hey bye

Dear blog

Yeah i’m blogging after work today! It’s already a Monday. The holidays have officially started for me (or so i think)…

Niicky and Brandon, being their white and black self again, ate the opposite color carrot cake! Ha ha. It’s because Brandon couldn’t tahan anymore his urge and cravings for carrot cake. Lol. Kidding =P

 

Yeah, soon after their meal, they got drinks from my stall at a discounted price wor! Ha ha, promoting my stall, must come okay?

Was fun seeing people and friends that i know and seeing them at “unexpected” places. Hey, who can work and sit and chat with their friends at the same time eh? I’m not uncle or kopi kia okay!!! Rawrz!

So here am i wondering. How would things turn out if i just did [something]? Too late to do anything, but thinking always brings about lessons to learn. Past mistakes are not meant to be dwelt upon, just learn from them and know that you survived that, and that will make you stronger!

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A light cool warm day

Dear blog

Today’s a Sunday. Means that I've to go down to Newton to help out later… Yawns boring!

Friday was my last paper on human bio. It was done rather quickly, finished the whole 2 hours paper in 40mins. Left the examination hall as was feeling unwell >.< Slacked the whole time then till evening where i catch The Last House on The Left with Colin and John. The movie was somewhat gross in a pornographic way xD No other comments for this M-18 show.

Next morning on Saturday woke up kinda late for gathering at 11am. Well, i reached the MRT at 1120 and just met up with them. So the few of us comprised of Samuel, Justin, Mark, Alvin, Clarence, Natali and Amanda. First time felt there were more men lor!  Saw them outside candy empire. And following the picture flow :P

Soon after we walked awhile. Don’t know why got caught up with Toy’R’Us. Clarence got stuck in there awhile. Picture above shows Samuel, Nat, Amanda (aj for short), Clarence and Mark. All amazed at the coin-twist thingy machines.

 

Persuaded by Samuel’s hunger call. We agreed upon Carl’s Jr and settled down fashionably in chaos xD Chong Hong finally showed up. Picture shows Nat, Clarence, Alvin, Justin and Samuel.

 

The guys went to buy food 1st. Ha ha, so gentlemen hor. Ooops, including me =X Amanda and Nat were left the girl talk. Don’t know what they talking also. Girl talk mah =S

 

Uhm. Yeah, we ate at Carl’s Jr. My order was the Portobello mushroom burger. Kinda love it at first bite. Drinks, as usual, are free flow!

 

That’s the size of Samuel’s onion rings, or should i say onion bracelet? Ha ha, didn’t took a pic of it but aj went to wear that on her wrist! Imagine that… o.o

 

After lunch we proceeded to the higher storey…

 

Feeling all arcade-ish. We went to timezone and played a few interesting games. This one is the famous screen sensitive game where we are given plastic small balls to smack the screen to whatever appropriate. Seems like a team of 5 gives S ranks xD That’s Samuel and aj. Still got Justin, Clarence and Nat who played together =)

 

Hands still itchy, we went for this $2 (or $1.80 for gold card) game. Forgot this machine name. But it was fun! First round was me vs Samuel. Then we took turns and even played double.

 

Chong Hao and Mark team with Justin as referee har?

 

Verses aj and Samuel, with Nat as their cheer leader!

 

Competitive view of CHM team! They won 7-5 by the way… congrats xD

 

Alvin! Who was the gold card holder. Lent us his card to get that 10% discount for the games. Thanks Alvin!!! Ah, he’s into car games also. Never good at that myself :P

 

Next motorcycles? Oh my… Tanya in making sia. Aj and Nat competing in bike racing. Ha ha. It’s hard to ride a bike yeah?

 

Next up is Samuel and Clarence. Cool bikers on board.

 

Moving on to a different field. Mark and Clarence tried to DDR. Apparently, missed the chance to video them. It’s funny to see 2 person doing synchronized actions in a rigid manner xD Oh, Samantha appeared soon after :)

 

After all the fun and sweat, we took a bus back to church and started to slack. Ha ha, no la, to prepare for hospitality lor! Teachers’ Day celebration was just next door though. Colourful tables =)

 

Things were as usual. Doing this the second time, we were more efficient. Was helping Sherry to take pictures from her cam anyways. Ha ha…

 

The standard arrangements of ice Milo and orange punch… It doesn’t get better than this.

 

Took this last picture inside church myself. Ha ha. I didn’t know that i was aligned with the picture behind me. Looks kinda cool though?

And for today. Finally passed Rees his advanced birthday gift. It’s a breadou yea. Ha ha, smells like kaya xD Didn’t really know how to wrap it properly, got the wrong box also >.< Ooops. It’s the thoughts that counts yeah? Ha ha. Yeah, getting late le. Gonna prepare soon liaoz!!!

It’s funny how sometimes, people express their answers. It’s unique and unimaginable. That makes life exciting and so unpredictable! You’ll never know when somebody is gonna flare up at you, or have a change of heart. Ha ha. Change is constant and yet applying this to itself, you’ll get a possibility to change changing… (it’s like multiplying by itself). Someday, i know you’ll be tired.

The winds of time and fate flows in unison. One is constant, while the other is a mystery. May we be ever  expecting in heart and let our dreams not die =)

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For giving and for reciving.

Dear blog

I just finished 1 out of 2 of my papers! Weeee~ So happy =D Proteomics was rather stressful cause of the format given. I reached school pretty early today at 2 plus, considering the paper starts at 4pm. Went into the room around 1545, but many of my comrades still outside preparing for the war. The invigilator went out to call them in and the war began...

After struggling for 60mins, i've completed the paper once. Did a quick check then submited le =P Probably around 2 questions not really sure. Hopefully overall can get a good pass.

Dam! Was coughing all these while. Even during paper. Coughing really bad, wheezing at night. Feels asthmatic. Haiz... Can't even exercise much like this. I'll get breatheless over a flight of stairs. Like what is that lor =.=

On a bright note, printed out some scores from the game Xenogears. Think they sound nice, gonna try practising it later too. Ahhh, school com, not that good ;)

To Dosius: Thanks for constantly filling my cbox xD haha. Think she likes you!

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Burp… sigh.

Dear blog

Yeah yesterday (23rd Aug) was my sis birthday. Realized that many people’s birthday also fall on the same date. So on this Sunday, family decided to go have a dinner celebrate at nearby kopitiam!

There’s my mom, grace and dad in front. Bro was just beside me…

 

… posing as our LAH brothers =) Ha ha. Matching shirt o.o

 

Soon after, as it was a Sunday, i made my way via bus to Newton Hawker Centre. It was rather late and i reached there with this kind of light. Ha ha. Sure enough, i missed like most of the Ramadan crowd from 6pm to 7pm de.

 

So most of the time afterwards was just sitting and lazing around… Here’s a picture of me Sian 1/2. Ha ha xD Was a bit pissed off though, but it’s alright le.

 

And remember somebody’s sexy leg pic, i decided to take one of my own. Well, ern, it’s not really anything. Ha ha, guess I've got to work on them? Love those toned and tanned legs eh =D

Sigh, tomorrow is the commencement of my first paper- Proteomics. It’s rather difficult, comprising of 5 SAQ and 2 essays. Hopefully i need to bear through this. There are unbelievable things to memorize and my brain seems so cramped. Not to mention being reminded of a long hopefully forgotten hatred. Apparently, it never did. Seems like either i die or if that person goes back to overseas permanently then will be at peace, since there’ll be no more chance of seeing each other so qiao. I’m not emo-ing, just thinking of the lessons that were taught to me, did i apply them? I’m more like thinking of the experiences, mostly happy ones for some weird reason, happy memories keep flushing in my head and sanitizing all my forced hatred and ignorance. In the end, i still hope that we can just sit to have a light conversation over a cuppa of some sort and smile.

Leaving on Wednesday le… Sigh, i still remembered the excitement that i felt, the anticipation of your return every single day. Ha ha. Oops. Okay shoo shoo! I need to be strong. And i need to appreciate my friends more.

And why do i feel so trapped in time? I could think of all the feelings that i felt and the desires that we had. Some reason, the phrase “getting over” somebody is used very loosely.  I believe to “get over” a person is to neutralize all thoughts and experience relating from you to that person and returning all emotions back to where it belongs. At the same time refreshing oneself to feel anew again. I feel it’s so difficult to manage, even though what i do or what i don’t do now it doesn’t make a difference to either.

It’s too late to change anything… It’s too late to change anything now…

How i wish i knew what could please, what could just appease that anger. I thought it was gone over these past few months, but it’s just lingering there waiting to aggressively defend itself whenever provoked. SOMEBODY TELL ME WHAT TO DO!!! What does a competitive guy does? I am afraid to lose, i am really afraid to lose still. To lose anything, to lose anybody.

Argh! Talking to myself again… Proteomics. Focus focus… Give me an answer from heaven, how do i keep that person yet be at peace for both? *looks with droopy eyes*

Dam irritating and lor soh sia me. *ah chew*

Signing out

We eh hoo oei?

Dear blog

 

The Song of Prayer

Am just enchanted by songs… haha, found this cool “The Song of Prayer”. Hmm maybe i might learn this song? Not sure =P Just downloaded some other pieces. Hopefully can get them printed and learnt soon. It’s all tracks from Xenogear, an old PS1 game.

By the way, it was my sis birthday just now. Ha ha. So yeah, happy birthday Grace!

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peechar pohsst

Dear blog

Due to the fact i’m chatting with Dosius, Chia and some other people. Gonna be less words and more picture xD Sorry for mentioning names :P hehe…

So here are the pics for yesterday’s supper gathering at hougang (majiam making a big deal out of it sia, no choice, mugger’s world)…

Okay, and i realized that i got the order of pictures inverted o.O Ha ha, worse still i’m using a third party program. Oh whatever. Here’s Brandon and Niicky (always ready for the camera). Must have a session with Niicky: “How to look photogenic”. Step #1: Open eyes big big, make sure it’s 150% bigger than usual xD For me, i’m still staring at his OMG sideburns. Thanks Brandon for the bow.

 

Here in this corner *ding ding ding* weighing priceless as a China Vase… Brandon-pire! Unfortunately, due to economical crisis, vampires have to budget on their fangs also. Too much blood lost means fewer clients :P Notice that he looks 20% less bulgy in this pic?

 

Last but not least. The perfect advertisement by our very own brandon (again). Holding an outstanding weight of a 7.5g fries, he munches it with much delight. Expressing the marvelous taste of Mac’s very own french fries! *clap clap clap*

 

Then Niicky =) Random shot lar. Ha ha, don’t mind don’t mind :P

Oh we were there for awhile in supper before i had to pang seh both of them >.<

[fills this space with much apologies for both of his dearest] xD

 

Moving backwards. Were at arcade due to niicky’s idea (the one in white if you’re still lost). And brandon was really grooving to the para para beat sia. He played the 50% blind mode where you can only see the top half nia. Uber pro! Ha ha, i’ll never be that good with my hands :P

 

Back track again. We were at punggol. Punggol park to be exact, except it was at hougang area. Yeah i was amazed at first. Some more got the sign “Bedok” there. Haha xD It was abit too dark, so couldn’t take pic of that sign. About this pic, looks like nothing eh? Uhm, actually Niicky was sitting on the swing nearest to us (me and Brandon) and swinging. For some reason, you can see the shadows on the sand, the second swing further away from us, but not niicky…

 

Same thing. Except i took it sitting more to my left. Can’t shake the feeling from the lamp post. Seems to be masking something else… Oh Niicky still can’t be seen.

 

There’s Brandon. He was spying at some people. Haha… no comments on that. Wanted to just take the empty seats :) For no obvious reasons… haha. I’m always alert of shadows… hehe. Yeah shadows are important :P

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what’sup

Dear blog

A lawyer joke i suppose? I never accept a first offer. Come on, you can do better than that!

2 days before it seem like the world was falling apart. Then yesterday, i realized the existence of people again… Had supper with Brandon and Niicky (what’sup with the double i’s) at Hougang area. Yeah lor, it’s their area and i bus all the way there! Ha ha. One black one white, rather funny sia. Okay lar, at first i thought they were kinda weird, then after accompanying them to “window shop”, found out that they are a wacky bunch of people =) Although i feel so old with them (i’m like 20?), but still can pei he with them ba xD Saw Brandon playing para para, seriously, he’s quite good sia! Not bad. But i never will be able to move like that, maybe just DDR is good enough for me lor. Ahhh, we took some pics at Mac too, okay, is they took more. Didnt even notice o.o Got a double filet burger (not much difference in patty size) meal with shaker fries and shared with them. Ha ha. Even though it was just a simple hang out/ supper, getting to know those two are really awesome. Funny bunch of people. Ha ha. Gonna go bathe and go church le… argh, late late =X

Exams on Tuesday and Friday late afternoon. Wish me wisdom and perseverance guys :)

Signing out

deenaiyerl

Dear blog

Paul is in pain… his old habit is kicking up again. He thinks simply too much. He analyses horizontally the differences between others and himself. He compares the outstanding overlaps yet uniqueness. Whatever crap he’s thinking, it’s the 4am fault.

As posted, been thru a long day. Here’s how Paul works. If Paul faces a situation, he wouldn’t panic most of the time, unless the change is irreversible. So he’ll just sit and externally be very calm. Inside of him is majiam a war raging. Choices to make, decisions to take and feelings to be accountable for. These are all the things that he got to face. I’m sure you do too, just at a more sub-conscious level. During a normal response, Paul would result logic more than emotion. During the absence of the need to follow logic, emotion would be the driving force for that action. However in this lonely, lonely, night… logic and emotion are raging a break-even match. Any trivial issue would turn the whole tide to a favor. I don’t know if you are getting all of this. But basically it means that Paul has to choose the “right” decision to make. But “right” he means the logical decision. This means the predictable benefits or minimized lost for both parties action. Letting go of somebody is once such example. The emotional me would die die never let go, but logical plus a small portion of emotional speck with all love, respect and trust would eventually overrule and let you go…

It hurts. It really does.

How i wish i can vent my sadness/anger/disappointment (don’t know which either) on exercise or studies. But i simply can’t. It’s not me. I’m holding back my tears and tissues were piling up. I tried to be strong but you didn’t see the weak, fragile and vulnerable me crying and curling up on my bed. Everything happened so long yet so sudden like a dream, please don’t turn it into a nightmare. The price to pay for a nice dream in my pathetic life is already too much for this feeble-minded weakling to handle.

I’ve always taken stuffs personally. If things that i’m involved with doesn’t work well. I’ll try to solve the problem within me to get a more expected result the next time. This carried on for too long, till being hurt is like adding salt to open wound. *ouch*

Right now as i blog, i don’t even know whether you’ll even bother any more. It doesn’t matter. I’m always there. And when Paul says he’s always there means he’s always there.

If i have 1 wish. I’ll wish that i could make the lives of people that i interact a much better one. Let them be more relaxed, less stress and more freedom when they are with me. Let them feel happiness and joy in a different manner. Let them feel a sense of worth and value instilled into them. Let them understand how much i do care…

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double a a r n an o with an n.

Dear blog

These are the two pics which i took on Monday jog at NYP. Yeah i did jog. Lolx, muscles are still aching. Need to exercise more. Haha.

It was raining lightly, rain kinda cleared off a little when i reached the stadium. Birds were flocking everywhere upon the grasses. Watery…

There you can see the puddles. Fortunately, the track were clear of it.

Went to had pepper lunch for dinner today =) Ordered Teriyaki chicken with cheese! Hmmmm yum yum!

 

Today your magic no is 43.

 

Just the scenery there. By the way, had it at AMK hub.

 

Watched Where Got Ghost today with John Kor =) Thanks for treating me. Hee hee. It’s a 3 part standalone story. Rather interesting and nice other than the 1st two not so happy ending plots…

 

Yup. That is Aaron and me. Taken at a random place xD Hahas. Gonna miss this guy too in a way. Sigh, wonder why Paul is such a human repellent. Can’t get close with people… Anyways it was fun while it lasted! Ha ha. No la, not going anywhere or anything. Just that workload is busy on everyone eh? Something to thank him for, supporting me through times of my weakness and in need. Yeah people come and people go. That’s life. Friends are there forever. You choose your friends, but you best friends choose you. I’ve chosen. Have you?

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Long day long day

Dear blog


Here's my Kung-Fu Pets on Facebook. His name is Daiyahamhum (lame name cause i named it). Cute hamster hor? Must go with a sound like *hiaaaa* Karate Chop!!! Ha ha.

Hmmm is this useful? Maybe can try it? Hahas xD Don't shave, pretend to be pregnant and sleep with his best friend. LMAO.

Today felt like a long day. And it's only 1140am. Woke up by an unpleasant sms before 7am, kinda one of those moments when you wished you were just in a bad dream and will wake up out of it. Unfortunately, reality is part of my email add and my character. Fantasy (what you want) is usually not reality. Or should i put it that fantasy exist only because reality is not what we want. So we dared to dream, dared to trust, dared to hope and dared to wait. If things turned out successful, good for you. If things turned out otherwise, then it's time to think and know that you've done your best (you should have) and move on.

Past is not meant to be dwell upon or missed, it's supposed to be used as a teaching guide or a motivation to push you forward into the future.

Yeah i say so much, but do i practice what i preach? Hardly...

Today's presentation went not so well. Information gathered wasn't really sufficient since it was meant to be a 4 person workload over 6 weeks, not 6 hours. To make it even worse, i have weezing in my lungs (can hear the sound each time i respirate), sore throat (hurts like hell each time i swallow) and cough (not the achem nor the cough cough, it's the COUGH COUGH COUGH gonna die already cough). I'll have to blame myself for not taking good care of my body, have been waiting patiently (or not so) for the last 3 days. Finally got an answer thru an sms. Right now, i'm still thinking about stuffs, mentally how should i deal with it, how should i let it go. Should i be angry? Logically if you heat up a piece of wood it should be lit right? But this piece of wood knows that it must resist cause it's used as an insulator of heat not a conductor of heat. And i just realised that heat and hate are spelt with the same letters. Hmmmm...

Ah Beng: Eh euw gawd heat your breakfast already ah?
Ah Seng: Arh, i hate it already lar!

Okay a moment of lame-ness. If you got it, lame on you! If not, too bad. Ha ha ha xD

I wanna make more cool friends. People that know music. People that swim. People that do hiking/tracking or whatever sports. I want to be conpassive! Wa seh, long post sia o.o" Dang must go study for my papers next week le. RAWRZ... miss all my NYP (ex)friends ;P

Anybody jio me go out leh. Soooo bored.

Signing out

a lil blue

Dear blog

Feeling a lil scared, feeling a lil worried. Hmm nervousness is tingling all around my body. Oh, that is the feeling of pregnancy? Ha ha, missing out nausea nia. Unless you count the other end of the body. Ha ha.

Anyways, it’s like so “early” now. Gonna rest and post the rest of the stuffs on another day. It’s the beginning of study week. ARGH, how am i gonna study then? *sings* somebody saaaaaaaaaaave me!!!!

Love has always not been my forte. But analysis is at my fingertips every so often. So i’ll just nag about somebody with another body. Ha ha. Don’t mind me at times eh. There are times i feel lonely, times i feel sad. Just need somebody to snuggle up to and cuddle :P hehe sounds so euw right? Oh nvm… Gonna sleep le, mom’s nagging (as always). Good night o’ faithful readers =)

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A fare-not-so-well

Dear blog

Felt like smashing something right now. Or maybe i should just slap somebody? Ha ha…

Just kinda said a farewell. It’s not totally saddening, yet regretful in a way where you can’t do anything about it even if you want to. Have ever had one of those “break-ups”? Ha ha. I’m not “ha ha”-ing because i’m happy. I just want to convince myself the words that was that was meant for both of our good. Although this feeling is somewhat too familiar, i hadn’t had this much thoughts about somebody since … … … yeah. I’m blogging this post to say a big thanks, and yes there’s is this block of you’ll never understand me from you and this you’ll never know how i feel response from me. So yeah, a farewell was best and this farewell means that i respect your decision and understood why it was made. Again i’ll say this, it was UBER fun while it lasted =)

A quote i saw that reflects that…

Man's feelings are always purest and most glowing in the hour of meeting and of farewell.  ~Jean Paul Richter

On a brighter note under a not so bright sky, let’s all achieve our dreams! Woots! Good luck and good rest for all those having their test/prelims or whatever soon :P Have a good weekend rest!

PS: Take note of my cool fish widget >>>>>>>>>>

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A cat mews!

Dear blog

And a dog barks. So does a mouse squeek. And a blogger blogs...

That picture up there. Ain't it cute? Awwwwww =p Kittens have always been a symbol of cute-ness and vulnerability in a relying sort of manner (to its mum). Or just dependent on somebody mature and is able to give support.
The cat. At the same time, the same organism as the kitten would have a different interpretation. It might bring about the meaning of self-reliant, boastful and selfish (but they like fishes anyway). Of course, there are people who have preferance for stuffs, some would prefer cats.

Notice the words in bold and of different colours. ;P

Blogging this post from the school's library com. Argh, Hendro borrowed a book tittled "The Last Lecture" for his boss. It is due on TODAY 14th August 2009. Like so OMG! But he called me yesterday to say sorry, and i replied.. it's too late to apologize... haha. No lar, just said many orhs and okay lor. Since he's covering the fines, i think it's $0.10 for a day. Wednesday it is. Uhm so it's $0.10 x 5 days = $0.50. Ouch...

Went to swim yesterday at YCK again. Seems like my swimming stamina is getting uber low. Can't survive 10 laps without breaking a sweat. Technically you can't determine the amount of sweat a swimmer generates while in sports. Ha ha. Gonna try to build stamina, do cardio training, reduce carb and fat intake and hopefully body fat % would decrease and muscle mass would increase. Hmmm right now i need to lose like errrrr __kg of fats o.o" Some personal measurements :P

Ahhhh need training kakis... lol. Gonna swim more often, maybe once every 2 to 3 days, depending on how fast my trunks can finish one cycle of washing machine. Weeee~ Must train for NS! Botak jones head FTW!

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it’s 3:03 am

Dear blog

ARGH, it’s 3:03AM here on my com.

Dam, i just deleted an entire post before it got published and I've to start all over. Ha ha. A part of me is laughing while the other is wth a waste of time.

So my post, it was something like this…

friends… blah blah blah… school results… blah blah blah… holidays! Woohooo… Distractions… blah blah blah

Yeah something like that. Oh that i’m a people-people person. Active in different ways, yet lazy in character. That’s an irony. It means, i’ll readily accept any challenges smacked at me with confidence and determination but i’d be lazy to search for them in the first place anyways.

Being stuck in third year has its perks and downs. Hardly see the perks though. It’s probably what everybody perceives.

Recently got very distracted as well. Need a focal point to focus and draw my attention to. Love? Sports? Studies? Family? Ha ha. I’ll pick (E) One of the above. Lmao xD

Tomorrow what do i have? Tomorrow I've a FYP briefing that starts at 10am. Hey! That means i have 7 more hours to go, maximum of 6 hours sleep. Not bad, longest sleeping time yet =)

A nice piece of music from the popular PIXAR animation, UP. Married Life, the so-called theme song of UP. Enjoy =)

Married life

To the person hat it concerns to: I was kinda sad today cause you said that when you were free you’d sms. But the sms that i received was a Goodnight one. It makes me feel so insignificant and useless. Please, don’t do that again. Thanks. I’m still a human like you…

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