meatball cloudy

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Went to catch this show just this Tuesday with Adriel (since it was the only animated comedy show). We watched it at iluma, and it was my first time there, and my last time there wearing a single layer tee. It’s so freaking cold! And the ceilings on storey one are high, making it feel even much colder. But i had fun, it was a Tuesday =P Know a few more friendly people such as Jeff and Han. Thought Han is a china name no? It’s actually a popular English name, or so I've heard. I going to cycle at ECP later on at night (fri) with another group of friends! whoo hooo, 1st time meeting so many people consecutively sia! And trying to up my social life a lil so as not to feel so “distracted”.

Am in charge of organizing a walk-walk outing on 7/11 for VE peeps. The venues seek were TreeTop walk (went there thrice), Henderson Waves (cause Pauline suggested the southern ridges) or just hang out at ECP (argh, ain’t i’m doing that tomorrow?). Talking about that, i still haven’t found the route to ECP from home. Argh, overnight cycling. Hope the company there is accommodating to me >.<

I want to love this one and only life i have and make the best out of it!!!

Let’s see,what pic should i put here? Ahhhhh just random pics :) As always!

Nice ma? I design de. For the coming sec1 wannabes this sat :) From 2 Thess 5:16-22. Go read it if you own a bible:)

  Ah, last Sat had dinner at Sam Lo’s house. Her cooking was superb! Not to mention the taste of her cooked food! Ha ha xD Btw the middle dish is beef and apples =)

That’s me in the lift :) Ha ha. It’s taken in such a way it makes me look slimmer :P works right? Ha ha!

Piece of Ethanol art work done by yours sincerely :) Guess what i was trying to portray.

1st time drinking Koi Cafe. And it was Adriel’s treat on large drinks =) Weee $5 each you know! Notice the queue no =)

  Yeah, iluma cinema ticket has an extra flap on top. Don’t know for what also, maybe looks more valuable like this? Yeah, the show was okay, maybe abit too short?

Last but not least. I promised my friend I'll advertise this… Those are hand-made flowers done by him (obviously). $5 each he says xD But the raw materials are just MacDonald's napkins and some acrylic colors. So you wanna get one? Ha ha. I might :P

Oh i lied, i still wanna post a last picture ;)

Nothing spoils my day!!!

Ha ha… Alrights, gonna prepare for a long Friday :P Have a pleasant time guys :)

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to0 little…

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Just posting a pic on myself :P UPDATE……..

Besides there’s too little time nowadays. Today was fun at Newton :) Chatted with new friends. Ha ha. Then so so for everything. Will update when i have the time (when i do really have it).

Argh. Okay i’m ending here. Useless piece of junk. I wonder why people cannot accept that there’s somebody who really really likes them =.=

Not thinking about this. Shooooooo!!!

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school reopen

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School’s reopening for the poly students! Yay :) Can see people again ler. Ha ha, sound so bad yeah, sms-ed Kenneh and told him that finally i can suffer with people >=) hee hee.

Oh, and happy 19th birthday to Denny, a distant person from me. Ha ha… But still remembered his name and birthday, so yeah =D

Love is powerful. It always protects and shelters :) And love transcend time… cheem hor? Lol… Need to sleep soon le lar! I still have my FYP going on (9am-6pm). OMG! There’s also additional lessons =.= Need to print out the time table! ARGH…. haha stress!

wished i could do more. But simplicity would speak the loudest here…

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go that distance

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As promised the pictures. Taken by my pathetic (in comparison with Afzal and Nick’s) camera, from phone of course :P By the way, we met rather late huh? Think it’ll be better for the pictures if could meet like just after dinner. So here are the pics I've taken at Henderson waves and we ventured inside abit too. Dark and creepy bah…

The underside of the 70++m bridge (varies along the bridge).

 

1st stair way up the bridge.

 

1st signboard we encountered.

 

Caught Nick’s camera flash. Bright as day, and You Are Here *points*

 

Henderson, Duh.

 

Artistic picture from the start of the bridge.

 

The side of the bridge. That’s why they call it Henderson Waves.

 

When we’re at 78m above sea level. Took them legs :)

 

Both lying to rest awhile and appreciate the bridge and the sky. Stars filled that night. The picnic guy is Nick and the sexy pose is Afzal.

 

Last pic in this blog will be this. The Terrace Gardens. Looks really nice and a cooling breeze at the top as well! Those two checking out their time-table. LMAO!

And end this blog with this song Go The Distance. Meaningful words for achievers-wannabes (hey that’s everyone right?). Lucas Grabeel because i love his voice :)

 

Peace out yo! Got into one of the first 100 sign ups to receive $10 discount and free limited edition T-shirt for ONE camp at the end of the year. Exciting sia!!!

Ha ha… I've decided! To be happy. Doesn’t mean I'll smile. To be cheerful. Doesn’t mean I'll joke around. They say good things don’t last, that’s because when we’re around good things, time flies.

Starlight star bright
First star i see tonight
I wish i may, i wish i might
I wish for my wish to be true tonight…

When you’re happy i’m happy. When you’re sad i want to make you happy. When you’re angry i want to be the one to vent the anger on. Just… just don’t ignore me.

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some body to watch over me

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There’s a saying old, say that love is blind. Seek and ye shall know, search and ye shall find…

Gonna get my time-table from  school later on today. It’s 2 electives, bioinformatics, FYP and IAP for this semester. Really a lot to cope, really. I was informed that my bioinformatics (repeated module) lecture actually clashed with one of the elective lecture as well. The best way out would be to discuss with the bioinformatics lecturers (notice the “s”) and arrange a separate time slot for a 1 to 1. Oh… what a drag =.=

Now after some word-searching. The idea that i had was impact! Would you step into the lives of others and leave your footprint on them? So much so that when others see them, they see you in them. That’s that kind of impact i’d wish to leave to all my dearest friends. A common question that lead me to this thought was, what will you be remembered off and by whom? Sometimes, you actually influence people that you don’t even know! I do not want people to say “Paul is a good friend ya?” but rather “Paul is somebody special!” Ha ha.
Yeah wishful thinking on my part eh? No. It’s seen as a goal, a not-yet-achieved status.

Said that much. It’s obvious that i’ll be sad. When i do leave somebody, and then that person just push me aside. Ha ha. That’s that. Don’t want to go deeper then that :) Oh tomorrow will be meeting Nick and his malay friend to henderson waves??? Don’t know where is that o.o But hopefully it’ll bring my mind of things that i’ve been pondering awhile.

Nothing gonna change my love for you, you ought to know by now how much i love you…
Wanna say that line to somebody, somebody special. Love is liking that person, and liking the do’s as well as accepting the no’s. I believe that when you love somebody, there’ll be a time when both parties feelings would be on “equal importance”, and then sometimes you just want the best for the other party and abandon all your wants. Then accepting rejection (if that’s the best), or change of relationship (if that’s the best), or even being ignored forever (if that’s the best) will be possible for himpossible.

But Paul is still a stubborn and competitive dude. He doesn’t like to lose, especially people. He has, will be and continue to obtain this unique skill called, moving on.

Somebody challenged me once that after the honeymoon period i’ll just not  “infatuates” as much as before. It’s not i don’t want, just it won’t be accepted and just regarded as rubbish. Paul doesn’t have the license to be sweet.

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如果…

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Ain’t it true for twitters?

In our modern times. Busy is the word we are accustomed to. Busy is our attitude. And busy is our reply (more often is the lack of reply). Not to point fingers (or heads for that matter), but majority of my people-whom-i-know-their-name often have too much commitment and bad time management or no management at all. In the end, they’ll get in trouble with the people that they work with. Jack of all trades, but master of none. I’ll integrate that saying into this paragraph here. So the question is, being young and all, do we try to “expand” our social and technical (skills) circle as much as we can to our limits and last breathe, giving variety. Or just strive a focused and progressive goal all the way? I don’t know, different people have different answers.

BTW, guess what’s this!!! Ha ha =D

Gonna need to add humor to my boring life!!!

Presentations for the 3month FYP were held today. They have set a high standard. People like me doing the 6 months would have to think of novel tricks to fool the audience then :)

School officially reopens next week 19th Oct. Do you know that I've loads of module that i need to clear this semester? RAWRZ, worse still, 1 of my repeat module has the same lecture time slot as my electives. Argh, life keeps getting harder eh? The stress of my current FYP is tough enough le. Please… Somebody saaaaaaaaaaave me! No lah, just kidding. Probably need somebody or something to vent my frustration on o.o

What if… …then would you…?

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RAWR

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I had wanted to post something at first. Till i saw something. Something really sweet nobody had ever done (type) to me before. Oh my, i guess i've inherited the "kiasu" and "instant" urgings of Singapore...

Recently (okay lar, just now nia) finished a book called [On Speaking Well] by Peggy Noonan. This book is written in an interesting format. Not one of those Dummies book along the shelf. But in an almost autobiography manner of Peggy herself and her experience as a Speech Writter (job title in caps as now i really respect them). Even a anti-book person like me would be engross in that!

So here's something i've lifted from it (oops)...
[an eulogy to Diana]

Today is our chance to say thank you for the way you brightened our lives, even though God granted you but half a life. We will all feel cheated always that you were taken from us so young, and yet we must learn to be grateful that you came at all.

Only now that you are gone do we truly appreciate what we are without, and we want you to know that life without you is very, very difficult.

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Indeed, to sanctify your memory would be to miss out on the very core of your being- your wonderfully mischievous sense of humor, with a laugh that bent you double, your joy for life transmitted wherever you took your smile, and the sparkle in those unforgettable eyes, your boundless energy which you could barely contain.

Yeah rather beauty ain't it? In a way i'm deeply moved (i'm a sentimental and emotional person too you know!) by the words Earl Spencer used. Right now, suprisingly, i came with a heart of frustration and anger but left with peace and calmness. As said, i'll never be angry at you. Ha ha!

Going for choir le! Oh my... need to memorise scores =.= Argh! Ha ha... jia youz for me. I'll update on my school stuff on the next post.

P.S. Your english really good lor, i don't think i can ever blog like you, and the way you express your feelings/thoughts =)

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trust

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Today was a long and gloomy day. I promised somebody before that I'll be strong. And so i will. Just shaving the tip of the iceberg in this post…

Chair for two? I supposed not. Why? Why am i the only one on that chair for two? It’s either the other person leaves without a word or doesn’t even come at all. It’s such a dark and cold night, and i’m always alone, just when i thought i found a warmth. (this is an analogy btw). Shall not go on further…

 

Went to meet up with Colin too. He stays quite a distance yeah, but since it’s like long long time meet once why not? This is the night view outside his house =)

 

As i was walking i saw those poles. Maybe i should have just banged my head against those poles. If i had the power to hold you back and grab you tight, I'd would. Paul feels powerless. Note to self: Bang head on hard pole if i even get the chance.

 

Hmmm let’s try another alternative. Maybe i should have just stand at the cross-roads? The traffic was rather heavy. If a car did crush me, I'll be followed on by a rampage of them so I'll feel no pain. A better alternative if you asked me.

ARGH, so many thoughts. But i just want to remember certain stuffs. I was proud you know. Was proud to have you. I thought you’ll change my life. You did, but not together as one. Now? I’m back to square one…

About the title: Trust
What does it means to you? For me, i feel that trust has different levels or types. There are trust in speech (believing what you say), trust in actions (having faith in what you do) and trust in thoughts (as written). And most of the time, we humans cannot control events that occur to us or maybe just to a certain extent our experiences. To you, i trusted wholly. But i guess it was misplaced. I trusted your feelings.

That hug… I didn’t know why i did it. It’s similar to the first time i gave it to you, except the thoughts in my head. Pervious was “wow” and yesterday was a “goodbye”

I never ever placed my feelings above people. That’s probably why i never got them. sigh… That’s why i looked strong. That’s why i smile and “laughed” about it. I know what works, i know that if i don’t take this seriously you’ll forget about me sooner than i can stop this trembling of mine…

As soon as you left, i ran home crying and screaming on my pillow. The voices were grim. The knot was torn. World was back shaking as it used to be. I lost you.

On a brighter note. I’ll get over the situation pretty quick as well. Things I've learnt over 5 + 1 times now =) Ha ha, i remembered something, you never said goodbye right? Then you better start something afresh. Ha ha. Oh wait, you won’t be reading my blog till like awhile. Oh well, when you do i hope you’ve cooled off and ready to just embrace me in a different way =) Friendship stays forever you know ;P

Lesson learnt: Sweet doesn’t equate to Love.

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quiet

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These few days have been rather quiet... I wonder what's going on?

Should i be nosey? Should i ask? Should i?

Lab is equally quiet... can i depend? I'm tired >.<

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Is it okay?

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Will it be alright? Is it too much for me to ask? Is it okay if I'll call you mine?

 

And i can’t wait to see you again…

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alog blog clog

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I've nothing to blog about, just want to fill this space up :) Lest people find my blog dead =P
So in a cinema char shao bao and man tou went to watch a romantic video, but why only did char shao bao cried at the end?
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Because char shao bao has fillings (feelings) but man tou doesn't!!!

Okay, it's a lame one. Let me try something more intelligent...
Among bread and coffee, which is the noiser one?
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Bread. Because Bread(talk) and kopi(tiam)!!!

Ha ha ha xD And the "Ha ha ha" is there to just humour me, since nobody else does.

Updates on my FYP- I've finally finished my 3rd extraction and now in the process of grinding leaves to smaller bits so as to increase the surface area (basic chem stuff).

Why do i tell of lame jokes? 2 reasons, maybe either occurance or both occurance. 1st is that i'm not really smart in terms of street smartness, but i'm witty :P 2nd is that i want your attention =) Hee hee.

Argh, i'll talk more next time. Gonna be 2 soon le =X Till next time...

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