene was too brief for each part of the plot. Anyways the ending is a so-so happy one, and the last part was ?_?
Had a dream last night again! OMG, dream season sia me... I think Shin was right, i'm having PMS. I dreamt about kissing someone!!! And that person i kissed before some more. So the feeling was there somehow, i think i was kissing my pillow or something man. Euw gross! Whatever... don't think it's ever possible in real life again anyways.... =X
Take care of your health ya? Drink more water and rest more! Hugs, i still worry alot for you but i can't show it much.
Signing out
Today was indeed dead boring...
But caught this show with Donovan. Ha ha. He's nice, treating me dinner at a sushi restaurant and the movie as well. Ha ha. Too bad he's attached =X Lol. Oh Underworld: Rise Of Lycans, it has a nice story. But i feel that the scene was too brief for each part of the plot. Anyways the ending is a so-so happy one, and the last part was ?_?Had a dream last night again! OMG, dream season sia me... I think Shin was right, i'm having PMS. I dreamt about kissing someone!!! And that person i kissed before some more. So the feeling was there somehow, i think i was kissing my pillow or something man. Euw gross! Whatever... don't think it's ever possible in real life again anyways.... =X
Take care of your health ya? Drink more water and rest more! Hugs, i still worry alot for you but i can't show it much.
Signing out
H-alone-ween
Dear blog
This year, as last year (same with all the previous years), had a bored dead weekend. It's probably once somebody has tasted the forbidden fruit, that their eyes would awaken and start being kiasu-like. I wonder where was that single person life that i'd enjoyed during my childhood? With nobody to follow or lead, nobody to complain or comment, nobody to praise or put me down, nobody to smile or frown, nobody to accompany or leave out and nobody to love or hate. Hmmm feels like a song is coming out right? ... i want nobody, nobody but you, i want gnaw body, gnaw body butt chew xD
Let's see here. Currently in school and i'm wearing (what i think) a very obscenely coloured jeans. Feels so feminine lor! Ha ha, should go hunt me if you dunno :)
Till then, i'll be playing browser games when i'm free... ikariam, lordsgame and tribalwars xD
Peace out yo'all
Signing out
This year, as last year (same with all the previous years), had a bored dead weekend. It's probably once somebody has tasted the forbidden fruit, that their eyes would awaken and start being kiasu-like. I wonder where was that single person life that i'd enjoyed during my childhood? With nobody to follow or lead, nobody to complain or comment, nobody to praise or put me down, nobody to smile or frown, nobody to accompany or leave out and nobody to love or hate. Hmmm feels like a song is coming out right? ... i want nobody, nobody but you, i want gnaw body, gnaw body butt chew xD
Let's see here. Currently in school and i'm wearing (what i think) a very obscenely coloured jeans. Feels so feminine lor! Ha ha, should go hunt me if you dunno :)
Till then, i'll be playing browser games when i'm free... ikariam, lordsgame and tribalwars xD
Peace out yo'all
Signing out
10 February 2009
Dear blog
Oh? Other people thoughts are their own...
~
TVM's quote: I know what i've given you, but i do not know what you've received from me.
It makes total sense to me now after reading this quote. What i thought you would get it from me is being misunderstood. Oh wellz... =X
Had a serious nightmare last night! Oh boyz, i keep having nightmares though. Argh, anyone can tell me what they means? I dreamt of my close friends. Pretty scary if meeting them seems so intimidating. Ha ha personal opinion of course =)
Oh Rees still hasn't got his internet back. Har, tapping on others... Careful not to get caught! Lack of internet doesn't mean you are separated from the main world. Ha ha. Anyways exams are round the corner, and i'm having PMS. Oh bother... That's why this entry is so PMS-ive.
I'm hoping that this saturay would be a non-regretful one! Oh happy Thaipusam to all my Hindu friends =)
RAWRz... staring at my notes. Nothing going in at all. I need my love language fulfilled... haha.
Signing out
Oh? Other people thoughts are their own...~
TVM's quote: I know what i've given you, but i do not know what you've received from me.
It makes total sense to me now after reading this quote. What i thought you would get it from me is being misunderstood. Oh wellz... =X
Had a serious nightmare last night! Oh boyz, i keep having nightmares though. Argh, anyone can tell me what they means? I dreamt of my close friends. Pretty scary if meeting them seems so intimidating. Ha ha personal opinion of course =)
Oh Rees still hasn't got his internet back. Har, tapping on others... Careful not to get caught! Lack of internet doesn't mean you are separated from the main world. Ha ha. Anyways exams are round the corner, and i'm having PMS. Oh bother... That's why this entry is so PMS-ive.
I'm hoping that this saturay would be a non-regretful one! Oh happy Thaipusam to all my Hindu friends =)
RAWRz... staring at my notes. Nothing going in at all. I need my love language fulfilled... haha.
Signing out
09 February 2009
Dear blog
I am crying right now...
But don't daydream too much.
I guess i shouldn't too. Dreaming too much has caused me to set this target which is unattainable, at the same time caused me to hypothesize what another is thinking (which is obviously wrong).
Let me share something first. I believe that everyone has a super power or character if you will. I very well know my family does. My dad, he has the power of prophecy- he can "predict" someone's life outcome and see thru lies (that's irritating). My mother, she has the power character of having a forgiving heart- she could come home from a bad day at work yet cool off after dinner, and she cooks it. My sis, she has the hardworking and strong spirit- whatever goals aspired into her, she tries to achieve yet at the same time would defend against any verbal abuse likewise. My lil bro, he has the active character- simple put it, he's bold. And finally me, i have the thinking soul- self-explanatory, both good and bad, but more bad.
And together, we're a super family! Ha ha...
Back to emo~
I am crying right now...
You were right. Someone told me. I'm always jealous and jump into conclusion hastely, especially if i get "2nd degree information", which is passed by someone to me or blogged by someone. I would put the pieces of information together and read it whichever possible way that might be bad.
Oh dammit! I want to stare at your eyes right now, hold both of your nimble hands with mine, and gently kiss your forehead to say i'm sorry. Dreadfully sorry.
I finally knew you were happy that day. And it wasn't your signals, it was me. I was too determined to win you back, and i asked my besties to support me as well. It's so wrong and selfish of me. Do you know, you missing for a few days, the whole world inside of me has inverted inside out?
One thing we agree on...
In human nature. We can always look back, that's why our neck is flexible. BUT, it's not a posture to remain (facing backwards). We should just take what we need from the past and start to walk forward again.
I've always wondered why i have two hands since young (cause my mum only has one). Then I realise it was to hold my heart and yours.
I hope you can sms me again. I'm SORRY. My pillows are deafed from my screams, and bed bruised from my punches. Can you sms me, if you've forgiven me and want to continue us as friends? Cause i found out after that day. I no longer have that feeling i used to have as well, but at the same time, you're the best friend that i've got!
Signing out
I am crying right now...
But don't daydream too much.I guess i shouldn't too. Dreaming too much has caused me to set this target which is unattainable, at the same time caused me to hypothesize what another is thinking (which is obviously wrong).
Let me share something first. I believe that everyone has a super power or character if you will. I very well know my family does. My dad, he has the power of prophecy- he can "predict" someone's life outcome and see thru lies (that's irritating). My mother, she has the power character of having a forgiving heart- she could come home from a bad day at work yet cool off after dinner, and she cooks it. My sis, she has the hardworking and strong spirit- whatever goals aspired into her, she tries to achieve yet at the same time would defend against any verbal abuse likewise. My lil bro, he has the active character- simple put it, he's bold. And finally me, i have the thinking soul- self-explanatory, both good and bad, but more bad.
And together, we're a super family! Ha ha...
Back to emo~
I am crying right now...
You were right. Someone told me. I'm always jealous and jump into conclusion hastely, especially if i get "2nd degree information", which is passed by someone to me or blogged by someone. I would put the pieces of information together and read it whichever possible way that might be bad.
Oh dammit! I want to stare at your eyes right now, hold both of your nimble hands with mine, and gently kiss your forehead to say i'm sorry. Dreadfully sorry.
I finally knew you were happy that day. And it wasn't your signals, it was me. I was too determined to win you back, and i asked my besties to support me as well. It's so wrong and selfish of me. Do you know, you missing for a few days, the whole world inside of me has inverted inside out?
One thing we agree on...
In human nature. We can always look back, that's why our neck is flexible. BUT, it's not a posture to remain (facing backwards). We should just take what we need from the past and start to walk forward again.
I've always wondered why i have two hands since young (cause my mum only has one). Then I realise it was to hold my heart and yours.
I hope you can sms me again. I'm SORRY. My pillows are deafed from my screams, and bed bruised from my punches. Can you sms me, if you've forgiven me and want to continue us as friends? Cause i found out after that day. I no longer have that feeling i used to have as well, but at the same time, you're the best friend that i've got!
Signing out
07 February 2009
Dear blog
O_O||| Some how i'll try. No matter what. I'll try.
&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&
Had a super short morning, around 60mins? Woke up to see my mother preparing food for my dad's meeting. Hmmm what's on that menu? Satay prawn (prawn on a stick) and rice. Wow yeah. So prepared myself, wore that new year clothes and went to meet Joe at J8. Alrights la, i wasn't late or anything, just met at wrong place. Lolx. Took 54 and had fun at that place. I ordered a free tiramisu cafe latte! It was heavenly =) Then 145 to church soon after it finished and pang seh Joe =P Hee hee.
Then church as usual i guess...
I got worried for S at that time, but was kinda busy at that time cause in the middle of service. I'm truly concerned kays...
I realised after last night. My heart died. Something which i really didn't want to happen at all cost though. I'm now alright, I want to do the right thing. But i know once i see you happy, i'll be sad again, cause i know you've forgotten me. Oh well, i can't avoid this forever.
Ha ha avoiding problems? Feels nostalogic... I tried following your habbits. Oh the Subway cookie tastes chew-ier than usual...
Signing out
O_O||| Some how i'll try. No matter what. I'll try.&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&
Had a super short morning, around 60mins? Woke up to see my mother preparing food for my dad's meeting. Hmmm what's on that menu? Satay prawn (prawn on a stick) and rice. Wow yeah. So prepared myself, wore that new year clothes and went to meet Joe at J8. Alrights la, i wasn't late or anything, just met at wrong place. Lolx. Took 54 and had fun at that place. I ordered a free tiramisu cafe latte! It was heavenly =) Then 145 to church soon after it finished and pang seh Joe =P Hee hee.
Then church as usual i guess...
I got worried for S at that time, but was kinda busy at that time cause in the middle of service. I'm truly concerned kays...
I realised after last night. My heart died. Something which i really didn't want to happen at all cost though. I'm now alright, I want to do the right thing. But i know once i see you happy, i'll be sad again, cause i know you've forgotten me. Oh well, i can't avoid this forever.
Ha ha avoiding problems? Feels nostalogic... I tried following your habbits. Oh the Subway cookie tastes chew-ier than usual...
Signing out
Dear blog
Call your family often, friends normally, best friends every time and boyfriend/girlfriend NOW.
~
Had bioinformatics review today for the upcoming test. I have a gut feeling that i would fail though. Haiz.... too much stress to the brain, and i don't mean school work (itself) only. Oh and i met up with my long long long time BF, miao. Ha ha. It's best friends if you were wondering. Had some relieving time at the arcade at AMK jubliee. And i beat you in tennis miao!!! Hi-fi for me =) Oh and Zone-X games are really expensive = ="
Hmmm what else? Something random... Last night i dreamt about clinical trials stuffs for male only. Yeah creepy. And it was a test to err cut off the penis and to observe the long term effects on those guys. Euw of course. Fortunately (or not), i was the first test patient and a male doc just slice it with his bare hands. My penis just disappeared and everything felt fine afterwards. Okay it just sounds really gross... Ha ha. I woke up after kana "castrated". No comments. Ha ha.
Oh! Sheryl finally uploaded her Sinfonia pics. And i'm inside! Look at my hairstyle and that striking pose! I rock!!! And Sheryl looks abit scary in this pic though (she always have been), ha ha.
Having serious migrain now. Stressed up over work. Don't know what my relationship status and will everyone treat me the same as they did today or yesterday? Questions are hard to answer and... ARGH... migrain really sucks. Wow real time typing. Ha ha. Anyways, i'll be heading over to Sooma Coffee House tomorrow located near Chinatown point in the afternoon for some event. He He, secret can't tell =)
I'm good at woo-ing people. I'm bad at breaking up. I'm worse at facing the person after i broke up. How do i face you or what do i do when i see you online? 7 more days, i wanna give you something. That Christmas bear i gave you, i guess that bear lost his purpose in this world le. You can throw it away if friendship means nothing to you.
I really have nothing now. Do i want sympathy? You've came, touched, dug and squeezed my heart and left it wounded and open. It'll get infected and the flesh would rot. Then someone would need to cut that piece of flesh in order to get me hyped again. You were that someone who did that. I guess someone else would need to do that le....
Signing out
Call your family often, friends normally, best friends every time and boyfriend/girlfriend NOW.~
Had bioinformatics review today for the upcoming test. I have a gut feeling that i would fail though. Haiz.... too much stress to the brain, and i don't mean school work (itself) only. Oh and i met up with my long long long time BF, miao. Ha ha. It's best friends if you were wondering. Had some relieving time at the arcade at AMK jubliee. And i beat you in tennis miao!!! Hi-fi for me =) Oh and Zone-X games are really expensive = ="
Hmmm what else? Something random... Last night i dreamt about clinical trials stuffs for male only. Yeah creepy. And it was a test to err cut off the penis and to observe the long term effects on those guys. Euw of course. Fortunately (or not), i was the first test patient and a male doc just slice it with his bare hands. My penis just disappeared and everything felt fine afterwards. Okay it just sounds really gross... Ha ha. I woke up after kana "castrated". No comments. Ha ha.
Oh! Sheryl finally uploaded her Sinfonia pics. And i'm inside! Look at my hairstyle and that striking pose! I rock!!! And Sheryl looks abit scary in this pic though (she always have been), ha ha.Having serious migrain now. Stressed up over work. Don't know what my relationship status and will everyone treat me the same as they did today or yesterday? Questions are hard to answer and... ARGH... migrain really sucks. Wow real time typing. Ha ha. Anyways, i'll be heading over to Sooma Coffee House tomorrow located near Chinatown point in the afternoon for some event. He He, secret can't tell =)
I'm good at woo-ing people. I'm bad at breaking up. I'm worse at facing the person after i broke up. How do i face you or what do i do when i see you online? 7 more days, i wanna give you something. That Christmas bear i gave you, i guess that bear lost his purpose in this world le. You can throw it away if friendship means nothing to you.
I really have nothing now. Do i want sympathy? You've came, touched, dug and squeezed my heart and left it wounded and open. It'll get infected and the flesh would rot. Then someone would need to cut that piece of flesh in order to get me hyped again. You were that someone who did that. I guess someone else would need to do that le....
Signing out
06 February 2009
05 February 2009
Dear blog
"I am thankful for the time we spent together and your love..."
"Today I accomplished finalizing what you really want in both of your lives..."
~
Oh what a day! These 3 days have been really emo, but at the same time got me mentally prepared for the worst i guess. Thanks to two of my best friends Nick and Shin =) Really couldn't have done it without you guys especially Shin!
Friends is what you need, they don't last forever but the friendship built does! So in the next relationship, make sure you build friendship before any other stuffs kay?
Promise me 1 last thing 瑞, that you'll live a happier life without me. If not i'll regret it. Goodbye for now!
Signing out
"I am thankful for the time we spent together and your love...""Today I accomplished finalizing what you really want in both of your lives..."
~
Oh what a day! These 3 days have been really emo, but at the same time got me mentally prepared for the worst i guess. Thanks to two of my best friends Nick and Shin =) Really couldn't have done it without you guys especially Shin!
Friends is what you need, they don't last forever but the friendship built does! So in the next relationship, make sure you build friendship before any other stuffs kay?
Promise me 1 last thing 瑞, that you'll live a happier life without me. If not i'll regret it. Goodbye for now!
Signing out
04 February 2009
Dear blog
I don't know how will it be tomorrow or the day after?
But i really wanna dedicate that song to you. 我们的爱 (it's at the youtube vid below to scroll down). Obviously the person who knows chinese. Ha ha
I really don't know what am i gonna hear tomorrow. I just have to trust it'll be for the better for everyone, yes everyone.
Now i'm angry. But... i just let it go. Cause i trust you and i trust in you.
Signing out
I don't know how will it be tomorrow or the day after?
But i really wanna dedicate that song to you. 我们的爱 (it's at the youtube vid below to scroll down). Obviously the person who knows chinese. Ha ha
I really don't know what am i gonna hear tomorrow. I just have to trust it'll be for the better for everyone, yes everyone.
Now i'm angry. But... i just let it go. Cause i trust you and i trust in you.
Signing out
Dear blog
I am that "anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful". Purge me away from thy sufferings.
Still in bad terms with parents. Skipped school today, didn't had the mood. Heard many people having their exams soon. I don't even know when's mine >_> All the best to you Miao and Joe!
Oh well, nobody really bothers anyways.
MacDonald's has became my best friend again. I can sit here for the whole day staring my pathetic worn out laptop LCD. I can don't speak for an entire day now yet cry my hearts out in the middle of the night. My mask which i carved out for myself is cracking, pressure and heat has cause it to be so.
I feel, neglected. They say change is a constant, yet nothing is changing at a constant pace, i can't keep up. One point of time i thought i had it all, now all that i have is my thoughts.
Putting that aside, i have nothing to blog about today. Other than...
...CONGRATS FOR GETTING YOUR LAPPY UP AND RUNNING AGAIN REES!
Everybody seems so much happier without me. What did i do wrong? What can i change? What can i actively do to make a positive impact on someone else's life?
Emo-ing out
I am that "anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful". Purge me away from thy sufferings.Still in bad terms with parents. Skipped school today, didn't had the mood. Heard many people having their exams soon. I don't even know when's mine >_> All the best to you Miao and Joe!
Oh well, nobody really bothers anyways.
MacDonald's has became my best friend again. I can sit here for the whole day staring my pathetic worn out laptop LCD. I can don't speak for an entire day now yet cry my hearts out in the middle of the night. My mask which i carved out for myself is cracking, pressure and heat has cause it to be so.
I feel, neglected. They say change is a constant, yet nothing is changing at a constant pace, i can't keep up. One point of time i thought i had it all, now all that i have is my thoughts.
Putting that aside, i have nothing to blog about today. Other than...
...CONGRATS FOR GETTING YOUR LAPPY UP AND RUNNING AGAIN REES!
Everybody seems so much happier without me. What did i do wrong? What can i change? What can i actively do to make a positive impact on someone else's life?
Emo-ing out
03 February 2009
Dear blog
No idea, no idea at all. You don't know what is important to your friends, what's important to your family and what's important to your BF.
No mood to blog... but i still wanna complain in this pathetic space~
The lackness i'm experiencing is feeling the void in my heart. Is it gonna turn in on itself?
Signing out
No idea, no idea at all. You don't know what is important to your friends, what's important to your family and what's important to your BF.No mood to blog... but i still wanna complain in this pathetic space~
- I got "kicked out" of home yesterday. The only person i could reach was shin.
- I can never use internet at home any more. Previously it was at night only (after 8pm)
- School's ain't doing too well for me, i have reports stacking and i don't give a dam about it.
- My wish-list? Is probably fading away, i can't dream anymore
The lackness i'm experiencing is feeling the void in my heart. Is it gonna turn in on itself?
Signing out
Dear blog
Time heals, or time kills?
I was suggested to give time, space and as well as not be persuasive to the one. I'm heeding your advice, and i really do hope it works. Tonight, i totally didn't sms anything at all. It's not that i don't want to, but i'd try this method to see whether this works...
I'm gonna catch the fish with a bait instead of netting it. Here fishy fishy, come get your bait...
By the way. 1 question i hate the most!!! Don't ask me why i feel this way? I have feelings what! Of course lar. Like duh?!?
Signing out
Time heals, or time kills?I was suggested to give time, space and as well as not be persuasive to the one. I'm heeding your advice, and i really do hope it works. Tonight, i totally didn't sms anything at all. It's not that i don't want to, but i'd try this method to see whether this works...
I'm gonna catch the fish with a bait instead of netting it. Here fishy fishy, come get your bait...
By the way. 1 question i hate the most!!! Don't ask me why i feel this way? I have feelings what! Of course lar. Like duh?!?
Signing out
01 February 2009
Dear blog
ARGH! Why am i feeling like this? Each time i read some posts i would get so angry, and fed up with myself. And jealous. Jealous. Why the freakin hell can't i have you? Why we can't have fun together as you have with other people? Why can't i love you? Why don't you let me. Why did i do all those things for you? Why...
*kneels and cries*
*looks up to darkness*
Can we try this out again, please? I need you and i don't want anything else other than you, i've tried so many other things these few days, and after doing those, i wanna fall back, fall back unto your presence... but i'm falling flat thud now... I need you still...
Signing out
ARGH! Why am i feeling like this? Each time i read some posts i would get so angry, and fed up with myself. And jealous. Jealous. Why the freakin hell can't i have you? Why we can't have fun together as you have with other people? Why can't i love you? Why don't you let me. Why did i do all those things for you? Why...
*kneels and cries*
*looks up to darkness*
Can we try this out again, please? I need you and i don't want anything else other than you, i've tried so many other things these few days, and after doing those, i wanna fall back, fall back unto your presence... but i'm falling flat thud now... I need you still...
Signing out
Dear blog
Life isn't fair, but it's still good~
Oh really? My god-bro just teased me, "2 weeks later, are you going out with your ex?"For that moment, it felt overly awkward. And a year's worth of memories came back where i 1st receive something for valentine's and it was really special. From what i see so far, i guess this year's valentine would be a lonely one. Both of us staring upon the faded memories and i'm just tasting it's after effects.
I really hope i can do something special for you in the shoes of a boyfriend. But i think you're keeping those shoes away from me. I'm willingly to wait till you're ready again to let me wear those shoes and be in your life again. Till then, i'm constantly jealous over you and protective over you. I really miss you...
Signing out
Life isn't fair, but it's still good~Oh really? My god-bro just teased me, "2 weeks later, are you going out with your ex?"For that moment, it felt overly awkward. And a year's worth of memories came back where i 1st receive something for valentine's and it was really special. From what i see so far, i guess this year's valentine would be a lonely one. Both of us staring upon the faded memories and i'm just tasting it's after effects.
I really hope i can do something special for you in the shoes of a boyfriend. But i think you're keeping those shoes away from me. I'm willingly to wait till you're ready again to let me wear those shoes and be in your life again. Till then, i'm constantly jealous over you and protective over you. I really miss you...
Signing out
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