Dear readers...

Fun was today's main word. I had plenty of it today, i think cause today's... CLASS OUTING!!! Woke up at, 0915 lazily from bed cause of alarm on phone (been tracking my sleep hours, and today was 5hrs). Somehow i can manage to stone on my bed for 5whole minutes just me "meditating". Fortunately i prepared my stuffs yesterday, also with the help of chris, i got my bag with extra set of clothes, towel, deodorant, comb, powder, sunblock lotion and swiss knife (just in case!). I reached my bus stop at 945, thought i couldn't make it in time, and rushed a bit. In the end, i reached Harbourfront MRT station at 1030 =.= 30min faster than initial time. So used this time to chat on the phone and soon after JJ came and the rest as well.

Total strength for that day was 10 + Joyce who just came for lunch. Ha ha, talking about lunch, each student in NYP is given $4. So it's a total of $120 class budget (can go slowly count total class people). And our lunch was totally covered by the school =)

The school gave us (cause 4 of us ate the same thing, Erine, Estee, Lih Jing and Me)...
~ta dah~ German grilled fish fillet. Uhm! Delicious =)

Entrance to Sentosa. Da Sentosa Station. Newly built monorail called the Sentosa Express. Many chances to see scenary but lots of construction still. Lets move!

Ah. Sentosa! Home of the Asia's Southern most point! Ya, if u scringe your eyes to the middle-left of the picture you can see 2 observatory towers which is that spot! Anyways, we settled down just under the tree, put all our stuffs down. Then continued with...
Beach Volleyball! Okay lah, new at this game. I think i fared not bad though! I have excellent serve, and i was serving in a match that we played against different group of players. It was dam awesome and cool, like randomly pitting against outsiders. Ha ha. We won 2 out of 3 games we played! Glad for myself. But my hands and along my arms area are killing me. Painful >.< Overall: Beach Volleyball rockz!


And of course the favourite game. Frisbee. Didn't really play much though. Except for a simple frisbee match among ourselves. Oh it rained around 3 plus 4 i think. At that point of time i just "died" from fatigue. Ha ha. Strainous on my body i guess. Under da hot sun for few hours, and i think the sunblock lotion was effective =X didn't notice and obvious tan-line. (awwww)

And of course. Tanning. Oh for your info, the class outing 10 people. Distribution of gender was like 70% female. Ya, so most of them were under the shade sun-taning while the 3 of us were playing ball. Ha ha. Hopefully i can tan till skinny wor, if can i would do that everyday :)

Yeah Paul continue dreaming! Lolx

So right. After that went to Comex with Sherry and Haida (omg i've went there everyday le!) cause Sherry wanted to find a scanner. Directed them like a good tour guide and arrive at level 4 where printers, scanners and photocopiers were all exhibited. Along the way, we squeezed like nobody's business. And one thing i heard from the city hall MRT: Dear passengers, if you're not boarding the train, please leave the station. Ha ha, it's like wdh?!? SMRT shooing people away now??? Ha haz, oh and i saw the fencing up for the F1 formula night race around Suntec city. Quite cool with that audience deck now-in-progress =) Oh, Sherry bought a scanner cum printer at $88, a star buy. And i saw her trolley-ed it back. Ha ha, really inconvenient lo. They should improve the human traffic more abit!

Hmmm, probably be eating supper with Chris later. Cause yesterday randomly asked him out today after his consonance practice. OMG i'm getting fat again! Nooooo >.< Need excercise, must resist fatty foods!!!

LGBB4EvA...

Dear readers...

This morning woke up even earlier, at 7am. Ha ha, didn't think i manage to wake up though >.< >.< Rain was rather strong! Winds going as fast as F1 racing cars. Ha ha.

~ God can you share with me the password as well? I need it ~.~

Yeah! Freedom! Lolx, the sweet yet boring taste of it. Ha ha. At least i'm not binded by exam papers now =) Weeee! So happy! Ha ha. Genomics sucks!!! But it's in our daily life. Ha ha.

Oh, going to watch Wall.E today. Since it's the official opening hopefully i can get a seat =.= Hmmm, today also Comex opening. Probably will go there see see awhile, hahas maybe even can bum into friends? I don't know =P Anyways, will be updating this tonight, so stay tuned....

Watched Wall.E this afternoon at 1550.There's this 10min advertisement about a magic show. Lolx. Overal, loved the moive cause it's quite touching as well, specially when they call out each other's name. Eeva! Directives...* holds clamp up* directives *points to the heart* classified! ... Hmmm some spoilers. A few stuffs that i was impressed upon: 1. holding hands as an act of showing love. 2. the true meaning of kiss when a current is exchanged. 3. WALL.E stands for Waste Allocation Load Lifter Earth-class, EVE stands for Extraterrestrial Vegetation Evaluator. 4. WALL.E expressed "his" emotions only through 1 part of his system. Lolx eyes lah =)

Hmmm, that's colin. Ha ha, had dinner with him. But he already like sian 1/2 mmm i wonder why ?_?

My dinner. Oops gone!

His dinner. Ha ha, still need to help him finish!

That's me! Long time no take self pic le. Ha ha, just putting for fun bahz :)

Oh Comex IT fair! Ha ha, went to find andrew. As usual he selling ahnlab products (anti-virus software). Hmmm saw a few stuffs like laptop cooler and 4gb thumdrive which costs $20!!! OMG i wanna buy >.<

Hmmm, the fountain at Suntec city. Dang i missed the laser show!

Hmmm andrew decided to give us a ride back home, since he can claim his taxi fare. Ha ha, he also needed to bring all these home lo! Total worth ~$8000! Ha ha, yup it's that ex. Many people were staring at us like we stole something like that. And then we had to wait for taxi...

Oops. Ha ha, was facing his STARBUCKS COFFEE for like 20min before Andrew finally managed to called in a cab =) Since he can claim the money, my as well fetch us home ;P hehex

Well, got home quite late and blogged this quite late as well. Awww tomorrow mother asked me to work for the lunch shift -> 1200-1400. Dang, can't meet Donovon and Jonathon le =( Another time bahz... And Amos also suddenly say don't want go school. Sigh, guess i'll be waiting at home for something to happen. Oh ya, Sat class gathering and outing @ Sentosa!!!! OMG OMG OMG, so excited =) hehe

I'm lovin' it...

Dear beloved readers...

Woke up at 11 plus today and tried someone's cooking in fried rice (i think). Ha ha, rather delicious man. Hmmm, i still remember the last time i tasted someone's cooking was like valentine's day? Ha ha. But that's in the past... hope i don't get diarrhea from this. Hee hee, just kidding :P

Alright, so i went to the NLB located at Bishan with Joe to study for our last paper. You must be wondering, Joe's business course and my science course, study together what study? *pai sei for the use of singlish* We still studied lo, cause i can't study alone. LMAO. Weird right? If alone i'll get distracted, but with friends i can progress quite alot sia. Think all those genomics stuffs are encapsulated and ready to be transcript and translate for tomorrow's paper! Whoo hoo!

Oh. Dinner was at ThaiExpress =) Hee hee, someone treat me de. Ya ya, it was Joe! Ha ha xD Thanks Joe!!! Had always "admired" the outlet at Serrangoon Gardens, but apparently fate doesn't permit to eat there. Anyways, reason for Joe's generousity -> cause of his birthday and i've treated him some other stuffs before! Hmmm cool, do to others what you want others to do to you.

Off to study the rest of genomics! OMG tomorrow's paper is at 9am >.<>Common Knowledge

A + A = 2As

A – A = 0

A x A = A²

A / A = 1

Each equation has a life lesson behind it- Interaction between 2 people.
Basic functions 1st: + (plus) and - (minus)... A + A = 2As... Do something and someone's supports/agrees and does something that reflects that agreement, you'll get double the result... A - A = 0... Vice versa with the previous equation, someone objects/reject/against you and does something about it, you'll end with nothing or no progress.
Advance functions: x (multiply) and / (division)... A x A = A2... It's an exponential result based on you and another party, it's friendship where 2 person effort combines to form a result it's always more than expected cause a greater force is involved, the power of 2! A2 (A square)... A / A = 1... This is somehow a combination of + (plus) and - (minus), i would interpret this equation as an overlapping. Both parties could be at fault or none at all where someone tries to outbeat you and jealousy takes place. Both party would fight and eliminate the overall results to give a simple 1.

Hahas, yupz that's all i have for now... crap too much le.

Hugging off...

Hey readers!

I'm back! Ha ha. Okay i'm probably suffering some split personality sickness (lolx SPS), so this would be my "previous" self. Hopefully i can eliminate the 13th Sep 2007 - 13th Sep 2008 part of me. Memories are meant to be revisited. Are you sure?

Anyways i've just returned from...
~ta da! Yup it's plaza singapura *grand music plays* hmmm what does the name signifies? A pinch of malay in the heart of singapore. Ha has, getting distracted again (whoo hoo that's good). Back to the post, went to have dinner appointment with colin. He's 23 this year, hehex so i address him as kor, but from the way he behaves arh... err i think more like my younger brother! Lolx. Hmmm i had duck rice while he had fish soup with rice, we chatted and window shopping awhile before we left. Harz, guess we have some things in common such as there will only be that one person in our heart that no1 can EVER replace. And that was our main topic... ho ho.

Reached back around 930pm, but can only use internet now. Ha ha, all the best for me! Hee hee, oh, tomorrow also helping ames to get number for kendo club. Extra line. Hee hee.

Laughing off...

Dear readers...

Had a rough night. Couldn't get proper rest. Awwww, it's me again. I really hate to think about such stuffs, can they just all go away? Feelings... must follow my friend ifwat's advice, learning how to shut my central nervous system whenever necessary. Gosh, feelings i'm sooo numbed by them. Last time cherish now i really detest them.

Please God, show me the way!!!! lalala~

Oh ya, today's post... LMAO xD Went to meet joe after his Tue gone-case paper to go for some jogging (been some time le hor). But obviously due to my lack of training and bad night (plus mental stress plus emotional stress), i fell out after the 2nd round feeling sick and just wanna throw up. Fortunately i didn't throw up, haha didn't want to look so weak in front of joe also. xD Dang i need to train more! Well, had lunch at North canteen then now at mac blogging.

At least have a nice time today, even if it's just accompanying for 2 sicking rounds. Ha ha. Able to keep my mind of him for that 2 hours is always much better :) I need more distraction! Oh having a dinner appointment with colin later. Ha ha let's see how it goes...

Signing out, sweating...

FUCK IT LAH!!!

My friends would know that i almost never scold vulgarities. I'm already at my wits end le, why can't you just be happy. I'm almost psychotic; want to kidnap you and just kill you to just spend time with you. Muahaha >.< I don't know? From friendship there can be love, from love there will be no friendship left.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!

Why the hell am i feeling like this? Can someone cure me? I want to just see you, hear you, touch you till i'm going bonkers. Forever is too long. Is there really no more chance for me? Just you building this bloody stronghold which i can't overcome- you. I'll do anything to get you, yet i'll do anything to applease you. Thought of any situation where it contridicts? YESH, i'm facing one now and i don't think this will ever resolve.

You know, desperation can make a man do things... I'm thinking of robbing you each time i see you coming back home, planting mines on your gate so i'll see it explode, stalk you forever, be crazy and start doing insane stuffs, or forcefully take you away from your house and ur will. Muahaha.

Okay *reverts back to Paul bear awhile* how did it ended like this??? Yeah, you said you're much happier without me. I tried to ask you out, go outing but you said don't want. Ask you go Singapore flyer also don't want. Then now ignore me le, then go with some other friends and say it's much better without me? Please lah, see yourself. People trying to make their lives and your life better yet you got to spoil it. Har, emotional pain physical discomfort you? RUBBISH! Load of craps. I totally detest your attitude. And yet i'm deeply in love with you. WHAT THE FUCK?!?

Crapz, i need to civilise more abit. There goes 18-more days to 1 year good times. Har how powerful is this thing we call memories? You didn't threw them away, you just pretended they were never there. I really feel like giving you a big tight slap than kiss... ARRRRGH!

Even if you said that there were 0.1% chance of being friends, i'd rather wait and give up all other things. But you said there were no chance forever, you know what? I'll still be waiting for you, I must achieve this target. You're a challenge, and i must get your friendship even if i die trying (not really hard to die nowadays). Time will heal and tell the truth. I believe that you're better than this. Please...

By the way, readers please keep this within your eyes and the blogger.com nia. Don't go around asking or whatsoever.

Dear readers


Finished cell tech paper today!!! Whoo hoo, 2 hr paper 10qn 10 marks each and i finished within 1hr and 10mins! Ha ha i think i was the fastest wor. Then left the cold examination hall, i walked from the 8th chair in the front all the way back to the exit lo. Around 30 seats in total, abit pai sei for walking like that also.

Shoo~! Away with you stupid cells xP

Uhm, 1st picture with Melvin! Ahhh and can see so many pimples on me le >.< Gosh i look so shitty in this pic and feel so short. Ha ha, actually is i bend down de =) Taken when i was in SP then bum into him!

Me Chinese
Me Play Joke
Me Go Pee-Pee
In Your Coke

Ha ha got this from a website. Remember to any o how drink coke okay? Specially with a bear like me around xD

Arh, some cosplay. Ha ha, my favourite characters as well!!! Awesome! I wish i can be in one of them as well, someday. Now need to focus on training my body 1st. Hee hee.

HELLO to my friends out there!!! Ha ha, specially to my lost one.

Okayz, next paper on thurs. Can afford to slack abit! Yupz, hmmm i somehow feel quite sad cause of certain events that happen. Sigh, haha don't you wish sometimes you can just turn back time? Ha ha uber cliche, yes i know. It's the truth, always thinking about what happened and how to make it better, rather than cause of what happen to make the future better?

I want to cherish every moment i have, cause moments are rare and short-lived. lol. I'll be still waiting...

Wanting you and me...

Dear readers...

Dare to slack???

Harz, asking the wrong person liaoz. Ha ha, i'm blogging this from my cousin's house, still. Lolx. Cute penguin though, i should get a penguin plushie. Ha ha, cuddly correction thanks to nick and cute looking. Wahahah. Anyways, main thing is that i spent the whole of yesterday PLAYING!!! OMG haha, 2 more papers are soooo screwed up >.< size="1">from shin... xD

Slacking off

Dear readers

This would be another of my rare posts! Ha ha. Well, many of my peers exams are over but not for me. I still have 2 more papers on Mon and Thur to go =( You see, now i'm at my cousin's house overnight. Ha ha, can look at the posting time... it's already 315am in the morning. Surprisingly i'm not tired!

Hmmm, haven't seen you online for 1 week plus le. Are you avoiding me? I really want to make it up to you. Really stressed these past few weeks and quite moody as well as sensitive to everything. Sometimes just did things in a haste and deeply regret later. The reason for giving back all the stuffs? Not to say it's over and get out of my life, it's to symbolise that -> I no longer want to go back to the past, and i hope we can start afresh completely new without any past influence that would otherwise affect the way you respond to me. I don't miss you, i miss the friendship. I don't love you, i love the times we had playing and having fun. I don't care about you, i only bother at the stuffs you bother also. And i don't want another chance, i want to start anew...

Wishing you would reply...

Dear readers...

Mugged all night last night! Today's paper very heavy for me, cause it's a repeat module and i hope to get better grades. Yeah, now blogging at school's Mac again. Ha ha, so it's 2 more paper to go!!! Gampeteh for me =)

Oh ya, about today's paper. These are the topics in which the questions were... That's the overview, there's urinary system, blood and cardiovascular system.

Ha ha, there was questions on spermatozoa as well. So not fair sia, i only studied about oogenesis =X

Arh, yeah there's a 7 mark question on the urinary system. And basically i drew this. Ha ha, of course without the colour and the human body *achem*

And in my module, you can never run away from hormones. Had a 10 marks question on indirect negative feedback with an example. I gave the corticoids example (it's the adrenal glands, above your kidneys and help regulate blood glucose level with insulin). Hopefully no spelling errors >.< OMG OMG OMG!!! I didn't study for brain also =X I completely blanked out when they asked for the 6 brain areas... Nooooooooo 9 marks gone! ARGH!!!

Well, so now trying to relax awhile. Since i'll be going over to my cousin's house during the weekends. Yay can play bball and DoTA all night, muahaha =D Oh and parents will be going to Genting/KL from today till Sunday. Ha ha, i sense a tinge of freedom running up my arteries (or veins). Anyways, there's still paper next Mon and Thur so can't slack too much =) I'll end off with this movie clip i got from the net... So cute, just like me =X haha i'm Paul bear mah >.<


Da da da, i'll be there for you =) Forever. Ha ha, hope to be your brother bear someday...

Dear readers

I'm official going ...
Sigh... It's all about exam stress i hope, not anything else. Have a clear mind, able to recall knowledge that helps bring humanity to life.

I'm crappin'

Then again, i'm going to rant about my conception on friendship. Ha ha...

Any relationship would symbolise a white cloth. Relationship includes parent to child, husband and wife, siblings and even friend to friend. So this is like the "start" of 2 person's interaction/communication.

Then along the way, different things are "painted" and installed in the friendship... things such as trust...

Respect... and

Loyalty towards each other... So it's all painted colourfully in this wonderful picture of relationship.

And this is mine...
Picture says it all... broken and torn apart.

Only time will tell as they say. I look back, and when i look back, gives me hope to carry on. But this hope would only bring me high and then you'll slam me back to Earth real dam hard.

Learn from the past, cherish the present and embrace the future...

Hope is a powerful tool given to man. It's the battle between Hope and Disappointment. Who will win???

My emotional muscles are being stretched to the limit. Emotional stamina is failing me now. I'm undergoing this tunnel with no directions and no light. But i'm still gonna train hard, and win this race. I'm gonna hope...

Training-in-progress

Dear readers...
This is for my good friend Joel. Ha ha. I'm sure you like binary numbers, so here's a binary heart for you to say thanks for everything =)

Today... 10am Drug Development test, 9:53am woke up. ***RECORD***
--> Reached school at 10:18am ***NEW RECORD***
Obviously took 310 down. Sigh, more like $6 in the end. Luckily, managed to finish the 1hr 40MCQ paper in time. Dr Henry was pretty cool, the kind of lecture you want to have. You see, i missed the first paper and he offered an excuse to help me get the alternative paper. You rox!!!

Then i hang around school, looking at the other examination "sites" Block A level3, TFTA and Sports Stadium till around 1140am. Hoping to find someone, apparently didn't =.= Sigh, I yearn to meet you but i'm more afraid at what you're gonna say when i see you...

I gave up "searching". And just went back home, looking at the bus-stops and paying attention to buses whether you were inside. I'm going nuts.

Is it that difficult not to think about someone?
[((You))]













[((Me))]
Can't even see me now. Sigh...

Gonna play dota with cousin. Hopefully will take my mind off you for just 1hr today.

God i need a miracle. Bestow on me a new life!

DoTA-ing off...

Dear readers...


Ha ha. I've just finished my Molecular Biology of Infectious Disease paper today. And i realized that i have to take an alternative paper tomorrow for Drug Development. Fortunately it's 40MCQ >.<" Phew

Am rather irritated some how. Ha ha, guess mood-swing kicking in again. And i keep being forgetful also. I don't know what's wrong with me. I hope is nothing serious like the ones i'm gonna list below... Check it out!

Ho ho. Oops, wrong picture. Lol, brings a whole new meaning in eating chocolate =x

This is dengue infection. I'm not sure why isit like that. Don't ask me. Ha ha.

This is liver cirrhosis from viral infection. I kinda like this pic, makes me feel like chewing on that piece of raw liver though =X Great sadist urges...

Ah, my favorite. Infection of red blood cells, pathogen: malariae. Be careful, be very very careful. It's an electron micrograph i think =P ha ha.

Why am i posting all these pictures? I don't know. Probably i wanna throw all these away, after finishing a paper. Ha ha. Now i'm gonna rush Drug Development, just after playing =P

Ahhh, return to me please! I miss u

Emo-ing off

Dear readers

My com has been healed!!! (for some time le) Thanks to my cousin, kel, which helped me reformat. Okies, the following pictures are afew of the accumulated pics that my hp got =X rolling...

My cousin's house lift. 5th storey @ Rivervale. Ha ha, i know how to get to there le =)

Ah, after em's blog on her mom's curry potato. I discovered this as well. See the evil face? >:(

A glimspe of SSO (Singapore Symphony Orchestra) that happened inside NYP auditorium. Conductor was Mr Darrel Ang. It was mainly string instruments i.e. violin, double bass and a harp. They sound awesome!

Guess what is this, heh heh =x

A closer look! Ha ha, it's stewed penis!!! Wahaha, no lah! Just kidding. Haven't guessed what is this arh? Tag me to find out =P

A lovely 1936 sight taken from my corridoor. Ha ha, same numbers to the price of petrol.

2nd guess. Where's this? *Hint: It's a JC

Taken from SP. Why i was there? Joe pulled me over there to watch his secondary school, Chestnut grove sec, musical called It's my life (yeah, there's that song). Overall was pretty impressive showcase by them. There were singing, dancing, acting and drama-ing. Was touched to a certain extent though =) Oh wanted message melvin when i reached, then so qiao saw him walking towards me. Ha ha, he said he just gym-ed with his friends. And the instruments that were tortured by him were the stationary bicycle, treadmill and the sloper thingy (forgot that name). Ha ha, next time we can gym together! Cool...

Oh yeah. 1 thing i noticed. SP is soooooooooooooooooooooooo dam big. Compared to NYP, SP is probably 3 times bigger lor! That's the "bridge" just outside the auditorium.

Class room doors. Not very impressive in relative to the infrastructures =x

Da entrance!!! Most people will see this when they're entering SP from Dover station.

Ah, this is the EEE block. Errr, i think it stands for E______ and Electronic Engineering =X Really forgot the 1st one. Pai sei, this is melvin's diploma >.<

Da Auditorium!!! SP infrastructures are sooooooooooooooo dam cool as well. You can't tell that SP is a school, more like a shopping mall, market, food haven, sports center and convention hall building. By the way, to NYP-ians, ha ha SP has Macs + Koufu + KFC + Pizza hut + 7-11. In total of 6 canteens with 2 i mentioned in the above. IT'S IS LIKE WDH? NYP IS ONLY ...

Auditorium is sitted somewhat at level 1. And "ground" level was level 2 (usual for me). Glam glam people walking around...

The musical title!!! You guys rox!!!

Well, that's it for now. Plenty more updates to come.

[Events happened][Event occurring][Events to come]
I've seen the 1st two and i regreted alot of my actions in the second box. Chance is something that you think whether anot i deserve it and whether you deserve it. I've known my mistake and i'm willing to change. Can we make the 3rd box a fresh new start?

Not a day or night or dream went pass without you inside it. Time is on your side, and is time is on me.

Gleaming at you, still...