Dear blog

On second thought. Do i wanna blog about it? I don't want it to be like that in the first place. 9 points i noticed...

• I changed your life,
• It's not my fault its yours,
• I no need to be responsible for anything anymore,
• You can't find strength to carry on,
• You're really tired,
• You're selfish,
• We shouldn't have met,
• We should move on from each other (sounds weird doesn't it? Move on from), and
  
• You've grown somewhat different.
  

Hmmm 9 points? I remembered 9 things i've promised to someone else before. Alrights, this shall be symbolically represented into these 9 things now.

I won't list down the obvious feelings. It's quite IQ=100 knowledge. But just know that i'm waiting for you with my arms wide open, no hatred, judgement or whatsoever when you do return. That's a promise.

Then to more livelier stuffs- met shin after my 6 seaweed chicken lunch (didn't had the mood to eat). Kinda cheer me up somewhat O_O Ok lar, it was relieving to have someone to talk to about problems eh?

I have failed you. I said i would let no harm come to you, but i couldn't do a single freakin' thing when you slash your wrist or bang your head on the wall. It just felt i'm dying. Yet i refused to be dead, i rather be in the dying state and see you. From you i get my strength. I had so much wanted a hug. It was so cold for so long... Hugging was never meant to be done to oneself, it's offered by someone to give warmth and comfort to the other. I want to hug you dearly...

Signing out