Dear blog

Watched All's Well End's Well if Rees this evening @ The Cathay. It was a refreshing experience to see him again with his new haircut. Ha ha XD Lolx, i managed to rush there in time for the $6 tickets before 6pm. Ahh, sorry for being late again, i had project meeting before that. I got treat Rees a 7-11 drink at $1, hee hee an Allswell drink! LMAO XD Dinner was at Plaza Singapura, and we hanged out at j8 Mac and sipped their milkshakes (sooooo sweet!!!!!). Ha ha. Gave him the fishball crackers and we parted =)

It's nice meeting your friends, when they're your friends. I felt that i needed to wait. Should i? I need a sign.

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Dear blog

Went to catch The Wedding Game with Nick yesterday @ Marina Sq. We got a rather late show since i was busy earlier on, haha meeting Shin =X ANYWAYS, the movie was a nice plotted out show i think. Lovey dovey and comical. Oh, i'm still very wary of Hei Ren. Ha ha, go watch the movie and you'll know =)

CONGRATS TO NICK WHO GOT INTO TP, DIPLOMA IN MOBILE AND WIRELESS COMPUTING!!!

And i treated Nick back the drinks already hor!!! Ha ha, left Rees only =X Okay, must find things to treat him! Hee hee. Kinda sad his lappy down and can't use internet. Ke ke. Alrights, i have a research project to finish by 1pm and submiting a 40 page long draft to teacher tonight via email. RAWRZ work work work.

Hopefully all is well now?

I thought about you the yesterday whole day, the whole 3 days trip, the whole Wednesday, and as well as every night that i didn't sms you. It's hard to shake off this feeling, this redundant habit that would get me burnt out. I know if i try hard enough i would lose this hold i have, but i don't wanna give up that easily, i wanna wait. Then again, i wan to please you as well.
Can i stop acting when the cameras are off as well?

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Dear blog

Some people don't know that they are already so F****kin skinny and yet they complain that they are fat. I think i'm God-like. Ha ha.

Ben said that sitting near the mac's and smelling the oily fries would make me fat, no need to consume the food already have the effect sia. Alrights, i'm gonna swap to outside the gym there? Can smell the sweat of working out and slim down =) hehe

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Dear blog

I've just returned from my 3days trip in Batam!!! *everybody goes weeeee*

Purpose of the family outing there was to celebrate CNY with my uncle's (mother's brother) family of ern ern 8 and to bond with them better as well. So let me continue...

... We woke up at like 630am on Sunday and drag our feets to Harbourfront to wait for the 830am ferry to Batam. The boat ride was a blink of an eye, cause i just went in, cosy myself on a chair and closed my eyes till reached. Hee hee. As soon as we've checked our passports out, our uncle we address as Batam ah gu (mother's older brother in hokkien) came to fetch us to iHotel!!!
Yesh, the name sounds fanciful and it's really called iHotel. And no, it's not really high tech to our standards. Ha ha. Lets see, the "high tech "stuffs are like a tab in door, security measures tab in lift and a fridge in our rooms (yes it's considered high tech). Soon after, we met up with our cousins, all 5 of them. They are Awi, Ahua, Aki, Haidi, and Achai. All those with an "A" are males and pronounce as an "ah".

1st activity was indoor swimming @ iHotel. All except Grace (my sis) didn't suffer the chilling breeze along with the icy waters. It was fun fellowshiping with Awi and Johan in a toss-coin-and-find-it game. Oh there was a mini bubble pool beside with warm water and surges of bubbles kept shooting out. Ha ha. That was more appealing for me i guess XD

And our reunion dinner? It was totally AWESOME! Okay, for me at least =P Adults went to buy take-aways and children were at both hotel room playing. Dinner time came when they came back and we started eating on top of newspaper on the floor! It's like 14 of us all sitting around each other having the food in the middle and rice in front of us. Very cosy and fuzzy feeling you'll have. The food we had consist of sting ray, satay, garlic fried chicken, sambal fish soup... The best part is, we all ate with our hands!!! That to me was an unforgetable experience =)
Yeah and this lasted for 2 nights when we were there. Eating with hands is kinda tough okay, not as easy as it looks. Ha ha. Maybe i'll need to train more for next year?

Night activities...

... yeah we had fireworks! It's like OMG. How i wished i could bring all my friends there to play and "battle" with each other. Since this is illegal in Singapore, my family really had a great time setting off explosives and shooting fireworks. AWESOME DUDES! Some of the explosive includes the butterfly (cause it'll fly upwards), mini bomb bag (just throw and boom), mini fireworks (light up throw and watch fireworks on the ground sizzle), flash bomb (self-explanatory) and bumble bee (similar to the butterfly).

Yup, these were the more impressionable activities. In-between we had sleep, shopping, resting, arcade, dozing off, eating, napping and as well as lazying. Ha ha, not really interesting eh?

When i reached back at SG harbourfront, i switched on my phone. Ya, i left it off over those days. It was around 355pm, and i received an sms asking me whether am i back in a very child-like and innocent manner. I kinda felt warm and individualistic inside, i'm remembered? And the timing was divine. Thanks, really really appreciate that sms BF!

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Dear blog

Yesterday interviewed Andrew kor at his house at commonwealth with Hendro and Zhen Ann (both my group mates). Rather an informal one, but had it recorded every questions. Lolx, and conversed in english, a weaker language for Andrew argh everyone else except me =X And at night i had to word out the recorded interview into soft copy so that Amir (another group member) can edit and make it sound professional. Ha ha.

Oh CNY coming soon and have to finish these stuffs =X

This morning went to school gym with Cai Yun and Wei Teck (not to confuse with the name Nick). Had a feel of the new gym air... haha XD Now kinda strained =X Ha ha... see lar, so long never do anything. Ha ha.

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Addiction...
*a love poem for a special someone*
... is a Choice?

I'm addicted to joy and pleasure
observing you, and having leisure
I'm addicted to suffering and pain
seeking you, trying to be sane
I'm addicted to emo and being alone
times staring at the sky then my phone
I'm addicted to partner and company
left with your words and this symphony
I'm addicted to your words and speech
to this i felt my blood being leeched
I'm finally addicted to your means and your ways
Knowing the reward and the price it pays
I'm finally addicted to your touch and care
from the start weren't we a pair?
I'm lastly addicted to your beauty and your brains
dreaming of it everyday making me so mundane
I'm then addicted to you
and i knew that our friendship...

... was true and full.

It was because i choose =)

*Who knows what miracles, you can achieve? Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill. Who knows what miracles, you can achieve? When you believe, somehow you will. You will when you believe*

Dear blog

I cam-whored at home. Ha ha, with my web cam of course.


Oh yeah, so how do you like my hair? Styled it up yesterday cause had a movie appointment with Rees and Nick. Need to look good yeah, and presentable =) Probably will try out similar styles in the future.
We watched Love Matters @ Tampiness. RAWRz, Nick you better appreciate! Tickets were $8.50 but i reached 15min late so Nick got the tickets @ 9pm for us first. Then had our dinner at Macs, = =" costed $7.50 for mine! Dang it so exp =/ The show was nice and commical! I would advice those teens (preferbly chinese) to catch this flim. It'll LYHO (laugh your head out). Oh yeah and of course, it's about love between male and female in 3 senerios. Go watch it!!!

After that took bus 28 home for us, or at least for Nick and Rees... Didn't want to be alone so i followed Rees back 1st, wahaha what a lame reason. We catch up on certain things as well! But when i reached his bus-stop and walked to the next the last bus has already left! OMG! Yeah i was staring at the board O_O||| Being already very tired, i struggled on my way home walking on the main road back from his house =X Whilst walking a car actually honked at me -.- Stupid driver! Ha ha, it's kinda my fault also. Managed to reach home in 1 piece, did the interview questions soft copy and hit the hay stack.

I was glad the bus was cold. It was cold on the outside only =)

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Dear blog

Wondering why am i still awake at this point of time. It's already 0215, i have EBM tutorial at 8am and to finalise the interview thingys for 1 hour, then 2 hours of genetics lecture (boring!) afterwards is our interview ICA. ARGH, my answering was very bad! Cause we had a dry run just now. Gosh, i need to improve on my communication skills, i kept staggering between words. It's so unlike me = ="

The rest of the people are having exams. Yeah... Good luck for those papers!

And in my life, so far, all i had live for is friends. Even my family is pioritised below them. After reading thru the blogs from both of my closest friends, i realised that friends are like amethyst, topaz and quartz crystals. Only the best and the finest are found after a volcano eruption has cooled off (Duh, nobody would look for them in the hot lava).

To all my friends. You're beautiful in your own ways... It's true.

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Dear blog

Regrets...
Many of us have it. No, all of us have this. Even if we identify it or not.

Why? Did we not do well in certain areas? That's why we yearn to do the same thing better?

Or is it that we have "seen the world", and we question ourselves why didn't we do this or do that?

I hate this feeling the most, the feeling of regret. Personally, i've given regret up. Not give in, but give up. I would skip to the next phase, which is doing something about it. Woah, easier said than done. But after doing it, no words need to be said. Cause action speaks louder than words.

On a lighter note...
... this pic is kinda insulting to me?
Whatever the case, you need to balance your life. If the world doesn't give you happiness, make your own. Don't like pitying myself, even though it very tempting to.

To my special friend common to us:
As said there, you're a special friend. At least to me. Things i've done, stuffs i've said were all risen due to jealousy and hatred. Not to you, but to myself. Understanding one ownself is most important. I'm trying to now, nobody is perfect but there's that perfect person for you so don't give up. You have suffered greatly. I'm the mastermind behind your pain actually, cause i was selfish and i too jumped into conclusion. You have the rights to blame me you know. Now there's three reason why i don't want you to be like this: 1st, i'm the guilty one. 2nd, the person you spent time with feels guilty. 3rd, we are all your friends whom don't like to see you sad. So don't hide yourself, it's making all of us worry, then angry, then hate, the crazy. Ha ha... Be safe.

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Dear blog

It was a wonderful experience for me to hear out someone. At least we finally got to meet, that i'm happy for. But it seems like whatever i said before is all gone for good (is it?). Being the helpless me, i seeked advice from higher people. I saw that people need to look out for themselves first before they can give their heart out again. Is that the case? I hope so. I don't know if you'll find anyone that'll sacrifice like me ever, but i'm sure you would find someone that can applease you better than me.

Dessert time was still okay. Talking i was avoiding the question. Cause i know i might hear something that would break me apart. Someone told me to hope, to wait. But at the same time, i was told that it's better to move on than to look stupid. Well, i don't mind looking stupid, that's all i'm ever good at.

I wonder if it's just you being strong or what. And since it's more or less settled at your side. I'm happy for you. I don't even know whether you read my blog entries. Haiz, if you do, you'll probably go, "please move on, don't be childish and cry over spilt milk".

Heart on my wrist. Means I'm looking out for myself first, and then when the time is ripe, coming out again. I wonder can i have this chance? If not, i would change for you as well, i would just force myself to forget all those feelings.

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Dear blog

Yup, here's yesterday pics solely kopped from Yeo Cheng's Facebook =P

Here's top view to the Sinphony orchestra.

The Choir Gallery, obviously meant for us.

Da sound card! Hee hee, taken from Eunice. Yeah she's that zha bor there!

Ern at dressing room. Where not all of us could see Mr Ong =X

The lights...

And finally the flowers. Ms Janette gave each of us the singers a stalk of flowers. How sweet =)

There's some saying right? The beauty and the scent of the flower will always remain in the hands whom it is squashed...

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Dear blog

Today was fun, will tell story once get pics. Basically went to esplanade to perform with the Sinfonia orchestra. Yeah. Lolx.

I've learnt how to ask the question: What should i do now to make things better? Ha ha, it's never directly asked cause the answer is gonna be inaccurate. The way is to get from different friends =)
I have a handful of friends whom they can trust their life on me:
Benjamin Lee
Joe Ng
Kah Hong
Miao *edited, pai sei left out your name*
Nicholas Teo
Nicholas Morton
Rees Sim
Shin
(Lolx, of course it depends whether they wanna place their trust in me in the first place, but i would willingly to do great sacrifices for them. Oh and it's alphabetize)

Three random things that happened today
1. I forgot to bring the tickets for Shin and Joe, so i had to rush back home from esplanade to get the tickets and then rush back there. On the way my zipper broke!
2. I finally tasted Mega Mac and Twister Fries. And it didn't turn out marvelous.
3. I gave shin the flower that was passed to me, and he's gonna throw it like now.
That's all! LOLX.

Although i still can't understand you or whatsoever from the other person. I know one thing that i want that would remain true forever... is that i want you close to me be it which ever you find best way. *smiles*

Oh, and i don't know why i'm developing rashes now = =" Dam irritating. Looks like mosquito bites, but in masses. Lolx, i'm allergic to something i think ?_? And thanks Nick for coming to join us for supper! It means kinda alot? At least you smiled =)

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Dear blog

-Used to be something else here-

I just hope i'm not right with my suspicions. Even if i am, i can't do a dam thing about it. I admit it, i'm lousy and weak. But at least i try my best, i thought that matters... haiz...

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Dear blog

I sms-ed Nick. But he didn't reply...

Oh well. Shin asked me an obvious question though: If that someone you love broke up with you and got together with someone else you know or your friend, what will you do? My 1st answer was, if that (being noble and selfless) special someone has no more feelings for you, and the other person can provide at least the basic sense of comfortness, then i'll have no obligations. My heart immediately went YEAH RIGHT!

Today was lonely. Thought could asked someone out for brunch, since i was totally alone when i just woke up around. Okay so had something on. Alrights, so i went down used my saved money to get carrot cake... haiz... And i didn't realise people was kinda staring at me, cause of my messy wake up hair. Anyways, couldn't be bothered also. Not like anything gonna happen today. After lying on the bed for a while, parents came back, and started scolding again as usual cause i haven't prepare myself for church. I wasn't going to church also, didn't have the mood these few days. I complied and i started preparing. Took dad's car to church. When he was speeding, i really wanted to just jerk the steering wheel and wonder how would the car flip, but i couldn't do it. So reached there at 4pm, i immediately sneaked away to Plaza Sing via bus (cold lonely ride). And then walked from PS to City Hall MRT. Yeah i have nothing better to do. Was staring at my phone, should i dial ....9934 or....9575? Since the first had something on, then i called the latter. Talked awhile to pass time and finally 645pm came and i met up with VE members.

Dinner was japanese. Had Tan-Tan Miso Ramen. Joked with ben to say it's 陈陈 miso ramen, created by a chinese guy, that's why there's cheap minced pork inside. Good thing Mr Ong paid for all 13 of us. Oh i drank a ribena with apple too, ?_? yeah same expression.

Now just reached home. And 1st thing got scolded again. I'm so sensitive you know, when people praise me or scold me. It really affects me alot, it's just that i had to control this facade i have. After that, being me, i didn't talk back or anything. I just went to kitchen to drink a glass of water with some tears still holding back in my eyes... Now here i am, seeing you online and i'm reading blogs. It's just unbearable.

So coming to Shin's question again: I'm desperate enough to kill you and place you in my closet, cause if i can't have you, i don't want anybody else to.

Sorry to Shin for being rude.
Sorry to Nick for being such a lousy friend and have to interferre.
Sorry to Paul for not being able to make a firm decision that time, so now he has to live in regret for the rest of his life.
Sorry to you for too much things.

Majority of our brain is powered sub-consciously. And i don't know if i could apply what i'm feeling to what you would react. Nevermind, you would say it's none of my business. When you're happy and already moved on away from me, then you'll see and pity me.
Yesh you're right, I'm FREAKING JEALOUS. But i still want the best for you. Too see your trusted dog run to another owner for food and water, the owner would share the same feelings as me.

One more thing: Don't think you can act as a hero please. Everyone of us has a life with different character and attitudes. Something already happened to me that is not fair, and from your words, i'm no where near your friend? What the hell, Fucking screwed up relationship, my few months best friend and my 2 months close friend just can turn against me. I don't cry doesn't mean i don't want to. And it's already unfair for anyone to judge anyone else in the first place.
I'M SORRY IF IT DOESN'T APPLIES TO YOU.

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Dear blog



I did something good today. I, being random, went to this blog where someone asked for this song. Since he's from like St. Gab. and i had some issues, so i just helped him. Yeah, i got this 3 pages long score for him. And it sounds nice =) I'm gonna learn to play it. Anyone can help with the translation?

For today. Felt so weak during choir practice. Didn't had dinner. Almost fainting. Luckily ended early, then bought pink dolphin to survive. Ha ha. Tomorrow's Ping Ding's birthday celebration, then the next is Yi Tian's.

I don't want to take things for granted anymore (even if it's too late).
When the person don't want to do anything, you wish for an sms...
When the person sms-es, you wish for a call...
When the person calls, you wish for a meet-up...
When the person meets up, you wish for more time together...
When the person allows that, you wish for more.
I still blame myself...

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Dear blog

I'm still staring at my complimentary Shaw movie ticket with hope and wishfulness. Think i'm really naive. In a way, i felt so let down and let down-ed. Ha ha.

Yesterday, i woke up to find myself shivering. It was so dam bloody cold. And i just found my blanket on the floor and covered myself, again.

They say don't worry be happy. I guess it's better to do that?
And still it's better to be selfish than to be selfless. I'm still going with selfless. Less of self, more of you.

I'm so dead, belt and watch are tighten by 1 knot. And reports are piling up on me. Similes are worn as a mask now. And the words that came out seems so fake. I don't know how long will i last?

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Dear blog

I might be mentally unwell. First time having so much thought-through entries in a "day". Many things "assigned" and i'm responsible for are a foot drag. Like work and family. Including me making a firm decision to walk away. The feelings are so familiar, i thought it'll never return. Then... the only song that keeps repeating in my head. It's tormenting X speed of light. I need to keep my mind occupied constantly with games, school work, family quarrels and other friends. Now i skip dinner daily, to feel a fraction of pain you felt. I'm the coward one.

Thanks for friends who somewhat directly or indirectly supported me. And to that closest friend that i have right now, i'm confused but i was happy that you were there. It means so much. I really need someone to just give me a pat or a hug to carry on, to have that hope. Even as small as an sms. My needs are often displayed as what i would give to another party, just think, how would someone with the mentality of "Do unto others what you would want others to do unto you", resolve his relationship problems in a way that would make him feel better? Yeah you should have gotten it.

I'm basically a void now. So avoid me.

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Dear blog

I realize that i'm really in touch with my feminine side of myself. Ha ha, it must have been that bite from Sheryl.

Other than that, today used up $2.96. I wonder was that well spent? Trust. I guess i trust him, but i trust you more. How i wanted to wait outside the cinema to see you, how i wanted to wait at the bus stop for you, and i could even imagine your voice and your expression usually. Then there comes a time where "i respect what you say" tides in over "i want to be with you forever".

I'm just happy to know you're still okay. It already came to a stage where i really love you and i just want to know that you're fine. That's all that matters now, i don't need anything in return. Yes you would find me cheap.

Here's what i want in smaller font, cause what i want is really portant...
I hope you'll just sleep in my arms again.
I hope i can see your smile again.
I hope to hear you talk to me with a nice tone.
I hope to confide in you.
I hope to watch a movie with you.
I hope to be there to hear your problems out.

Okay, that's like alot eh? Ha ha. It's for me to know that i have to be unselfish. Cause i still hope... It's better late than never?

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Earthquakes, Heartquakes

*Read at your own risk*

They are horrible upon rising to the surface. It's a result of a sudden release of energy creating waves. Off the surface, even though immediate effects are not felt, tsunami might be created to destroy any other stuffs. At the same time, one must understand that these are natural events occurring almost everyday only at a different scale as well as strained areas. And obviously the higher scale quakes would shake the grounds of which we stand in.

So how do we define them? Human have came up with the term called faults (they think alot don't they). There are three basically types of faults- Strike-slip, Normal and Thrust/Reverse. Ideally both tectonic plates would slide pass each other smoothly.
In the case of Strike-slip, it is caused by both plates being different (DUH!) and lock on each other whilst moving. Think of it as two fitted jigsaw puzzle on a table and trying to slide away from each other. The strains are at those edges and once sufficient energy are stored, both plates would "damage" each other and a sudden slip would be felt on the surface.
Both Normal and Thrust/Reverse are just opposite of each other in terms of plate movements. It's where either one plate just extends too much, or in the other extreme is where one plate is being shortened. However the effects felt on the surface might be completely different in those two cases.

Lastly. Earthquakes don't just happen as a standstill event and just pass over. There are three "other effects"- Aftershock, Quake swarms and Quake storms.
Aftershock... It just simply means that another (or more than one) minor quake(s) occurred after the first main quake. And would be affecting the same region as the main shock did, but of smaller magnitude.
Quake swarms are somewhat similar to Aftershock in the sense that it is a rampage of quakes striking a specific area but all of similar magnitude. Every single one is occurring one after the other.
In relation to the previous two effects, Quake storms have an element of time. In which quakes occur at the specific area occasionally for long periods of time. This area would be deemed as "active", and obviously would suffer the most.

One thing to remind. Quakes are a natural event occurring supernaturally... Don't fight them, embrace them because they can't be avoided. Only dealt and endured with the best possible way.

*Thanks for reading so far, i'm sure you're brain is like half dead now*


If i were to choose a Mr Men and Little Miss to represent me... ... i would be Mr Jealous or Mr Regret. Who would you be???

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Dear blog

There's so many things i wanna do. So many action i wanna do. So many topics to talk about.
But when i saw your face, everything just sank. I didn't just see your face, i saw your heart. It was dead when faced with mine.

I had so much wanted to scream at myself. I don't think you're a coward, i think that's your way of dealing with problems. I couldn't bring a blade near my wrist at all, I'm the real coward.

Can i sms you? I'm sorry we can't be together. Oh, please don't hurt yourself, you're breaking what you promised me. You don't need to be responsible for me anymore, the pain is caused by myself to myself. I'm sorry, i'm just really am, i couldn't be there for you. It's my fault not yours. Can we try this again somehow? No, i'm sorry, i'm really tired now. I'm a selfish person and i'm sorry we've met and you needed to change just to please me. Noo! I do things because i want us to be together, not for you to use it against you or me. Let's just move on from each other, i don't have the courage to face you...

Dammit. Yeah i was jealous, and yet you didn't want to do anything about it knowing it. Yeah okay, so you had a bad day thinking that i'd be jealous, SO WHAT? Like thinking would make me feel better. Great, now you have a whole day of movies. And just go out some more. Fine... IT'S SOOO MAKING ME FEEL MUCH BETTER.

What I want? A simple movie with you even? To accompany you? What the freakin wrong? I don't even know why i'm feeling like that? Hmmm maybe because i still do have feelings for you?

So. Now i'm thinking and feeling guilty about you. Do you feel better?

Okay. I'm quieting down. It's just that basic courtesy? When people ask you out, i'm sure if you could you would go out with him. Since he's waiting for you for just that sms to go out.
And yeah, i enjoy seeing you slashing yourself. I enjoy seeing your head get banged on the wall. Hmmm? I tried my best to help?

Yeah, so i'm trash to you now. Whatever i feel you DON'T CARE and DON'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. Even if you did, you'll take it to yourself.

You'll ask what i want again. I already told you i want you. Even if it's just an empty shell? I would rather kill you myself and just put you at my house so that i can see you everyday. I'm that sick ok. Haiz... freakin hell. I have no more words to describe you. Just plain selfish (not the joy, but the pain).

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million of having the feeling the way we do
And with every step together
We'll just keep on getting better
So can i have this dance, can i have this dance?

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Dear blog

On second thought. Do i wanna blog about it? I don't want it to be like that in the first place. 9 points i noticed...

• I changed your life,
• It's not my fault its yours,
• I no need to be responsible for anything anymore,
• You can't find strength to carry on,
• You're really tired,
• You're selfish,
• We shouldn't have met,
• We should move on from each other (sounds weird doesn't it? Move on from), and
  
• You've grown somewhat different.
  

Hmmm 9 points? I remembered 9 things i've promised to someone else before. Alrights, this shall be symbolically represented into these 9 things now.

I won't list down the obvious feelings. It's quite IQ=100 knowledge. But just know that i'm waiting for you with my arms wide open, no hatred, judgement or whatsoever when you do return. That's a promise.

Then to more livelier stuffs- met shin after my 6 seaweed chicken lunch (didn't had the mood to eat). Kinda cheer me up somewhat O_O Ok lar, it was relieving to have someone to talk to about problems eh?

I have failed you. I said i would let no harm come to you, but i couldn't do a single freakin' thing when you slash your wrist or bang your head on the wall. It just felt i'm dying. Yet i refused to be dead, i rather be in the dying state and see you. From you i get my strength. I had so much wanted a hug. It was so cold for so long... Hugging was never meant to be done to oneself, it's offered by someone to give warmth and comfort to the other. I want to hug you dearly...

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Eyes on me
My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me

Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I want to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper

How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

Dear blog

I remembered posting something here this afternoon, but not i can't find it anywhere >_> No matter, i wanted to delete that post anyways.

Feeling so low now. Don't know when i'll see the sunshine. But i think i'm still more angry. Although, i would keep that promise on what i would do and your advice on how i should do it.

Yeah i'm the bad guy. Just blame it all on me, i might feel better this way.

Each time i think of you. I just wanna control you and make you forget everything and just be with you, simple. Period. I just feel so low, wonder why you treat me like this.

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Pictures for VE Retreat 09!!!

Host, Yeo Cheng and me biting a fork.

Shert, Shi Pei, Winnie (hiding behind) and Kah Hong.

Shert... the evil one...

That's the Wii game we played! And can see Ben's nice house as well.

What are you thinking Xiu Hui?

Winnie? Errr? Eye lash dropped har?

That's us guys lazying around in front of Wii, and...

...Shert was "innocently" beside Shi Pei. Or so i think till she...

...made her 1st move!

Biting me.

And still biting me. Stupid Sherire! (Shert + Vampire = Sherire) I don't wanna become a Sherrie (Shert + Zombie = Sherrie). Rawrz, take advantage of me some more, tsk tsk.

Ha ha all is over.

Always look on the bright side?

Still looking.

Why not look some more then?

Oooo current vice-prez with ex-prez.

Su Ee and Xiu hui.

Ern, twis for the cam. Bad pose =X

Shi Pei and Su Ee.

Group photo. Nicest so far =)

Food. Guess which 1 is mine?

Here's another hint, mine's is constantly at the bottomost of the pic in the one above as well!

Couple Nic and Em.

Host... looking like some begger.

Unglam pose. Oh that's the potato salad!

Ben's gay octopus in game.

Illegal gathering har?

That's me on the drums =)

That's Ben, our top pro in the game.

And of course, his house his game he rocks at his stuffs =P

No comments. Guess which 1 is the lower range singer?

Ha ha, now guess which 1 is the lower range singer?

The power of alcohol on Cai Yun- Face red + become photogenic.

The power of alcohol on Nic? Become sleepy + abit unhygenic. Lolx.


*Pics were taken courtesy of Su Ee*